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TW- mention of 3d and $h

Hey guys! My name is Laylani. I live in America and I am in school. This is my 3d blog and I might mention $h a bit too. The 3d I have is 4n4 and it’s really hard to deal with tbh. My aesthetic is coconut or beach girl. I will update my stats on this post frequently.

Height (might change)- 5,2.5

SW- 112 p0unds

CW- 112 p0unds

I had 2 of these - each is 85 Calories.

170 Cals today in total.

While drinking water most of the day.

Asked my mom to get me a refill on my adhd meds and my appetite suppressants since she was going to the doctor anyway. First box - The lady at the counter apparently said those the acerta also works as an appetite suppressant granted it's for a different use. Second one - And those are my appetite suppressants that I've had,I just wanted a refill so I didn't have to go yk. And my mom's gonna give me laxatives in the morning. I'll take them after my doctor's visit tomorrow.

the problem is i can follow instructions on recipes so i create delicious deserts that are now in my face 24/7

take these blueberry muffins for example. ohmigod they’re the best sensory experience ever n i never thought muffin batter was yummier than cookie dough

thank u sammie

https://sugarspunrun.com/blueberry-muffins-from-scratch/

broke my fast with cookie dough again who’s surprised

if i ever had to omad only one food for the rest of my life it would be these cookies

they take up literally all of my afternoon every time i make them but they’re so worth it

also ignore the 500cal per cookie i need u to ignore them so u won’t go insane

Sugar Spun Run

Strawberry Cheesecake Cookies

These gourmet strawberry cheesecake cookies have a soft, graham cracker-infused base stuffed with cream cheese and strawberry jam.

pls try them on days u don’t feel awful abt food i beg

every monday i go on crumbl's site and look at all the cals in the weekly lineup cookies like im clocking in for a job

you could've sworn i was recovered with the way easter has me breaking my fast 10 hours earlier with super-sized chocolate bunnies

something comforting about seeing the same workers at my local grocery store and making them scan my 4th sugar-free pudding mix of the month

i immediately get humbled anytime someone mentions how they haven't eaten anything all day long bc whoopsie they forgot

like i have to deliberately ignore the hunger and they don't even have to think abt it like goshh

poemy rant

Nobody ever called me fat. Nobody ever said there was something wrong with my body, ever.

Yet I am the one who chose to inflict this mentality upon myself. My stomach and thighs suddenly doubled in size one day when I realized most of my friends carried smaller bodies. They never had to think once about losing weight because they were already naturally gifted with those bodies. They didn't have to eat less or exercise. But most importantly, they were happy with what they had. They weren't miserable like me, wishing I could cut the fat off using my bare hands.

It makes me sad whenever I see them snacking or buying a whole box of donuts at the grocery store just because they feel like it. They don't think twice about the calories and how much they're allowed to eat for the rest of the day. They even mock me for checking the calories every time and warn me about how many I'm about to ingest if I take a bite out of an unhealthy snack. They've repeatedly told me they don't see anything wrong with my body and how they wish they had thighs like me because theirs are too thin.

So why do I feel like this? Where did this come from? When did having a flat stomach and stick legs become my goals?

Nothing ever feels good enough anymore. I look at the scale some mornings and bawl my eyes out because it's not the number I want to see, even though I'm technically underweight. But I don't feel like that at all. I'll consider myself underweight when there is no fat left to jiggle when I run, and no extra skin to pinch or poke at. When I'm running so low on energy I can feel my brain shutting off, my legs trembling and ultimately collapsing. I'll be on the ground, limp and exhausted as I fall into a deep sleep.

I'll be desolate, but I'll be thin. I'll be happy in a bikini just like my friends, proudly showing off the body I worked so hard for.

Hopefully.

i just wanna have a friend that's just as disordered as me irl. We would talk without feeling judged and give each other motivation. it's rlly another pointless fantasy about having cool and understanding friends I wish could be with me.

ahh but for now i can only hope for someone like that to come along eventually. i kinda need them rn but it's fine I can wait.

being nervous/excited is the best laxative trust

my fav thinspo recently is just looking at belly button piercings bc hard work will pay off in cuter fits ♡

nothing beats the humiliation you get when you thought you were skinny until coming to school and so many people are thinner than you

house is full of food, so much fruit yet so much to eat before it goes rotten

and then they bought my fav sweets god is it hard to lock in 😭

best workout combo

for an hourglass, thigh gap definition and smaller wrists ♡

4 sets of 20 reps of weighted russian twists

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlmhc2DMp8w THIS VIDEOO BLESS HER HEART

these r the only things that made my waist and legs shrink soo much

ive been doing the workout almost daily since September n the twists since jan, those r perf for flattening ur belly

it takes motivation but u will feel so good after finishing this

i never knew that skipping meals was this easy

first few hours are tough and draining but I'm not actually hungry?? just rllyyy tired

i feel amazing ♡

haii if anyone has some mango mealspo cuz i recently got some i would love to hear it ty :33

sweet recipe inspo

all from pinterest!

some mealsp0 from pinterest

some recipes may be inaccurate and make multiple servings, so be sure to calculate the calories of your own ingredients too!

