Yall Update On The Hot Cross Bun Situation, It Was So Disappointing I Should’ve Gotten A Different

Dude I feel so conflicted cause Ive been depressed as hell and was gonna go to the movies with my friend to distract myself and make myself feel better but now plans changed so we are watching it tmr so now I’m still depressed but I do have assignments due so technically it’s for the better?

I’m so pathetic I can’t believe I’m crying over bread, my mum chucked it out without telling me so now I can’t have what I was planning to eat and I can’t eat any other type of bread and I can’t eat past 3:30 (literally right this minute) so now my whole plans changed. I’m not even hungry but I have work and I always eat before work and now I can’t and everything feels so out of control.

I’ve gotten so lazy and lenient with myself lately no wonder I’ve been binging so much, come back honeymoon phase you left me so soon 🙏🙏

OMFG I KNEW I FORGOT SOMETHING AT THE SHOPS I’ve ran out of laxatives ☹️☹️

I’ve bee stuck in 53kg jail for the past 3 days now despite consistently getting 20k steps, eating under 600 calories and abusing the hell out of laxatives. Does anyone have any ideas on how I can get out of this plateau? I’m thinking of just fasting until the number drops.

Had a little binge last night so I’m sadly out of the BMI 17 range and back up to 52.1kg, to be honest though it could be worse and I’m fairly confident in the fact that if I just restrict/exercise today and take a shit ton of laxatives I’ll be back into the 51kg range by tomorrow.

So I just got back from my friends 3 day birthday trip which ended up turning into a 3 day long binge episode.

3 days of eating 3,000/5,000+ calories a day, food noise making it impossible to do anything or feel any sense of enjoyment, comparing myself and how much I ate to my skinny friend which made me so fucking depressed because she barely ate anything, shamefully gorging myself on food in the bathrooms, being in excruciating pain and discomfort from being so bloated, and having no way of relieving myself of it due to not bringing laxatives and being unable to purge.

This feels like a nightmare, and now I’m home it’s gotten worse, I can’t stop and I’m hanging out with my other friends tomorrow where we have a whole Easter dinner planned. We are probably going to go swimming but I’m so fat anf bloated the thought of taking my clothes off or revealing even an inch of myself makes me want to die. I don’t know what to do, I just want to die. I hate myself so much, I’ve never felt so ashamed, disappointed and insecure in my life.

That being said I just took 8 laxatives and am probably gonna take another 10 or 12 in a couple hours, walking feels useless and honestly painful but once the laxatives start working I might try and exercise for a couple hours.

RAHH I’ve had this pain in my back right ribs for days now and it’s making walking so painful 😔

the silence after hitting your gw but still feeling so big and disgusting

I can’t wait for the day I don’t have a muffin top while wearing my favourite jeans