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We're endo neu.
Radqueers, racists, transids, homo/transphobes, anti-therian/furry/alterhumans DNI.
Don't force us into syscourse. We don't want to hear it. Tips and resources are welcomed.
This is OUR blog. So we're going to somewhat use this to log symptoms while also doing other shit so this blog will be random.
Sometimes I refer to myself as we/us
Symptoms we have: here
intro being reworked
honestly, habit... he's well, Habit from EMH... but deep down... he's yknow... π₯Ίπ₯Ίπ₯Ί (i think he'll gut me later /J)
-πͺ³
Headmate who insists theyβre very evil and fucked up, despite being kind and caring
as a transmasc Jason... yep.
Random goon: Hey boss, were you the one to pick that name as an alias? And why this one?
Red Hood : I used to have another name, before... A long time ago. But that person is dead now. I get to choose for myself now, they can't take that from me. I won't let them.
Goon: Huh.
***
Random Goon: Say boss, why do you never take off your shirt in front of us?
Red Hood: Well uh, I actually have that really fucked scar on my chest and I'm not comfortable with...
Random Goon: Don't worry boss, we get it, you don't have to explain yourself to us.
***
Red Hood, high on some toxin: God, I wish my family...
Random Goon (on boss-sitting duty): why not try reaching out to them?
Red Hood: They would never accept me as I am now... They wouldn't agree with my so-called "life choices". Besides, they don't miss me, they miss the person they think I used to be... I wasn't even a man when I last saw them.
Random Goon: Damn boss, that sucks.
***
And then the goons throw the Red Hood a party on trans visibility day and Jason is so confused he straight up cries.
i like the idea that red hood is to crime alley what daredevil is to hell's kitchen in the dd comics. in the way that:
Jason: *in full red hood gear, walking through an alley* homeless man next to him: hey, todd. how's patrol? jason: *grinning under his helmet* i don't know if you need new glasses---or maybe a memory boost, jimmy---but the todd kid is dead. i, obviously, am not. homeless man: *snickers* yeah sure, sure, jason
Jason: *walking down the street in civvies* passerby: hey! hood! i have some info for you, drug deal goin' on 'round the docks jason: *raises brow* yeah? well, i ain't hood . . . but i'll take that info to him if ya want. he patrols near my apartment passerby: you keep tellin' yourself that, dude
batman: have you seen the criminal Red Hood? crime alley resident: *lighting a cigarette, making continual eye contact with batman* I'm blind. haven't seen anyone batman: *examines the woman* obviously not. you can see me just fine crime alley resident: ya ain't ever heard of selective vision impairment? it's totally a thing batman:
little girl: hey, hood. th' cops were lookin' fer ya jason: hmm. what did ya tell 'em? little girl: t' stick it where th' sun don't shine jason: *high-fives her* i'm going to buy you an entire toy store, kid
do you guys just have like terrible memory? like idk if i was zoned out just now or what i was doing, but I was going to search something up and i realized i was doing something else and now i have like no memory of what my question was
-π₯
π i can't remember anything from yesterday other than when Cass came out to our friend and then I switched and got mad. But this is bad because we have a collective-memory. Why don't I remember anything from when I wasn't switched? I only remember a bit of what Habit did a couple days ago (play guitar hero... he SUCKED ASS AT IT)
This is genuinely worrying, where did the memories go?
-π₯
i genuinely feel like im faking so bad. i feel like im noticing "symptoms" because im researching it, i feel like this whole thing is rlly just a waste.
i feel like i brainwashed myself into believing i was having symptoms, i feel so fake. i feel like the thoughts i thought were others, were mine. i really hate myself. like i was feeling happy, but why??? like this is least thing to be happy abt (having osdd), but it felt so like "wow! that makes sense!" but like, did it actually? or was I just fucking around and happened to convince myself it did?
i cant even get a therapist or anything abt this so i have no one to talk to. if it is actually happening i dont even have like amnesia, or anything super crazy that others would be like "yeah you act very different at times" BECAUSE I LIKE... IDEK BRO IM SO PISSED RN
plus i feel like im just making up alters too. im NOT habit, im NOT jason, but like what if i am? there's hardly much to differentiate between us (other than gender?) but this could all just be jason trying to figure out his genders n shit?? i really really hate this.
-Cass? I think?
Donβt tickle FNAF Chica ever,,