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Hello everyone I have a friend who will stay anonymous who is going through a really tough time right now.

One note=one day they'll stay alive

Please boost this I can't lose them

I don’t even know if I should make them the gift anymore because now it won’t be so much out of love/p and more out of fear

Dont you guys just hate when something happens that mirrors an experience from your childhood that made you so scared of other humans you avoided them and stopped believing in friendship entirely for 4 years and now you’re terrified they both hate you because that’s what happened last time and every other time ever

This happened to me a few minutes ago so I made comic

[insert „Toji killing himself in front of Megumi“ here]

hello!

this is a one note one day post for one of my friends, they haven't felt really well recently and i dont wanna lose them

please boost!

My Student Spirit × Major Grom crossover

Олег Волков умер. Сергей отчаянно сжимает в руках злополучную бумагу, насквозь пропитанную слезами. Его тело всё ещё трясётся, глаза смотрят вдаль, не видя ничего, и он словно всё ещё ощущает знакомое прикосновение, эти родные пальцы в его волосах. Рука тянется к непослушным прядям… Ничего. Некому больше взьерошить ему волосы, поправить чёлку, похлопать по спине, поддерживая в трудную минуту, держать за руку, когда страх сжимает горло… Рука сама находит лезвие, словно во сне, ведь что есть жизнь, если рядом больше нет его.

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Ухмылка Птицы становится ещё шире, когда он наконец триумфально распрямляется, держа в руках волчий кулон. Так вот где ты был всё это время… Взгляд скользит по блестящей металлической поверхности, когда внезапно руку с кулоном накрывают призрачные голубые пальцы. - Э-э-э, не так быстро! Птица лишь звонко смеётся и вертит украшение в руке, словно дразнясь. - Ты ведь не можешь его коснуться, правда? Он встречается взглядом с холодными голубыми глазами призрака. В них плескается чистая ярость в перемешку с едва заметным отчаянием. Птица же словно и не замечает этого, наигранно невинно улыбается и подкидывает кулон вверх, ловя в самый последний момент и крепко сжимая в ладони. В ответ на это Волков лишь злобно скалиться, словно раненый зверь, загнанный в угол.

AU где Олег погиб в Сирии, а его дух оказался привязан к волчьему кулону, который он перед отъездом оставил Серёже на память. Птица может видеть призраков, потому что он сам мистическая сущность. Он скрывает от Разумовского факт смерти Волкова и начинает искать способ избавиться от последнего, чтобы тот не сумел испортить его планы. Однако всё рушится после того, как Серёжа находит документы о смерти друга и пытается покончить с собой. Птица спасает его, и в последний момент Серёжа успевает увидеть Олега. Но уже поздно, и Птица нашёл, как избавиться от бывшего наёмника…

A couple weeks ago, I found out that my university’s library has a copy of the original Assassins script book (1990). Tomorrow’s my last class of the year, so before I have to turn it in, I thought I’d pick some things out to share with y’all.

This is in the intro. Someone describing a moment in the depository scene that isn’t in the 2004 revival.

The character descriptions are just the descriptions of their assassination attempts.

Sorry, but Booth reading Variety is incredibly funny to me.

Just this whole bit. I love the way it’s written. Booth is trying very hard to ignore the Balladeer. The soldier getting shot is not in the revival.

In the 2004 revival, the Proprietor is the one who interrupts the song. In the original, Byck introduced the other national anthem. And while I can’t deny that I think the Proprietor is probably better suited to this solo, I think Byck is an interesting choice. It’s probably just a continuation of his monologue from the scene before, but still…

Terrifying.

I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again: By the end of the depository scene, Booth is in the Balladeer's position. He represents the new American Dream, the other national anthem. Oswald is now in Booth's previous position as the group's pioneer.

Hinckley admires Oswald; that’s in line with his character. Moore is the first to bring up family; she’s a mother. But Czolgosz respects Oswald. Guiteau and Booth envy him. Interesting choices for the only other successful assassins. Czolgosz I get. Guiteau I get. But Booth, envious? Interesting.

This one needs no explanation. But I do think it’s worth mentioning that after all the talk of family, when Oswald pulls the trigger, he’s still alone.

Also from the intro. Thoughts on the assassins and Sondheim’s motivations.

It’s just a really good show, y’all.

Found out my university library has the book for Sondheim’s Assassins (1990), and checked it out immediately. There’s a bit in the depository scene where, after Lee Harvey Oswald shoots JFK, Booth takes his suicide note and burns it. This directly parallels the Ballad of Booth, where the Balladeer burns Booth’s suicide note after he shoots himself.

