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Absolutely, it's a good feeling to know that you have everything you need close by!!

- Shay (They/it)

My family always gets annoyed I keep a bad with me (either in the car or on my person) but I need it

It has my money, my id/my learners permit, noise cancelling headphones, blue tooth headphones and ear buds, period pads, small snacks in case I didn't eat and/or I feel fainty, A book for in case I need something to focus on/fill time, a couple bracelets and a plushie to fidget with and help if I have a melt down, as well as my tablet for my music for car rides and to distract from the other over stimulating noises and my house keys, and a small notebook and a pen/pencil in case I need to write something down so I remember it or doodle

All in just a medium sized backpack

I don't always bring it in with me depending on the circumstances, but I like knowing everything I need I have at least somewhat close

Just went to a store and found this little enderman plush!!

How does our enderman mutual feel about this plush? @talon-dragonbeast (hope you don't mind the tag).

- Shay (They/it) & someone else don't know who the fuck (it/it/its/its/itself + ix/ix/ixs/ixs/ixself)

As a plural [questioning origin] who is new to the plural and system community in general, I wanna point out that from what we've seen being a system/plural is not really the whole thing with DID and other dissociative disorder like that, it's the trauma and being a system is more of an "add-on" (sorry for phrasing it like that).

So people saying they are PLURAL or a SYSTEM or whatever other word they prefer to use without trauma is not misdiagnosing themselves cause they aren't claiming to have DID or OSDD or other trauma based dissociative disorders without trauma. They are just saying that they have a similar thing to people with those disorders (I hope we are explaining this correctly).

So why are anti endos so obsessed with trying to call them fake or saying that they are doing that? If you just listen to them, you would learn more, and isn't that better? Don't traumagenic systems/plurals want to be listened to instead of being thought of badly from misinformation and bad representation and shit? So why aren't they doing that for endos?

I wouldn't usually jump into "discourse" or anything, but we felt like this needed to be said and understood. If you don't like this post, leave my account, go ahead, and block me. It will save everyone a ton of time.

- Lakey (They/it + blu/blue/blues/blues/blueself) & Shay (They/it) | almost always here as the host, lol

I think a big part of the reason that I went from anti-endo to endo-safe was absolutely due to how starkly different the communities felt.

Anti-endo communities were hard to engage with. Sure, some of them would focus on their support for each other more than their hatred of endogenic systems. And that's great! However, when you are brought together by your dislike of a certain group, you can't help but feel the hate permiate into so much of it. It always happened eventually. Anti-endo communities had such a focus on systems who were "fake" that I couldn't help but worry I was one of them, no matter how much they told me it was "just endos" they were concerned about.

The endo community (at least the parts I've engaged with and were easy to find) were so kind and respected me as a system, no matter how I felt or my plurality presented. Simply knowing we could find joy in our plurality allowed us to strive for so much more than we had thought possible before.

As a traumagenic system, we've improved so much with our symptoms and communication as a result of the positivity and acceptance we recieved. When we joined communities where we could be authenticallly ourselves (no matter what), we came together and faced so much less conflict between each other. And the conficts we did have, we realized that we could solve them together rather than alone.

When you are constantly doubting if you are "actually a system", you start to push the others away, and that made our dissociation and amnesia so much worse. I understand being careful of self-misdiangnosis, it can put you on the wrong path for how you learn to manage your symptoms. At the same time, the sentiment I often heard from endogenic systems when I was struggling with doubt and denial was very simple: "So what if you're not a system?" In short, it was okay to be wrong.

And that was huge for me. I realized that, no matter if I was a system or not, the techniques I used to improve ourselves and communicate with one another beneficial to me. At the end of the day, even if I wasn't a system after all, the skills I had found we invaluble to my health and well-being. So when I fall into denial spirals, no matter what I think about myself, I now know that I don't need to deprive myself of what has helped me, even if it is a "system thing." I don't feel scared to use these skills anymore (even in denial spirals), beacuse the line between what systems and non-systems or singlets can/can't do suddenly wasn't a big deal or a battle of "who can do what."

Our plurality is no longer a burden or a scar to us. It is simply who we are. We've learned so much about each other and ourselves since we've been accepted in full, and since we've learned to accept others. Endogenic communities have helped us (a traumagenic system) probably more than they'll ever know, and we're forever grateful for that.

