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It's actually so comforting to have classmates with mental illnesses or issues. Like, yeah, I'm not alone in this shit!

"Are you okay? I noticed that you lost weight..."

The guilt after getting ill is consuming me away. I wish, I was able to change or heal.

Metro reading experience

Metro 2033: wow what a ride. Let's check what else is there. Metro 2034: Metro 2035: anyway.

I may not understand psychosomatic disorders, but damn, people definitely should stop stigmatizing them. Like, why the fuck it's called pseudo just because it has mental origin? You wouldn't call someone depression pseudo, so why the fuck you're calling functional symptoms pseudo?

Guys with FND/Conversion disorder/Idk, whatever you call it, you're completely valid. I genuinely don't care about your disease being psychogenic, you're still a legend with completely real symptoms, just not psychical origin.

PNES are PNES. It's a psychological, conversion, functional, dissociative seizure. Of course it's non-epileptic. But. Often missing the word of the seizure being functional can harm those who have non-epileptic, but NOT psychological seizures.

Non-epileptic ≠ Functional.

Get over it.

"Epilepsy this!" "PNES that!"

Yeah, yeah... I got it, now, when will we bring awareness about paroxysmal dyskensias? I bet, there's at least one person who's reading this post and instead of FND has some kind of dyskensia. Do not let doctors down your disorder. The thing that might be seen as psychogenic, can actually be a genetic.

Bring awareness about paroxysmal dyskensias. Do not let them put us down.

Non-epileptic seizure doesn't mean that the seizure is due to FND or PNES! There are much more conditions than epilepsy and PNES. Stop seeing only white and black, when there exists a gray side.

When you suddenly realize that you need to do your lessons, but your whole body is hurting and also twitchy and a small activity could turn you into a shaking mess:

Sometimes it amuses me how if epileptic will have 6 seizures in one day, they will be hospitalised immediately and given treatment, while with dyskensias they just... Give the "Well, damn, but you're conscious during seizures." Yeah, I am, but why the fuck I had 6 in a row?? Sometimes, I think that tearing my ligament wouldn't be as hard as getting treatment, lol.

Speaking about dyskinesia always makes people assume that you're talking about FND. Errr....

game artyom: single-handedly can take out whole reds and reich battalions and has visited the surface more than once and survived to tell the tale. master at stealth and in weapon handling

book artyom: escaped hanza bc got covered in human feces

When your illness is so rare, that you've 62% chance of being misdiagnosed and everyone who you find on YouTube is a random old guy and just a 18(?) years old guy:

People are talking about how they understand you, how you are still you, even if you got sick. But when I get a combination of movement disorders, y'all are DAMNED.

Hear me out.

WTH, WHY ARE MY FEED IS SUDDENLY FILLED WITH THOSE DID/OSDD POSTS AND ENDOS, LIKE HOW DO I GET THOSE WELLCHAIR USERS BACK?!

Calling every chronic illness a "disability", is low-key stupid, don't y'all think like that? It is almost as if y'all tried to put a label on everything you don't understand. Sometimes, illnesses can, just... Not fit in your expectations. And y'all should accept it. Repeat after me, "Not every chronic illness is a disability!".

Not all seizures are epileptic, and not all non-epileptic seizures are PNES. Hope this helps!

Years will pass and I will never understand, why, just why, there's only 2 sides when it comes to my illness? Some of you immediately start to pity and pamper me, treat me as if I barely understand something, while the other consists of people who are almost the same as the 1st type, but these are trying to do it differently, trying to look caring and understandable, but in the end they are almost the same. And also, since when the phrase "I'm not letting my illness stop me." Became something ablestic? No, I don't want to treat myself as a snowflake. I don't want to do something less, because YOU think that I'll have a flare up. Flare ups are only MY and MINE DEAL, NOT YOURS. I don't want to sit and whine about how fragile my body is. This only makes me look WEAK. Since when I need to work less, just because I'm ill? Maybe I WANT to work?? Maybe I CAN work?? Maybe, it is YOU the one who sees only code in my med card?!

Fuck it. As someone who was born in Russia, I fucking despise the all angry and alcoholic russian stereotype. No, not all russians drink vodka. No, we don't have constant winter. No, we aren't angry 24/7. And no, most of us don't have the "typical" russian accent. I'm tired of "russian" characters who are just a walking stereotype.

I just needed to say this, thank you.