And I’m fucking LOSING it over the implication that Booth has replaced the Balladeer and Oswald is now in Booth’s previous position as “our pioneer.”

It’s a new American Dream, where any kid can grow up to be president, and any kid can grow up to kill one.

Vent

Trigger Warning - G@slight!ng, sVic!d3 mention

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I don’t even fucking know anymore. It seems like me and my sibling constantly are at battle nowadays. And recently they’ve been getting worse and worse. Sure, there are days of laughing, it almost all the other days, it feels like I’m always trying to be g@sligh3d by them. And it’s gotten worse and worse it feel like. Even to the littlest of thing like having the TV. I was getting called a child when I was told by them that I could have the TV at 10, I agreed. I missed it by 5 minutes, and thus it became 10:30. I set a timer, and next thing be I know I was told that they didn’t know where the remote was, and that they never said 10:30, saying I was hallucinating.

Not to mention, my thoughts have been getting worse and one of the only things that is keeping me living and not wanting to commit is knowing that I need to be there for my friends. I just don’t even know anymore..

I apologize, I just..really needed to say something.

TW MENTION OF SUICIDE

Jehovah's Witnesses used to straight up say you "will not enter paradise" if you commit suicide, but there's a little more leeway on paper now. Sure they won't say "you'll never see your loved one again", but no elder would be caught dead helping you with the funeral. I know of man who was forced to give his own brother's talk/eulogy cause everyone else refused. It's disgusting.

Was anybody else taught that you automatically go to hell if you commit suicide because you aren't "enduring to the end" or is that another specific microcosm of racist, backwater Idaho mormons?

“I never really realized how beautiful the sky is until today.” Shimi never really took the time to plan things out, but for today she slaved away for weeks on it. 

A piece based on yorushika’s Nautilus, featuring Shimi Shinozuku!

What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

Some of my friends had suicide scares in the past, and one of my friends had one quite recently. Keep the flame spread the tag.

Keep the flame going for those we have lost to suicide. 

secret trio my beloved

//Tw For Abuse, Suicide and other extensive childhood traumas, also long post of pouring my heart out cause I take fictional characters to my poor traumatized heart

Can we really talk about the S4 Vol2 Speech, though?

I can understand Max’s mixed feelings about her brother. I have some of my own about my sister, who behaved a lot like him and hurt me in some ways, even if she didn’t always mean to.

First, I want to talk about the fact that Max HAD TO KNOW that Billy was abused, to some degree.

Not because she was living in the same house as him for years, but because she continues the cycle. After she sedates Billy in the fight at the Byers’, she threatens him—

“Say you understand! Say it!”

A few scenes before this, his father says nearly the exact same thing— “Do you understand? Say it.” (Maybe not exactly but using most of those words.)

So Max would’ve had to have heard it used before, because it would mean she knew that’s how you get Billy to “agree” with something. And Max— Max is a good person. She’s good-natured, funny, and clever.

So you really expect me to think that Max, knowing her brother was abused and didn’t have a mother for some reason, after he sacrificed himself for all of her friends and very nearly the world crying and apologizing over and over in front of her, DIDN’T THINK HE DESERVED TO BE SAVED? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?

I can understand the idea that he was the greatest “normal-world” terror in her life. My sister didn’t affect me directly, but her problems were a full time job and distracted my parents from me while I was still very young. On top of that, her and my other sister liked to gang up on and bully me. So trust me, I get it.

Let’s take a look at what Billy did.

He grabbed Max, threatened to hit her friends with his car, yelled at her a few times, made a vague comment against Lucas after seeing Max fight with him (which there’s a lot to say about this but I’ll keep it at the fact that Dacre has said this wasn’t racist and that the Dxffers refuse to deal with any issues whatsoever), pushed Lucas up against a wall, and fought with Steve. I’m not including the Vecna/Mind Flayer bs in this because he did it against his will, not to mention the reason he did half this shit.

Yes, I can understand how that could be scary, especially for a thirteen year old. Using my sister as an example yet again, she died at 18, right when she was “starting to get better.” Billy was doing the same, as he and Max seemed to have a truce in between S2/S3. She even said in her book that she wasn’t scared of him, but that’s largely considered “non-canon.” To summarize, she understood he was abused and was even on level terms with him.