So thank you, endogenic systems.

Not tagged, but we wanted to do this.

There are quite a few songs stuck in our head rn, lol.

This is the main one, though, lol. Watched some of the Agatha All Along episodes a few days ago, and this song has been stuck in our head since.

- Lakey (They/it + blu/blue/blues/blues/blueself) | I think this is the first post with Lakey, lol.

[Wanna mention that I (Shay/Zuki) am almost always 'fronting' and shit, so I'm still here as well as Lakey.] | {"typical" pronouns for me (Shay/Zuki) which are they/it}

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

Poem number whatever, lol.

Older poem, wrote this a while ago.

Tw: Death, and none others that I can think of.

The Three Phrases

Life is unfair

Time flies

You love and you lose

That's the three phrases

You need to learn

To understand

Life isn't fair

Good people have bad things happen

Bad people have good things happen

Time flies

It feels slow at times

But it flies really fast

You love and you lose

You never know when someone

You love will die

Life is unfair

Time flies

You love and you lose

I decided to try and make some userboxes myself for us.

Don't know how well they actually turned out, but we love them!!!

If you want to use these userboxes, feel free to use them! Credit is not needed but is very much appreciated!

- Lynix (They/them + feline/cat/felines/cats/felineself) & Phalen (They/it + wolf/dog/wolfs/dogs/wolfdogself) | idk if both are alters or if one is a kin currently

I'm gonna start calling ourself a system/plural, I don't know the exact origin yet, cause I don't know if I had "enough" trauma at the "right" time for it to be DID or OSDD or any other dissociative disorder. But it feels like we are a system/plural.

We will only really be doing this here, I am unsure if I am gonna tell anyone I know in real life for now. I might wait till I figure out our origin, and even then, it would only be a few people that I would tell.

This feels like the right words and terms for what we feel. I will just be using system and plural for us as terms until I figure out more, of course.

- Shirley (They/them + ix/ix/ixs/ixs/ixself) | feels like the right name rn

[Using both I/me and we/our]

For my next tattoo, I want to get wings on my back, lol.

My only tattoo I have currently is a paw print semicolon on my shoulder. If you know what the semicolon means, then you get it.

I would also love to get more nonhuman related tattoos as well, lol!

- Shay (They/it)

We don't talk about nearly enough about the possibilities on tattoos for alterhuman folks. I'm not just talking about someone tattooing the theta delta in your arm.

I'm talking about tattoos of paw beans in your hands, or an animals facial features in your face, whiskers in your cheeks. Like, even bits of fur outlines on your body and chest would. What would I'd like to have is two cuts printed in my back as if a pair of wings should emerge from it (probably couldn't, or shouldn't because I have like three giant scars that cross over my shoulders). Or, or, even the image of wings in your back, giant black wings.

Nonhumans with horns could tattoo themselves antlers in their forehead, mermaid or marine otherkins could have tattoos of gills in their neck. It would be so nice actually

Time for more bad memories from my life as Zuki. I have debated about posting this a few times but I think I need to, to get it off my chest or whatever you wanna say.

Tw/cw: (failed) suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts, self harm, death of a family member, grief, and abuse. Let me know if I missed any tw/cw.

There were times right after I turned 14 years old as Zuki (my aunt, who I looked up to so much, died on my 14th birthday so yeah) that I ended up going to the top of my middle school building [I couldn't fly at the time] and was debating jumping from it, I never did.

But a few days after my 14th birthday, all the grief and anger and shit I felt from my aunt's death (she was a hero, and she died fighting some villains) had gotten to be too much for me to deal with and I went to a part of the middle school that pretty much no one went to and pretty much everyone wouldn't have cared about me anyways.

Anyway, I went to the secluded place of the school and I had a knife in my backpack, I always carried it with me, not only because of self-harm tendencies but also because it was a gift from my aunt who died. I thought I was alone, cause who in their right mind would be in this part of that school? (Neither of us there were in our right mind, so I guess that answers that, lol).

