Vent Ig
Vent ig
i genuinely feel like im faking so bad. i feel like im noticing "symptoms" because im researching it, i feel like this whole thing is rlly just a waste.
i feel like i brainwashed myself into believing i was having symptoms, i feel so fake. i feel like the thoughts i thought were others, were mine. i really hate myself. like i was feeling happy, but why??? like this is least thing to be happy abt (having osdd), but it felt so like "wow! that makes sense!" but like, did it actually? or was I just fucking around and happened to convince myself it did?
i cant even get a therapist or anything abt this so i have no one to talk to. if it is actually happening i dont even have like amnesia, or anything super crazy that others would be like "yeah you act very different at times" BECAUSE I LIKE... IDEK BRO IM SO PISSED RN
plus i feel like im just making up alters too. im NOT habit, im NOT jason, but like what if i am? there's hardly much to differentiate between us (other than gender?) but this could all just be jason trying to figure out his genders n shit?? i really really hate this.
-Cass? I think?
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it feels like im two people at once, i keep saying things that I wouldn't say + thoughts feel like thoughts I wouldn't think. GOING INSANE
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does anyone feel like they're still in control while switching alters? PLUS it's like you're slowly turning into another alter rather than like being pushed put of your body-switch?
Like the only noticeable difference that we have is, emotional amnesia (so we feel like different people) + personality and likes/dislikes change
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do you guys just have like terrible memory? like idk if i was zoned out just now or what i was doing, but I was going to search something up and i realized i was doing something else and now i have like no memory of what my question was
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comic
Mild Aphantasia, the burger is semi-transparent.
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Create a giant cheeseburger in your headspace and eat it
i like the idea that red hood is to crime alley what daredevil is to hell's kitchen in the dd comics. in the way that:
Jason: *in full red hood gear, walking through an alley* homeless man next to him: hey, todd. how's patrol? jason: *grinning under his helmet* i don't know if you need new glasses---or maybe a memory boost, jimmy---but the todd kid is dead. i, obviously, am not. homeless man: *snickers* yeah sure, sure, jason
Jason: *walking down the street in civvies* passerby: hey! hood! i have some info for you, drug deal goin' on 'round the docks jason: *raises brow* yeah? well, i ain't hood . . . but i'll take that info to him if ya want. he patrols near my apartment passerby: you keep tellin' yourself that, dude
batman: have you seen the criminal Red Hood? crime alley resident: *lighting a cigarette, making continual eye contact with batman* I'm blind. haven't seen anyone batman: *examines the woman* obviously not. you can see me just fine crime alley resident: ya ain't ever heard of selective vision impairment? it's totally a thing batman:
little girl: hey, hood. th' cops were lookin' fer ya jason: hmm. what did ya tell 'em? little girl: t' stick it where th' sun don't shine jason: *high-fives her* i'm going to buy you an entire toy store, kid
Jason should have come back to the manor post-lazarus pit and revealed himself as Jason Todd but not told the rest of the family that he’s also Red Hood. can you imagine how fucking funny that would be.
Nightwing: honestly! my family is fucking INSANE! i swear the only good one is my little brother, he died and came back and decided to ditch the vigilante life.
Red Hood: oh shit really?
Nightwing: honestly probably the smartest one out of all of us, he’s reading in bed while we’re all out here on stakeouts!
Red Hood: interesting. tell me more about how this brother is the best of all of you.
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Red Hood: so what are you guys getting the smart handsome not-vigilante brother for Christmas?
Nightwing, Red Robin, and Robin:
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Batman: now i need all of you to have an equal share in the clean up-
Red Hood: yeah sorry, you aren’t MY dad, so i’m gonna dip. have fun cleaning!
the funniest part is when Dick and Tim decide that since Red Hood and Jason are so similar and Red Hood CLEARLY seems to like what he hears about Jason, that they should try to set the two up.
Jason, calling Roy at 4am: i need you in Gotham within the next hour so you can dress up as Red Hood and we can pretend that I’m sleeping with myself.
Roy:
Roy: i’m gonna get caught sneaking out of your bedroom with lipstick on your helmet
Jason: this is gonna be the funniest thing we’ve ever done.
lil vent
we're so scared of being fake, fakeclaiming ourselves on a daily basis. what if we're actually not a system? we switch way too often and get blurry+blended even more. Sharing memories, and not having drastic switches is making us go crazy. We have hardly any barriers between each other so it gets really hard to differentiate each other plus we have terrible memory, so it could just be that we genuinely don't remember something rather than have emotional amnesia
we can't even really remember our trauma completely either
reigen would dislike this meme, close his laptop and think about it for the rest of the month feeling angry
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The VIRGIN Mob vs the CHAD Reigen
Whoever is praying for my downfall has got to stop because shit is working
