Audhd - Blog Posts

It's called masking ^^

But no, neurodivergent people have to mask heavily (in some situations) to be considered as "socially acceptable". We have literally changed ourselves to be more engaging and to be seen as "normal" to neurotypicals. Neurodivergent people (especially those born afab) are expected to keep quiet and mask all day every day until they break. Neurodivergent people can also hyperfocus and find so many different ways to phrase a sentence or set of instructions to make the point they are trying to get across as clear as humanly possible. It's actually really interesting, if you wanna talk more about this lmk!!

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE ARE JUST... BETTER?????

LIKE, MY NEURODIVERGENT TEACHER IS WAYYY BETTER AT ENGAGING WITH THE CLASS AND ACCURATELY ANSWERING STUDENT QUESTIONS THAN MY NEUROTYPICAL TEACHER

NEURODIVERGENT WORKERS ARE AT LEAST 50% MORE EFFICIENT THAN NEUROTYPICAL WORKERS AT WORKPLACES BC THEIR HYPERFIXATION AND NEED TO K N O W MAKES THEM EFFICIENT AND EQUIPPED FOR THE JOB

AND EVEN IN SMALL TALK, NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE COMMIT 80% MORE TO THE CONVERSATION THAN NEUROTYPICAL PEOPLE. LIKE, IF I COMMENT ABOUT THE WEATHER, A NT PERSON WOULD GO "YEAH, IT'S REALLY HOT" BUT IF A ND PERSON IS THERE, THEY GO "YEAH, DID YOU KNOW THAT IT'S BECAUSE THE STORM IN THE NORTH IS LEECHING THE COLD HERE IT'S WHY IT'S HOT? HERE ARE 6 FACTS ABOUT THE WEATHER" AND PROVIDE A GOOD BACK AND FORTH

MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I'M NEURODIVERGENT MYSELF, BUT I FIND IT IN GENERAL THAT THEY'RE MORE WILLING TO COMMIT AND DO THEIR BEST AT SOMETHING.

Me: covers my ears and rocks back and forth so I don’t have a meltdown My mother: stop it you look like a special needs kid Me: glares in autism

when the autism is being an actual mental health problem instead of making me obsess over fictional characters again:

Diary Entry #25 (one mostly about something not trans-related... yay?)

I was stimming so much at work today. Or maybe ticcing or whatever bc I couldn't stop. It exhausted me more than actually working my shift. I wasn't feeling any particular way, I just got a bad stim/tic day just for some random reason ig.

My main tics/stims rn are sighing really deep, cracking my elbows, and inhaling hard with my nose. It probably looks really weird but I can't really help it. I guess that'd be more of a tic than a stim? I don't know if you can have tics without tourette's, i think I read that somewhere but like. i'm not sure.

I worry that I'll freak people out more whenever I pass as male or even as a trans male. I think it's worth the price of being seen as myself, it's just a minor concern i have. I'm really talkative and I worry about freaking out women. I don't act like a creep obviously, but I do appear autistic to most people and I am aware that people can be uncomfortable with me, even though I look like a girl.

If anyone with tics/stims can help me out here that'd be appreciated. I don't really know the difference.

Me-isms

I have clearly been on the internet for too long

As a full grown adult I still don’t know how to ask for a new friend’s number without it being weird

How it went trying to teach mini autistic me how to write:

Dad: that’s good, but you need to have space between the words.

Me: *confusedly starts adding stars to my sentences*

Dad: aha, no, not that kind of space

Me: the space needle?

Dad: no, like you need to put nothing between the words

Me: that’s what I’m doing!

Dad: *sweating* ah, but not that kind of nothing..

Sometimes growing up an undiagnosed Audhd bean means you didn’t get bullied but you didn’t make any lasting friendships either

Nonverbal communication of a semiverbal human:

Thanks: asl open-palmed gesture, mouth to other hand (or a nod with a closed eye smile)

Help: wide intense eye contact and emphatic gesturing. Rigid movements

Happy: silly facial expressions, The Fangirl Gesture, wiggly squidward arms, relaxed posture

Anxious: repetitive cyclical motions in hands, arms, face, and feet. Pinched mouth, tension, squishing self into small space, rocking on balls of feet, tapping teeth together, shaking out hands

Sad: slow movement, quiet, rubbing hands or arms or neck. Zoned out, sighing

Anger: rubbing palms with thumbs aggressively, clenched jaw, avoidance, scratching forearms or legs, tugging on own hair, furrowed brows, no eye contact at all, hiding, leaving

Care abt u: buying things u spoke of, pebbling, talking to you often as manageable, sitting with you doing nothing, sitting with you when choice seating, bonking head into your shoulder/ upper arm, smiling at u upon eye contact when first seeing, looking into things u spoke of, trying to figure out how to resolve your problems, inviting you to adventure, showing you creations, sharing special interest

Need comfort/support: Sudden head/shoulder leaning into your shoulder or back, standing slightly to the side and behind you, dramatic groan and flop onto a surface, shoving self into small space or burying self in smth heavy

Don’t Like/ uncomfy w/ You: avoid you, only act cold/professional with you, intense eye contact, only ever American Stranger Smiles at you, doesn’t perpetuate conversation

Sound effects of a semiverbal and what I do them for:

For fun:

-hnarglebarg

-heedlyhoodly

-sneepsnop

-weyll flip my flapjacks!