Anyway, I took the knife and cut pretty deep on my arms and legs. I had put down something, I think it was my jacket, to try and make less of a mess with the blood cause I didn't wanna cause too much more trouble, lol. But someone who I didn't really know well (I kinda wish it stayed that way, but whatever) came and helped me to the nurse's room. If that nurse could have let me just die, she would've, but she didn't wanna get in trouble with my older sibling, lol.

Anyways, that nurse just did the bare minium, so I wouldn't die. I talked a bit with the girl who saved me. She seemed nice (seemed is the key word there). After the school day ended, it was like only an hour or so cause I did this during my free period, which was my last 'class' of the day. After the bell rang, I walked to a little medical building that [mainly] was for those with no quirks, hated quirks, etc. So because of this, it didn't have a mandatory reporting thing, which was good for me, cause I didn't want anyone else to know that I tried to kill myself and failed. But yeah, the lady who helped me then was very nice and I would continue to go there when I needed medical stuff.

The girl who saved me, about a week or so later, came up to me and said she liked me romantically. While I am (was?) cupioromantic, I didn't know that at the time, so I thought I liked her romantically as well, so I told her that and we started dating.

It was great at first, but after about 2 weeks or so of dating, she started to hurt me, while I did technically know this wasn't good, I had believed it had to be different here and that she was still good and everything (she wasn't, the abusive asshole).

Eventually, when I was like 15 and ½ years old or something like that, I realized I didn't feel romantic attraction at all and told my 'girlfriend' and broke up with her. It didn't go well.

She ended up stabbing me a few times, shit happened. Afterwards, I went to that same medical building I mentioned before and they helped me not die.

Eventually, I realized that my ex was probably only with me cause she wanted someone easy to hurt and shit. Idk just probably wasn't love from her end.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it) | I could go more into detail about probably all of this but I'm not gonna right now

Trick-or-treat ^v^

Hello!!!! Happy Halloween!!!!

Once again, using the alterhuman trick or treat thing here!

- Shay (They/it)

Meat (specifically steak) under the read more thing

Trick or treat!!!

Hello!!! Happy Halloween!!!

I don't know if this is supposed to be a normal trick or treating ask or an alterhuman trick or treating ask, so I'm just gonna go with the alterhuman one, lol.

Have a picture of some cat treats because of me being a cat!!

- Shay (They/it) :3c

trick or treat? :3

Hello!!!!! Happy Halloween!!!! It's the day before Halloween where I am right now, so I guess it should be happy early Halloween, lol!

Anyway, I decided to go with my canine kins [wolf, dog, and wolfdog, which feels like they're different and the same at the same time, so yeah, lol] treats for the alterhuman trick or treat thing!

Found this picture of some peanut butter dog treats the other day!!!! I absolutely love peanut butter!!!!!!

Have a great day!!! Hope your Halloween is fun!!!!

- Shay (They/it)

Misceverse stuff!!!

Shouldn't have any tw/cw this time, but let me know if I miss anything.

https://www.tumblr.com/misceverchive/759258743819091968/not-really-a-coining-question-so-i-hope-this-is?source=share (used the first link from this to figure out my identity btw)

Actual identity and stuff under the read more or whatever it says, lol. :3c

I am Tridynamic (Alpha, Beta, and Omega)

Typically referred to by myself and others as a Beta. I'll typically just say Beta when referring to my dynamic.

I have behaviors typical of Alphas and Omegas (as well as Betas, but the other two are brought up because of me being typically referred to as a Beta). Beta by itself might fit this description, but it doesn't feel 100% right. I can't explain it anymore than that currently.

Physically average (towards weaker side though), socially moderate, and a caree temperament. (PA SM TCE)

I'm not entirely sure of my scent, but anytime I really think of a scent for me, I think of fur, chocolate, and woods/forest (I hope this makes sense, lol).

I won't be talking about any nsfw stuff this time. Just know that my misce identity is not just nsfw. It is actually mainly sfw.

My behaviors are ofc based on canines (wolves and dogs mainly), cats, and some bird behavior (cause of being crow).

Some examples of behaviors I have are: nesting, purring, scenting (idk if this counts as a behavior but whatever), and other noises to do with the previously brought up behavior types.

I can't think of anything else to talk about here, so I guess that's it.