And still, I'm curious how an appointment which I used to go to every week a few months ago, turned into something I'm afraid of. Making me have flashbacks over and over when I just hear the word "neurologist. Made me have a whole panic attack just because I need to go to a doctor. No, please, I don't want to be treated anymore... Can't you just avoid me? Don't remember about my disease? Make me live a normal life?

To be honest, after years of searching, trying to find my diagnosis, I just... Stopped caring about this. I even started to like this thing, I know, it harms me, but do I want to treat it? No. It's a part of me, that I like.

Honestly, I'm impressed at how much research people who believe that Mizuki is trans did. And these proofs are really strong, like... you can't just easily refute them. While people who believe that Mizuki is crossdresser, only rely on mizu5... As if that didn't prove that Mizuki is transfem... Like... If she was a boy, she wouldn't run away like that and wouldn't have a panic attack. People really should stop debating over her gender, and finally accept that she's trans.

reposting my art there, cuz I really liked it... gonna publish more art in the future!

After so long, I finally drew an art of my favorite album! I just recently got into Lemon Demon, so...

(I guess, I'll draw Neil soon... From mouth moods...)

Happy new year, everyone!

OKAY, THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT. A question about one of my OCs. They should be trans, cuz I want so, plus this will be reasonable in the story I write. THOUGH. Should I make them transfem or transmasc? And how to write about their identity?

I absolutely despise how scientists are represented in the media. Like no bro, I don't wanna read another story of a violent scientist with syringes, who's mad and cruel, THAT'S BORING! At least try to make it interesting, giving them something unique. Because, there's already enough just violent and cruel scientists, to the point where I reject almost all my universes that contain a bad lab. Like hell, I don't want to make another cliche... Plus it's boring to write.

Yo. I'm Mizuki fan that considers them non-binary or a crosdressing boy but I also understand and accept tfem Mizuki. I think all opportunities are possible and the staff did it on purpose so all people, no matter what their identity are, can relate to them. Asian fans also think that way. I've seen japanese fans who treat Mizuki as a boy, as X-gender, as a tfem. I've also seen people who see them as a cis girl but that one's kinda meh... But the thing is, they don't quarell, they just love Mizuki. They actually don't care much about Mizuki's gender as much as western fans do. I'm fine with how things are in game but the fandom has indeed become insufferable so I understand your feelings. And I'm genuinely sorry even though I don't interact with the fandom at all. Really. All these "Mizuki is a crossdresser!!!" and "Mizuki is a trans representation!!!" are becoming annoying, it's like people don't actually care about Mizuki as a character. As a person. I think we should care less about their gender... Mizuki is Mizuki, and their friend has accepted them the way they are, and that's the only thing that matters to me.

THIS. I don't know who you are, but you're definitely a legend.

you're a fucking poser

You only proved my opinion on Mizuki fans. There's definitely something to think about, if the same Mizuki transfem believer starts to hate on her, and her fans just cuz of these gender debates. Is it really that important? Do you really care about what she has in her pants instead of her character?

I don't know if my opinion is valid, though, I'd like to say it.

I absolutely hate Mizuki and her fans. I understand that y'all love her, but please, can we go without these gender debates? Y'all look stupid while trying to prove who Mizuki is transfem or crossdresser. Like, I just want to watch a video of my (previously) favorite character and then see another gender debate. Like why the fuck are you so bothered what's in her pants? As if that could change the universe....

Mizuki is actually flexible in this case. Whatever theory you believe, just try to... Think of another? If you think that she's a crossdresser, then... Try to view her from the side of a transfem and vice versa. And you'll see how flexible she is. So... Maybe we should try to pressure sega to reveal her gender?? I myself believe that she's transfem or non-binary, but still... It all looks like a bait of two audiences.

And cuz of these gender debates, she started to annoy me. Especially after Ena5. She's just... Ugh... Running and running away, not waiting to talk and then screams like a pig. Kinda feels sorry both to Mizuki and Ena fans. Sega once again made a mistake.

Anyways. I know that there will be a bunch of Mizuki fans, who may or may not be aggressive. So, if you want to argue, prove me another point, then feel free to DM me. Just let's get it easy and without aggression to both of us, okay? Mizuki is just pixels after all. Anyways, it's just my opinion and a little rant.... What can I say in the end is... Be chill, and not be aggressive, cuz that's not cool. Have a good day.