Anxiousautistic74 - Tasha Michelle

Depression has swaddled me, it's the perfect time for my "dear friend " to be judgemental and essentially told me to shut up about my autism. Oh I will shut up alright....

Not sure which is most abhorrent!

Having bad ticks and problems talking

Or

Going to see a doctor that has a rotten bedside manner,to put it mildly.

Hopefully I don't meltdown..

Shrink added more meds, let's see if it helps. I'm doing great dieting so far, dreading Thursday though.

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Anxiety and depression still bad but alas,life goes on. Stemming a bunch so trying to keep myself busy. I may play viddy games today.

Absolutely exhausted from dealing with people. I will hide for a bit.

Lost 18 lbs in a month! Restrictions more.

I will be size 2 again I!

My melancholy has turned into Dispair. And my lovely PTSD is keeping me on high alert. As for my anxiety, worse. Especially when they run test after test and still observe me, no clue what's wrong with me. Good news is my anxiety is barely in control. Seems wherever I go people are yelling and items being thrown about, um, guys, this is supposed be my sanctuary, peace, safety. Well not now, it's yelling and stomping, fighting and of course, alcohol. My overnight at dad's, my getaway, decompress. Nope, they were fighting. I desperately need my space.

I wish certain people would stop judging my parenting. I'm already on the edge of the cliff without my so called "friend"telling me I'm a horrible mother (not in those words but). I will let him do the parenting. She can do whatever, let him see what a brat.