I May Not Understand Psychosomatic Disorders, But Damn, People Definitely Should Stop Stigmatizing Them.

I wish I could vent to someone... Or at least be hugged. I can't I'm turning into a whimpering mess, all covered in snot, tears, saliva and feeling nauseous. I hate myself

Hear me out.

Calling every chronic illness a "disability", is low-key stupid, don't y'all think like that? It is almost as if y'all tried to put a label on everything you don't understand. Sometimes, illnesses can, just... Not fit in your expectations. And y'all should accept it. Repeat after me, "Not every chronic illness is a disability!".

The fact that something could go wrong, and I'd have committed su!c!de already, scares me shitless. I have no fucking idea how I managed to not commit with constant su!c!dal thoughts, but I've managed.

TW: Bl00d!!

Don't report, just block if you're sensitive towards sh and bl00d. Hope you're okay, because usually these kinds of posts are watching people who are struggling with sh.

Help your child before it's too late.

(The bl00d looks so faky tbh. Probably because my phone is making everything brighter:/)

I'm so tired of feeling nothing. I'm not sad nor happy. It's just... Emptiness?

Hey are you okay? Stay safe

No, I'm not. Literally thinking about suicide and cutting everyday. But I still have hope I guess... I mean, I have a neurological condition called chronic hyperkinetic syndrome, and this thing can appear due to some mental illnesses, and my case looks like that cuz I haven't got tumors, and I'll probably get help, to heal at least CHS. But firstly, I need to go to a neurologist again...

Okay, I got used to relapse after few days of school, but.... WHY THE F#CK I RELAPSED ON HOLIDAYS? I can't describe how much I wanna cut my arms in a bl!!dy mess, I can't describe how much I wanna make deep cuts, but... I'm still afraid of my self-h!!rm being discovered... Especially if it'll see my teachers, neurologist, parents, etc... I just don't get this feeling when I cut my legs:(. Also I'm self-h!!rm!ng about 7 months, lol

I have no idea what's happening with me. I don't know why but I started to want to lose some weight, and be skinner, even though my weight is 46 kg with a height of 160 cm. And I'll try to do it, I wanna weigh 43 kg or 40... I also will try to do exercises and eat not too much... I hate my body.

WHY CAN'T I FUCKING CUT MYSELF?? WHY CAN'T I SLICE MY SKIN AGAIN LIKE I USED TO?! I'M GETTING FUCKING TIRED OF THESE DISABILITIES, SEIZURES AND OTHER SHIT. I JUST WANNA BE HEALTHY OR ALLOWED TO MUTILATE MY BODY. I WANT TO HAVE THE CONTROL I LOST.