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Seeing my boyfriend be muscular and fit is just extra motivation for me to become the skinny, dainty, fragile girlfriend he deserves ‼️🔥

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I'm so mad I've been eating in a deficit of 800 cals for the past week and I have not been losing an ounce of weight it's just not going below that 55kgs mark, no it kept fluctuating between 55.5 and 55.1 even, I am so mad at myself I don't even know what's wrong

I'm gonna eat ice cubes, loads of them, as breakfast/lunch from now on because I keep eating instead of drinking water so I hope this'll help

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Goal for myself to hit tomorrow: 25k+ steps

We gon' be power walking to the moon

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Fasting rn so my only meal of the day can be a tub of halotop ice cream muhahahahaha

-320 kcal

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I want to get so thin and sickly I land in the hospital or get taken out of my mom's home. I'm middle eastern so you know how the culture is, you're not allowed out of the house unless you're married.. I have an abusive father (his side of the family is insane too) and brother who both went to jail so if I move out without an excuse they'll kill me anyway so might aswell land myself in the hospital yk

It sounds dangerous but man it's probably the best idea I've had in a while

My mom got a hula hoop and it's such a fun way to get some exercise in for anyone that hates moving around (like me) 😭

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Omg now that I've gotten into the rhythm of liquid fasting I'm so at peace with myself I finally don't feel guilty or disgusting and I can indulge in my favourite beverage: diet coke!!

Lmao it was actually on sale today in stores and you KNOW I had to take my chance hahaha

Stay skinny! <3 ✨

I'm gonna set clear rules for myself from now on so I don't make any more exceptions

-water fast a minimum of 3 days a week

-no more than 800 calories a day

-try to eat around 500 a day

-no processed sugars

-8 glasses or 5 bottles of water a day

-if I binge I must fast for the next 5 days as punishment

-weigh ins I'll change to every week so I don't get demotivated

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today I binged really badly and I'm really not in the headspace to continue restricting for today, tomorrow I'm gonna water fast though, so wish me luck UPDATE/EDIT: My binge was around a 1100 calories I'd say and I burned 305 calories, so I change my mind I'm gonna restrict for the rest of the day and then starve for 5 days (water fast only) I've done this before I gained a bunch of weight last year and it worked charms, omg I'm so happy I didn't go further!!

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I ate breakfast this morning but I'm gonna fast for the rest of the day!! The breakfast was 245 calories (sandwich + small chocolate). I'm gonna go on a walk with my boyfriend after we're done working so I hope I'll burn all of it off! Stay positive <3 ✨

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

I will not succumb to gluttony

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Gonna update my CW weekly(decided to do it daily anyway) on this post to motivate me to keep goinngg!! It's fine if its stayed the same or hasn't changed much, that just means I gotta keep going harder

CW: 50.9kgs(I FINALLY GOT OUT THE PLATEAU 😭)

Keep going lovelies <3 ✨

sure it won’t make me happy…but i’ll feel better than this.

genuinely didn't think a plateau would happen to me. calories? in check. exercise? every day. plateau? couldn't be me.

and yet.

here we are.

so many of the reddit forums recommend eating at maintenance for a while and it makes me sick to even think about trying, so we're going to weigh and count everything obsessively again, not just the big/non-vegetable things, and lower the max daily calories to 800. i know that's actually a pretty high number for edblr, but 1000 had been working for me for so long…

wish me luck! almost excited to feel the pains again.

i wanna b perfect

Lost 10kg and don't even feel hungry anymore

Doesn't eat > weight stays the same > frustration > binges > drops 2kg

WHAT

Parents: Have you eaten today?

Me: Yes (lying)

Today I had two slices of a carrot.

sustinence

Today's meals

Breakfast: black coffee 2cal

Lunch: Plain shirataki noodles 10cal, a pickle 7cal

Dinner: Sour pickle 7cal

Total: 26 calories.

Steps taken: 862 (Lazy day), burned 37 calories.

Someone said my face looks like a doll, now I just need my body to match.

Girl dinner <3

The feeling of my stomach growling is so much better than feeling full.

Oh to have tiny wrists, thin arms, tiny legs, flat stomach, ribcage sticking out, collarbones showing, skinny fingers <3

Today I had a pickle and some broth

#skinny ✌️🤪

I wish I could take a scalpel and cut it all off

Stepping on the scale over and over again, hoping that the number will somehow go down.

I'm shivering, my head is spinning and I feel tired, food repulses me...

I feel better than ever.

I know I'm in deep shit when a 100 c@lls a day seems too much.