~Wieiad~

10•20•24

Breakfast:

• 27g Mini Blueberry Protein Bar - 104c

• 3 Unsalted Rice Cakes - ~125c

• 12g Chopped Dates - 39c

• 31g Caramel Rice Cakes - 119c

• Vitamins - 100c

Total: 487c

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I broke my fast right before I went to sleep.. I feel like maybe I could’ve lasted until this morning but my family has a history of heart attacks and my heart wasn’t acting like it’s usual self so I didn’t want to risk anything. Once I’m on my own it won’t matter but while I’m with my parents I’d prefer not to traumatize them if they even care enough lol.. I didn’t do too bad with the cal intake though, so ig there’s something kind of positive to think about? - and I’ve started another fast but I’m hanging out with a friend tomorrow and food might be around * . * Hopefully I can completely avoid eating but idk if I’ll be able to fast for as long as I’d like to :c I’ll l bring a can of green beans or something else low cal just in case so I hopefully don’t cause any suspicion. My friend used to have an 3d so she’s already pretty aware of some issues I have but I don’t want her to know the full extent of much I’m restricting myself.. but besides the food stuff- tomorrow should be fun. I’m going to help her move some plants and other stuff to her new house and we haven’t seen each other in a few weeks so we’ll have a decent amount to catch each other up on✨

(Side note: Caramel rice cakes are pretty good. I avoided them for a while but I got some a few days ago and they might be a new safe food for me now, I haven’t decided yet.. Cals aren’t great but it’s the lowest it can possibly be so I have to deal with it or avoid it again)

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Starting a fast :3

~Wieiad~

9•30•24

Breakfast:

2 Iron gummies - 10c

2 Zinc gummies - 20c

2 Vitamin D gummies - 15c

2 Vitamin 3 gummies - 20c

2 Biotin gummies - 10c

2 Omega-3 gummies - 25c

T: 100c

Lunch:

6g seaweed w/ sea salt - 30c

High key sandwich cookie - 25c

?g peppercorn ranch chip - 13c

Pure Protein chocolate mint bar - 180c

T: 248c

Dinner:

50g egg whites - 27c

FF shredded mozzarella - 10c

T: 37c

Snack:

324g Cucumber with peel - 49c

159g Carrots - 65c

T: 114c

Total Cal: 499c

Water intake: 51 FLOZ

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I hung out with a friend today and I brought all of the snacks I have atm in hopes that she’d eat some, I haven’t binged while I’ve had them but I’m worried I will and I want them gone asap * . * and she did eat some but I ate a little too so she wouldn’t suspect anything..she gave me half of one of her chips to try as well and usually 1 chip is around 10c-15c but I counted it as 13c to be safe. But I’m going to bed soon and I’m definitely not eating again tonight so Im just glad I didn’t go over my cal limit and can sleep peacefully😌…kind of lol

Just saw these on tt and ommggg they’re so cute!!!!

~Wieiad~

9•28•24

Breakfast:

2 Iron gummies - 10c

2 Zinc gummies - 20c

2 Vitamin D gummies- 15c

2 Vitamin C gummies - 20c

2 Biotin gummies - 10c

2 Omega 3 gummies - 25c

Lunch:

14g FF Fig Newton - 42c

11g Highkey mini choc chip cookies - 51c

11g Highkey double choc brownie cookies - 55c

.58 Milano raspberry&choc cookie - 38c

Dinner:

46.7g Brownie batter Protien puff bar - 163c

Snacks:

119g Cucumber with peel - 18c

49g Red grapes - 34c

Total - 502c

Water Intake - 51FLOZ

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Macros:

Carbs - 76g

Protein - 24g

Fat - 16g

Fiber - 3g

Sodium - 482mg

Calcium - 168mg

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No pictures because I was lazy today, but I ate the cucumber and grapes early in the afternoon after cleaning the dishes and kitchen, and my sweet tooth was screaming so I ate some not so great things and I’m not feeling good about it…..I could’ve had some homemade air fried chicken nuggets and gotten more protein, but I kind of stayed in my cal limit so I won’t beat myself up too much about it..The protein bar weighed more than what the nutrients label said and that’s what made it go over 500 :c I’m giving my body 2 hours to digest the food a bit then I’m going to bed 🥱

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~Breakfast~

9•27•24

•Details•

111g Carrot Slices - 46c

84g Celery Slices - 12c

19g Small Tomatoes - 6c

48g Red Grapes - 33c

80g Plum - 37c

Total: 143c

•Macros•

Carbs - 32g

Protein - 3g

Fat - 0g

Fiber - 6g

Sodium - 146mg

Calcium - 81mg

I’m not really a tomato fan so I only ate 1 and half instead of 3… and the amount of protein is pathetic, but I’m nearly out of fresh fruits and veggies so soon I can focus more on macros. I’m not using my own hard earned money to buy groceries rn so the least I waste the better.

~Wieiad~

9•26•24

Breakfast: Blueberry protein bar - 180c

Lunch: N/A

Dinner: 191g Plums - 88c

109g Kiwi with skin - 66c

140g Red Delicious apple with skin - 83c

87g Oranges - 41c

~Macros~

Carbs: 92g

Protein: 15g

Fat: 7g

Fiber: 17g

Sodium: 331mg

Calcium: 141mg

Total cals: 458

Water intake: 68 fl oz

Not too bad ig…. Just glad it’s not above 500 lol

Weight loss is great but what no one talks about is buying new clothes.

I lost 10kg in 4 months and literally nothing in my wardrobe fits me anymore. Nothing looks good. Now I’ll have to spend bunch of money for new wardrobe.

I know it’s amazing and I am happy it’s just annoying. And also how could I be that fatttt

I swear if I’m not skinny this summer I’m gonna kms

Looking for mutuals to lose 5kg in April

My stats:

20 she/her

165cm/5’4

55kg/121lbs

I just need someone to do this with so I stay motivated and don’t binge

Preferably someone from Europe