-keskeh keskeh keskeseh

-binglebongledingledongleswingleswongle fo-fingle-fo-fongle

-kekekekekkekeekkekeke

Calling someones attention to something or to my presence:

-heehoo

-eh!

-hm!

-ezqueedly me

Expression of discomfort:

-mmmMMMM 😡

-*big sigh of chest hurts from anxiety*

-*narrating everything I’m doing with lots of “um” and “ok, uh,” etc*

-*musical fake laughter*

-I contain multitudes

-what’s your favorite day of the month?

Sounds of “I want something from you” usually accompanied by gestures:

-M!

-N!

-Eh!

-*name of person said dramatically*

Notes: I am not a child I just struggle with word finding and formulating my thoughts, especially when I’m struggling with my senses.

Most of the people I spend a significant amount of time with start using some of my stims and odd forms of communication. I often don’t need to do anything other than hum the correct intonation of a phrase to get my point across.

If you don’t know why I would say random things when stressed, its a combo of when I was figuring out (and making fun of) small talk combined with “I need something to leave my body and rn it’s gonna be words”

Genuine question:

I am a neutral-to-fem Audhd human who enjoys paying people compliments.

I always do so respectfully and follow the “only compliment parts of their self they have control over” thing.

But I wanted to know - is it socially acceptable for an adult to direct compliments to younger children when they are with their parents?

I generally don’t unless I know the parents, because I’m never quite sure…

Every time I look up something relating to autism and autism speaks is the first thing to pop up I want to bite it. Chew it up and spit it out. >:/

A six word burn that kicked off three seasons of bloodshed

Me & Who?

Relatable tbh

"It's never too late to become unhealthily obsessed with a niche television show that went off the air years ago."

(I searched high & low for the author of this original comic format and could only find reposts. I can only hope I made them proud. If you know who they are, let me know so I can credit them.)

I even say "Please." 🥺

Would you believe I got to go on tour this weekend to these exotic Hannibal locations with Hugh & Mads?

I don't have many (if any) mutuals on here but I would love to say hi to any Cheese Folk at C2E2 today or tomorrow! I'd love to be included in a group Fannibal photo or individually with you! PLEASE feel free to come up and say hi!

I have red hair and black glasses. I'm 39 but my age can be kind of hard to estimate. Today, I have a black T that says EAT THE RUDE in gold lettering and jorts and rainbow sandals. I have bloody knife earrings and a memory palace necklace. I will have a rainbow mask. My partner has a lime green and purple button up with eels on it. He will also be wearing a PAPR to filter the air because he's immunocompromised due to cancer, and he looks kind of like an astronaut in it.

I am AuDHD so reaching out for social reasons is way out of my comfort zone, but I'm long for Fannibal Friends. 🖤 I also absolutely understand if socializing is out of your comfort zone, so never any hard feelings. We can just communicate with an awkward smile and knowing head nod. Perhaps a whispered "bonsoir."

The most important thing is we all enjoy this once in a lifetime opportunity with each other. 🤗🔪🎣

(There's a pic of me past the Hanni gif. I'm en route from Ohio. I have a heartless curler thing in my hair rn (poorly)).

Good morning, Hanni-Nation! I wanted to show my nails that my 18 year old daughter did for me for C2E2! I'm so excited to see my fellow cheese folk! (Ignore the condition of my hands otherwise. I'm a dog groomer so they're always dry and beaten up 😬)

god bless everyone in my life for being so sick of me but so very patient

In school, I struggled with writing-heavy projects. Everyone else seemed to have no issue writing essays, while it felt impossible for me. I would spend hours just looking at a blank page, thinking through how to start.

When I told my 8th grade teacher that I would be handing in another essay late, he offered to grade my first draft so I could spend more time catching up on other projects.

He understood why I struggled when I told him I didn’t write drafts. I only ever submitted the best version I could manage in one sitting, but only after thinking about the entire essay altogether over multiple weeks.

I’m really trying to learn and understand, while also letting go of that. I want to paint and write and create without over analyzing each step, burning out before I start.

Does anyone else ever feel like their body parts are on wrong? I get this weird sensation sometimes that mine are, even though I can look at it and see it’s fine.

Right now, it’s my hips and pelvis. It just feels wrong.

Is this an autistic sensory thing?

I had apple slices and brie last night for dinner

Hyperfixation Food #48

Apple slices and smoked gouda cheese

Study mode activated. I have a 3-5 page paper to write for my forensic science class. I feel less stressed about this one than I did about last week’s. I’m also really proud of the gun I drew, especially since I’m nowhere near being an artist. Yay forensic science class!

My study buddy is here keeping me company. I’m on my second page and have taken my second Ritalin of the day to focus. I may drink more coffee later on to help focus my brain when the Ritalin wears off. ADHD is so much fun…

Sings I’m struggling:

My body feels heavy & tired

I find it hard to respond to messages

I feel like nothing I do is good enough

I can't motivate myself

I can't stop myself scrolling through social media

I have panic attacks

I spend more time by myself

Little things get to me

I find it hard to get up & ready in the mornings

My usual coping mechanisms don't help very much

I can't focus or still my thoughts

Things become disorganised & untidy

I doubt myself

Source

Mental Health