Anxiousautistic74 - Tasha Michelle

Well, I spent most of yesterday out and about, getting a ultrasound ( not for that), and running errands. It was more like bus all over town,so even more social contact. Basically, I super masked all day then came home and crashed for a bit. Guess what...more today!🤗

My earbuds died before I even got on the bus today, can you say "High Anxiety"! It's overwhelming without music. I made it home without a meltdown or panic attack, woohoo! I am so glad I carry a card stating what is going on with me and how I react to show people if I crack. Off to buy more earbuds!

Twice this week my neurologist has canceled appointments. Almost had a meltdown right there in the waiting room..they could at least tell me before I got there! I take the bus, so I lost 4$ in bus fare. Needless to say it upsets me and my schedule. I didn't meltdown, way to go me!

Neurodivergent culture is getting really irritated when people add on to your posts with their own thoughts if those thoughts aren't exactly in line with what yours are.

It's also getting annoyed when people add onto your vent posts with positivity. like. no. just let me be depressed in peace lol.

Watch "Autistic masking: a dangerous survival mechanism | Leah Reinardy | TEDxHopeCollege" on YouTube

Not sure which is most abhorrent!

Having bad ticks and problems talking

Or

Going to see a doctor that has a rotten bedside manner,to put it mildly.

Hopefully I don't meltdown..

Allfather, call me home please! I am unworthy of life! 😢🤐💔

I'm just going to sleep as much as I can so I won't be a bother to anyone.

Odin, may I have peace and no longer ruin people? I have no strength left, let those who know me that I will not be a burden.

Survived another Yule, ran through my prescription of lorazepam and was

Put on a new antidepressant and antidepressant booster but I survived...