- Cyan Lupo (They/it) | cause this is mainly related to my RWBY kin

Tw/cw: blood, fangs, and claws, I guess.

- Shay (They/it) | more werecreature hours I guess

Blood From my Fangs and Claws

I feel the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I see the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I taste the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I smell the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I love the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I miss the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

Tw/cw: blood, werecreatures, and vampires

JFJFJDKDKKKRKFKFK

Hate the times when I miss feeling and seeing blood on my paws, claws, and dripping from my fangs.

Like, please, I don't want to miss it, I probably shouldn't miss it.

I miss being a werecreature (more specifically a canine like werecreature), I miss feeling the rush of being in that form, I just miss it.

I don't know if I'm a vampire or not. Blood is just good and shit, idk, man. If I am, I miss it too.

- Shay (They/it) | werecreature hours I guess

Idk what number of poems I have posted this is.

Tw/cw: anger mention, none others I can think of, let me know if you find any more

- Shay (They/it) | using for not Zuki related tag (just for "me")

I Roll Over

I roll over

To show you

My belly

To make you

Realize that I

Mean no real harm

I roll over

To say

I'm sorry

To say

You're right

I'm wrong

I roll over

And hope that

Maybe just maybe

You won't leave

That you won't

Hate me

I roll over

Cause I'm

A bad dog

Cause I'm

Not right

I'm sorry

I roll over

Cause I want

Your love and attention

Cause I don't want

Your fear or anger

I'm sorry

Thanks for answering my ask!!

- Shay (They/it)

Hello again!! Could I please have 2 more userboxes?

The 1st one:

Icon: (feel free to crop the pic)

Text Vibe (as I'm not entirely sure what exactly I want it to say): This pup age regresses

Font: Any is fine

Theme: Like the background of the icon, please (also, maybe a bit more of an agere theme if at all possible)

Text box color: Cyan or teal, please

Stickers: You choose whether to put any or not

The 2nd one:

Icon: (feel free to crop the pic)

Text Vibe (as I'm not entirely sure what exactly I want it to say): This kitten age regresses

Font: Any is fine

Theme: Same as the 1st userbox please

Text box color: Cyan or teal please

Stickers: You choose whether to add stickers or not

Thanks!!

- Shay (They/it)

here you go, I hope you enjoy! aww omg these are so cute, I love them!!!

Thanks for answering my ask!!!

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

Can I have 2 userboxes, please?

For the first one:

Icon: (picture can be cropped)

Text: This canine is disabled and tries their best

Font: Any font is fine

Theme: Forest/woods please

Text box color: Some kind of cyan or teal, please, preferably a darker shade if possible

Stickers: I don't care either way

For the second one:

Icon: (picture can be cropped)

Text: This cat is disabled and tries their best

Font: Any font

Theme: Forest/woods please

Text box color: Some kind of cyan or teal, preferably a darker shade, please

Stickers: I don't care either way

Thanks! :3c

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

here you go, I hope you enjoy! wow, there’s been a lot of userbox requests as of late—I’m not complaining though ^^

6th poem to post.

Tw/cw: fighting dog mentions, trauma (hinted at), abuse (hinted at), and aggressive dog mentions.

Trained Fighting Dog

I'm a fighting dog.

That's what I was

Made and trained for.

But you lie and say

"We did our best

To give her a

Good life and love."

You act innocent

When you are the

Ones who made me

Like this, a monster.

Yet somehow you

Make it out to be

Me who is the problem.

I'm a fighting dog.

Made and trained to be.

I do what you say

I do what you make me.

I am aggressive cause

Of what you did

I wish I wasn't.

Haha. I'm not even human, so checkmate to the people who say that. (The ones who say "love is what makes us human," I mean, lol)

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

"love is what makes us human" actually it's 'select all images with boat' but go off I guess

5th poem to post. Another dog & wolf related poem, lol. A lot of my poems are canine related cause of me being a canine kin [specifically wolfdog kin].

