Today I Had A Pickle And Some Broth

"I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control. I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul."

This part of the song always hits the most. Lyrics from "Creep" by Radiohead.

My holy grail: shirataki noodles.

Only 10 calories in 100 grams, fills you up and won't make you fat.

I love the feeling when my stomach hurts from starving <3

visible ribs>>>>>

please imma star(ve)!!! 😭⭐

Buying cute clothes that are too small for me just so that I have more motivation.

Do you really want that pizza or do you want to look good?

I can't wait until I can lay on my side and my stomach fat won't spill over.

Have you ever tried the korean cucumber salad? A few days ago I've made it for the first time and I'm currently OBSESSED with it ^^ Today I wanted to at least try to make a proper meal out of it and personally I think it came out great! Here's the recipe:

100g of konjac noodles - 9kcal

127g of cucumber - 18kcal

0.5tsp of soy sauce - 2kcal

1tsp of Gochujang paste - 20kcal

2 cloves of garlic (minced) - 15kcal

0.5tsp of chili pepper powder - 0kcal

0.5tsp of vinegar - 0kcal

(TOTAL: 64 calories!!)

Cut up your cucumber, place it into a bowl, rub it with salt and put in the fridge for 30-60minutes. Then get the cucumber out of the fridge and rince it with water at least 3 times. In a seperate bowl, mix your soy sauce, garlic, chili, Gochujang, vinegar and a little bit of water(the original recipe asked for chili/sesame oil but I replaced it with water) in order to make the sauce. Prepare the noodles according to the package and add it to the cucumber, then pour in your sauce and mix well. Enjoy!!

(Just a reminder that you DO deserve to eat, you NEED to eat to survive and function properly, you are beautiful just the way you are and you don't need to change anything about you and your body <3 I know how dangerous eating disorders are and how they can ruin your body. I know how hard recovery can be, so please don't force yourself and take it one step at a time. Eating disorders are NOTHING to brag about and I'm not romantizing them in any way. I'm just posting simple recipes while learning how to cook. Please stay safe <333)

No, you won't lose 10 lbs over night

No, you won't notice changes right away

No, you won't go down two sizes in a day

No you won't become thin in just a few days

But you will eventually

One day you'll notice your pants won't stay up anymore

One day you'll shower and look down your body and your tummy will have shrunken

One day you'll see how promintent your collarbone has become

One day you'll put on a bra and notice your ribs are slightly showing on your chest

One day people will comment how slim you've become when they see you or hug you

I promise you it will happen

Just don't lose hope, don't lose motivation, don't lose your dream

You. Can. Fucking. Do. This.