I Even Say "Please." 🥺

saw my ex at 7/11 and looked like i just crawled out of a dumpster 🤦🏼‍♀️

I'm not sure if fans of the show without ADHD understand this, but when Ed says he's bored he's not normal person bored.

Neurotypical people, or so I'm told, experience boredom as a temporary state. They can resolve it with a wide variety of activities. For those of us with ADHD, though, boredom feels like a life sentence. Firstly, we can't resolve it with just anything. Our brain wants ONE EXACT THING and won't accept anything else but also won't tell us what the one thing is. We can try dozens of things and still feel bored, even days later, if we can't find the right one.

Second, we have time blindness! If a neurotypical person is bored for an hour, they probably think it's a really long, unpleasant hour. Us ADHDers feel that hour as an eternity. It's torture for an unknown amount of time that feels like forever. It SUCKS.

Third, and maybe most importantly for Ed, neurotypical people don't understand what ADHD boredom is like. My mom still thinks I'm fucking with her when I say I prefer physical pain to boredom. I prefer ANYTHING to boredom. I think Ed exists in much the same space, and there is NO WAY Izzy understands. Izzy would have been confused, maybe even angry at Ed for trying a million different hobbies and raid plans and fuckeries to find the one thing that his ADHD brain needs to cure the boredom. Izzy probably rolled his eyes and scoffed.

For Ed, boredom isn't a minor inconvenience. It isn't a bad day. It's an endless torture. No wonder he'd do anything for the most interesting man he's ever met. No wonder he's broken when that boredom is forced back onto him.

i am plagued by silly character loving thoughts

does anyone here know how to consume a peice of media without it consuming your entire existence? asking for a friend.

MFW Mason Verger is on screen EXCEPT for that iconic time Will punched the shit out of him and held him over his pigpen

frog Ed and frog Stede :)

The rest of the OFMD Frog series:

Frenchie | Buttons | Oluwande & Jim | Izzy Hands | Swede | Lucius & Black Pete

more to come ❤️

OFF TO THE RACES LOUIS & LESTAT

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You just know he went home that day and threw himself on his fainting couch and wept; astonished that his imprisoned bestie didn't accept the other half of his Best Friends necklace

Ok it’s late so bear with me as I try to articulate this.

Every day I am thinking about the way Ed says, “Oh shut up” in response to Stede saying, “I’ve only got stupid ideas.”

It’s something about his exasperated tone, his furrowed brows, the way he looks at the ground instead of Stede, how he’s one second away from rolling his eyes. In this moment he is simply a man with his best friend who he is trying to make feel better and the best friend is ruining his attempt. Real “no one is allowed to talk shit about you, not even you” energy.

And obviously Ed is in love with him there but there’s just something very special to me about how even without taking romantic feelings into account, there’s affection and camaraderie there, so much that he feels real annoyance when Stede gets too down on himself. That special type of annoyance, the type that doesn’t spell out abandonment, but rather the type where he wants to shake Stede and say, “see what I see for once, you wonderful idiot.”

To paraphrase a quote from Parks and Rec: he loves him and he likes him.

It is so important to me that he just. Genuinely fucking likes him.