Tw/cw: biting mention, abuse hinted at(?), and I think that's all. Let me know if you find any tw/cw I didn't add that I need to.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/xe) [trying something new with my sign off thing on my poem posts]

Roll Over/Growl

I think that

I should roll over

And whine sorry

Over and over again

But instead I growl

I bare my teeth

And snap at you

I bite and growl

I should roll over

I should say sorry

I should be a good dog

A good wolf

But I'm not

I growl and bite

I'm a bad dog

A bad wolf

I should roll over

I growl and snap

I should whine sorry

I bare my teeth and bite

I'm sorry I'm not good

I bite even when

You try to help me

For I'm scared

I'm sorry I'm bad

I growl even when

You're kind for I don't

Know when you'll stop

Anyone wanna howl with me rn?

I wish I did yesterday when the full moon was out where I am. But alas, I didn't, so I will howl tonight.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/xe)

If I remember to actually check my asks, I'll participate!

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

alterhuman trick-or-treat!

as october comes to an end, the time for Spooky approaches. the creatures of the night awaken, their reflecting eyes shine in the darkness. and what better way to celebrate than a good old trick-or-treat?

inbox trick-or-treating is a beloved tradition here on tumblr, which consists in sending an ask to the blog(s) of you choice as if they were houses in your neighborhood and you were the kid politely knocking on their door. you would ask, "trick or treat?" and the asked would then choose whether to reply with a treat (picture of candy) or a trick (a joke, a poem, a haiku, a drawing...).

well... thats the normal one anyways.

i propose something a bit different this year: an alterhuman-themed trick-or-treat! what is that, youll ask? simple: the 31st of october, instead of sharing candy, we will share our 'types snacks! for example, if youre a cat therian you can share a fish-shaped treat, if youre fictionkin you can share your favorite food from your source, if youre alienkin you can share your cultures traditional dish... the possibilities are endless!

how to participate? reblog this post to let your followers know youre doing this! the 31st ill send an ask to everyone who interacted with this post so no one misses out on the fun. see you on halloween!

3rd & 4th poems to post. Posting these together cause they are related.

Tw/cw: violence(?), tearing skin, and bone mention.

Bare my Teeth and Tear 'my' Skin & Bare my Claws and Tear 'my' Skin

I want to bare my teeth

And tear at 'my' skin

Until all that's left

Is the bone underneath

For the bone will be

More right than the skin

Despite it still

Being wrong

But I cannot

For this body's

Teeth are not sharp

Enough to tear the skin

So I bare my teeth

At the image in the mirror

For it is wrong

It is not right

-------------------------------------------------------

I want to bare my claws

And tear at 'my' skin

Until all that's left

Is the bone underneath

For the bone will be

More right than the skin

Despite it still

Being wrong

But I cannot

For this body's

'Nails' are not sharp

Enough to tear the skin

So I bare my claws

At the image in the mirror

For it is wrong

It is not right

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)

New intro post, you can see our old intro posts by looking for "intro post" as a tag on our blog.

Hello, this is mainly my fictionkin account for my ockin, Zuki Shay Hara-Lupo. I am a noncanon MHA/BNHA being/creature. You can call me Zuki, Shay, or Lupo, whatever you prefer!

My canon was divergent from the manga and anime. If you want to know more about my canon, send in an ask, or you can see some things on my original intro posts. The only thing I will mention here is that UA was a college instead of a high school, so my class and I were all 18 at the start of the first year at UA.

In this life, the body is currently 19, so keep that in mind. We don't mind minors interacting. Just know I (the host) am more hesitant to interact with minors myself.

We try and make sure our posts are all tagged well, especially for tw or cw, if you see a post of ours that doesn't have a tw or cw that needs to be tagged tagged, then let us know and we'll fix it.

We are alterhuman/nonhuman in more ways in this life and in my (the host) life as Zuki, so that will also be brought up on our account.

We will not answer/post any donation asks if you want to know why you should be able to find the posts we made about it by using the tag "no donation asks." [Had to make this bigger and bold, so hopefully, people will listen]

We will block for any reason. Especially when it comes to hate.

This is an endo safe space. We will not judge systems/plural beings for their origins. If you don't like this, leave.

We are also disabled, both in this life and in my (the host) life as Zuki, so that will also be on our blog. [In this life for all the ones after this]. We are autistic and ADHD for sure. We have a learning disability and depression as well diagnosed. We believe we might have OCD and PTSD but are not sure yet. I know we have some form of anxiety, but it's not diagnosed. We all (alters) experience these disabilities so yeah.

