I Just Finished Having The Worst Binge Episode Of My Life. I’ve Gone From 51.9kg To 56kg In The Span
I just finished having the worst binge episode of my life. I’ve gone from 51.9kg to 56kg in the span of 2 days, consumed more than 10,000 calories, 3k at least in the past hour.
It was so disgusting, I sat on the floor shoving food down my throat, throwing up then continuing eating. It spilled everywhere, ice cream all though my carpet, all through my clothes. I tried to purge it out but nothig came up but drool. I sat in that, the drool, leftover throw up and food for what felt like 30 minutes. My stomach hurts, it looks disgusting and I’ve lost my thigh gap.
I was 2 weeks binge free, and now I’ve gone and messed it all up. I don’t even know what to do. My only plan is to take all my laxatives, walk until my legs give out, and cut myself.
I’m never eating again.
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Just weighed myself for the first time since Sunday and apparently I weigh 0.1kg less than I did before I binged. Honestly I think my scale might be broken, or skinny fat has just got me in a crazy chokehold because I look way too fat to be BMI 16.3
I bought some sushi impulsively and I want to eat it but I’m not sure how many calories are in it anf honestly I’m not that hungry and I’ve already fasted so far today so why break it now but I also really want the sushi RAHHHHHH
I think I’m gonna start cutting my intake from 500 to 300 because the food guilt is becoming too much and I don’t feel like I’m working hard enough towards reaching my ugw.
Oh fuck oh no oh no oh no purging isn’t working nothings coming up fuck fuck fuck
There is so much I want to eat but changing my OMAD routine feels so scary ☹️
RAHHH I’ve only gotten 10k steps today but I’m so tireddd I need some motivation
God I want to binge so bad I’m not even hungry but the urges are killing me I forgot how hard the first day restricting after a binge was
I had my mum measure my height yesterday and she said I was 171 cm, and I just weighed myself and I’m 52.2kg meaning that I could be bmi 17.9 but I’m scared that she mis measured me and I’m still 170cm and stuck in bmi 18 jail 😔
God I miss charcuterie boards
Yall update on the hot cross bun situation, it was so disappointing I should’ve gotten a different one because this one tasted like ass it literally just tasted like a regular brioche bun and I regret OMAD’ing it 😔💔
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⚢ / sixteen cw: 47.2.kggw1: 48kggw2: 45kgugw: 38kgblock don’t report !!
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