Because of our disabilities, we need a service dog in this life. [I also had one as Zuki]. We will likely post more about the service dog when we finally get our stuff together and do more about it.

We are plural. The terms that seem to fit our origin right now are; quoigenic, unknown, and cryptogenic.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/hx/xe/ze/he + more neos/xenos) | currently a they/it time for my pronouns

Mostly try to bold edits

Edits from Oct 22 to Nov 7: Added tag things, changed words on some tag things, changed parts of the post, added parts to the post, and edited the sign off on the post.

Edit from Nov 8: Edited signoff tag things.

Edit Nov 11: Edited signoff tag things

Tags that are for specific things;

# howling and barking at the moon - poems/poetry

# howling into the past - past life/kin memories good

# barking into the past - past life/kin memories bad

# woof woof reblog - rebloging alterhuman/nonhuman stuff or adding alterhuman/nonhuman stuff in my reblog

# other reblog - rebloging without alterhuman/nonhuman stuff

# confused howling - questioning system/plural stuff, including origin and alters

# disabled pup - disability things

# meowing in confusion - idk this is just for when I am confused about something

# little pup - sfw age regression things when pup is used to refer to me

# little kitten - sfw age regression things when kitten/kit is used to refer to me

# howling barking and meowing - talking about stuff tag, idk lol

# tri beta noises sfw - sfw misceverse stuff

# tri beta noises nsfw - nsfw misceverse stuff

# multi noises - system/plural things

# multi reblog - system/plural reblogs

# 💚🩵🐾🪶 - Shay/Zuki Shay Lupo | host and MHA/BNHA kin put together, lol

# 🌊🔷️🌟🎨 - Lakey | alter

# 😺🤎🍓🥓 - Declan (The cat face changes based on mood of post) | alter

# 🐈🐈‍⬛🍗🥛 - Lynix | alter

# 🐺🦾🦿🤖 - Oynx Afton (the middle two are supposed to just represent animatronic shit) | no idea whether this is a kin or an alter, lol

# 🟤🐺🐾🌕 - Phalen Lupe (supposed to represent werecanine/werewolf) | either kin or alter

# 🗣💚🦮🥦 - Shirley | alter

# 🐺🌠😇😈 - Vesper Lucian (supposed to represent fallen angel) | now we are kinda thinking this is an alter

# 🩵🦴🐾🪽 - Cyan Lupo | RWBY kin

# ❓️⁉️❔️🤔 - ? (don't know who the fuck this person is, think they are an alter though?)

# 💬🗣❓️❔️- When confused who is fronting

Second poem to post.

Tw/cw: abuse but not named. Nothing else I can think of but let me know if you find anymore.

Another canine/dog related poem.

Trying something different with the read more thing being after the title of the poem.

I love like a dog

I love like a dog

Always going back

To people who hurt me

Cause that's what I

Was taught that love is

I love like a dog

Always letting people

I love hurt me

Cause that's what I

Was taught that love is

I love like a dog

Always waiting for

People to hurt me

Cause that's what I

Was taught that love is

I love like a dog

I hurt the people

I love just the same

Cause that's what I

Was taught that love is

First poem to post, lol.

No tw or cw I can think of.

This poem is very dog related.

The formatting is different on here than it was on my notes app, so it might seem weird. Although it might have seemed weird anyway, lol.

You Taught Me/Bad Dog

You taught me to fight

Yet when I fight

You label me a

Bad dog

You taught me to bite

But when I bite

You call me a

Bad dog

You taught me to growl

Yet when I growl

You say I'm a

Bad dog

You taught me this

But when I listen

You declare me a

Bad dog

You taught me

Yet I listen and

You insist I'm a

Bad dog

You taught me

How to be a

Bad dog

Looking through a few poems I made. Would anyone want me to post some of them? Some would probably need tw or cw, lol. I use poems to vent. They also wouldn't be that good.

Just curious if anyone would want to see my poems, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/hx)

More bad memories from my life as Zuki. Cause of course my brain hates me.

Tw: abuse, school abuse[? Idk what to call it], muzzles, quirk discrimination, shock collars, bullying, I think that's it for this one?

When I was younger, my bio mother was told to use a muzzle and shock collar that "neutralized" quirks on me. Cause my quirk was "dangerous" and "needed to be controlled." These were supposed to be illegal to use on anyone, even the most dangerous villain. But of course, people didn't listen and used them on those with "evil" or "villain" quirks (especially certain mutant related quirks).

It kinda makes sense that a hero like my bio mother could get one, but what's 'interesting' is that once I got into middle school, some of the teachers also had them. I don't know where they got them, but whatever. My middle school and high school both used the muzzles and shock collars on me.

When I was in middle school, I was still very cautious and shit. I never fought back, I never started a fight, I never did any of that. But yet anytime someone attacked me, I got punished. They would put the muzzle on me saying something about how I was bad and deserved it and the same thing with the shock collar. But 'luckily' the shock collar was less often used.

In high school is when I started fighting back sometimes. It was still usually only if someone else was being hurt [whether physically or verbally]. When it was just me, I would usually not fight back. Sometimes, I did fight back when it was just against me fully, though.

This is all I'm gonna talk about rn.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/he)

DUDE YES PREENING!!

I made a post about that a bit, lol. Yeah, it's very much a pack thing! At first, only very few people were allowed to touch my wings at all, lol. Eventually, more people were added to that list, but the list of people who could actually preen my wings was still pretty small (around 6-8 people I think), lol. It's a very intimate thing, it's a pack thing, it's special.

I really consider/considered my whole class as my pack, but not everyone was in the same "category" of what they could do, if you get what I mean. Like not everyone was given permission to preen my wings and not everyone could suprise me with hugs or any touches without getting bit or something [very, very few people were in this category, mostly cause I got used to the little noises and shit they would make/do when they were about to touch me, lol. So it wasn't fully a suprise and shit.]

Also yeah looking at the actual canon for MHA, it's pretty fucking bad for my pack. I mean, we all had trouble and shit in my canon, but considering my canon didn't have the actual war and shit, it wasn't as bad in some ways. So it's nice to know that I was there for my pack as they were there for me.

Dude, I miss being able to fly. I also have to have a fear of heights in this life, sadly.

I really didn't learn how to fly until after the dorms were made at UA, lol. To be fair, I didn't really have anyone to properly teach me about flying with my wings when I was younger. My older sibling would've had to be the one to do that, and they were busy a lot when it would've been the time to teach me really, and they had to learn on their own so they weren't thinking about having to teach me, lol. I was lucky that I had Hikari [another noncanon being] to help me cause they also had wings and shit. Though their wings were of a different type [my wings were that of like a crow, and I can't quite remember what type of bird their wings were like.] They were still one of the best in helping me with learning to fly.

I don't mention much about my quirk, except for my wings, ears, and tail, lol. But the other "part" of my quirk let me essentially become a spirit like thing, which with that my form was a wolfdog with wings, lol. I could fly just fine in that form, just not in my "normal" form for some reason. Idk why that is exactly, but whatever.

It's missing my pack hours, lol.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/ze) :3c

Edit: fixed a mistake/typo

Hello, I decided to come say hi and shit in an ask, lol.

I'm not good at starting conversations, but I would like to hear about any alterhuman or nonhuman experiences or memories or anything that'd you'd be willing to share!

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it) | a fellow noncanon MHA being/creature :3c

aaa hihi!! good to hear from you, i definitely feel you on the 'bad at starting conversations' lol!

the first thing that comes to mind a memory of playing video games with Tomura and Shuichi. I wasn't very good at it, but it was good bonding and i loved playing with them. I would only play the 'silly' games like Mario Kart or Smash Bros, they got too into the 'serious' ones for me. I finished in last place every time lmao, so i mostly spent my time teasing whoever was in second place. Dabi would sit with us too sometimes, either lazily scrolling on his phone or bothering the three of us, trying to help whoever would give him the most attention lol. The others joined in sometimes too, Himiko and Jin and rarely Sho and Toshi if they were hanging out. Himiko would shriek excitedly and bump us while Jin cheered her on and cursed her out. It was good.

Thanks for giving me the opportunity to ramble lol!! Feel free to share any memories/thoughts you have :D