With my sister, I was not. I relate to Billy myself, but I largely relate Billy to my sisters, mainly my oldest sister (I really mean this. She acted out and got the attention of older people and went in and out of mental hospitals and was suicidal and got in a fist fight with my mother once, etc etc etc) Like I said before, my sisters bullied me (my parents and grandparents have admitted to me that they even knew they were outright nasty) and my sisters’ problems were largely the cause of one of my biggest issues. My sisters both acted out, distracted my parents from me, my whole family trauma dumped on very young me, etc etc etc. Really, that time of my life was a huge mess. And then my sister died, and even more trauma dumped on me from that (emotional abuse and neglect, divorce trauma, the fact that my sister was fucking dead and never coming back never never never how can someone just disappear, Etc). So we rarely got along and the rest of the time we were mostly neutral.

I’m not going to lie. I don’t really do it anymore, but when I was younger I’d curl up and cry about how I was all alone because my parents were to busy with them. I blamed them. I still do, but not in a how-could-you-do-that-to-me way and more of a these-events-caused-you-pain-and-got-you-attention-and-I-suffered-in-silence-for-multiple-reasons-that-aren’t-your-fault way.

You know what I don’t do? Say she didn’t deserve to be saved. Cause she did. She really fucking did. She could be mean and horrible and cold and she wasn’t even close to me but she was only eighteen, only for a couple of months (like Billy), and she was still a baby, she wasn’t even old enough to drink. She was small, she was always small, she’s just a kid. She was getting better and learning how to cope and being nicer to me and she was finding a purpose and getting a handle on herself and then she was just—

Gone. I still don’t understand how someone can just stop existing. Me and my sister still talk about how we expect her to just walk through the door, smack us on the back of the head, and laugh at us for believing it— that anything could ever kill her, of all people. That it was some big joke and we were dumbasses for believing it. It’s been years now, but I still break down at night crying over her. My sister and I have this bone-deep understanding of each other now that I can’t explain— it’s so genuine and whole that it kinda scares me. We call each other after nightmares and share dreams with her in them. My sister blames all of the “paranormal” activity in her house on her and tells me about it. Every time I see a bug (her nickname) or a rainbow I send it to her. When I was younger, I used to wish something would happen, either to her or to me, just so something would change. Do you know what I think every day? How she deserved better. How it should’ve been me or someone else. How she deserved to be saved.

Because “inconvenient” abuse victims deserve to be saved. People who’ve been broken and beaten and discarded and ignored and assaulted their whole lives aren’t irremediable and they deserved to be saved. My sisters deserved to be saved and I deserved to be saved and people like us, people like Billy, deserved to be saved too.

In short, fuck the Duffle Bag Bitches. I’m keeping this eccentric rat fucker close to my fucking heart and I’ll redeem and defend him eight thousand times if it means someone like me, like us, like Billy gets even a glimmer of hope to keep going.

Yesssssssssss, y'all are amazing people and y'all matter and I love y'all.

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This was such a fucking jumpscare in THE MIDDLE OF TECH CLASS

love u yuna but please start uploading these at 1 am when nobody is around

au where sang-woo takes gi-hun’s hand, and they go home without the money.

during the ride home, nobody speaks. gi-hun still isn’t ready to put everything beside and needs time to think.

they go their separate ways for a few weeks, to process what had just happened to them.

finally, gi-hun visits sang-woo’s apartment, with the hope they can sort things out, finally heal, and work their lives out as they were meant to.

he calls through the tiny apartment, but is given no answer.

he looks through the rest of the house. no return when he calls out sang-woo’s name.

the only answer he’s given is a body, hanging from the bedroom ceiling.

sang-woo’s body.

even in another universe, he wasn’t enough to stop sang-woo from taking his own life.

sorry guys!!!!

vent art (TW- Suicide)

A vent piece

I sometimes have a voice in my head that sounds like Master Shake sometimes telling me negative stuff

(don’t worry guys I’m fine)

Shitpost (Trigger Warning: Suicide)

Its that time of year again

*Listening to ‘Shiny’ from Moana while typing my suicide note*

(Don’t worry guys I’m fine :))

Trigger Warning: Vent art w/ suicide-related content

@callsign-bubbles, @dracdliweht, @i-ideate, @spectrum-studios, @bea-the-ao3er,

@grimauxiliatrix624, @xerrr0r, and all else!!

if this gets 10k notes by the 25th of October I won’t kms

@mrblazeflappybird @luxlitemidnight

@hunter216 @the-lunacy-system @augmentedchordsofficial

just a couple of tags

I'll do what I can to boost this!! I'm so sorry that people have to go through awful things that push them to this point, but just know that the world is not against you!

@augmentedchordsofficial, @adriftinthev0id, @callsign-bubbles, @xerrr0r, @i-ideate,

@spectrum-studios, @bodacious-ringading, @acewithobsessions, @groovysaber, @ousaiibo,

@bea-the-ao3er, @dracdliweht @tetokasanebiggestfan, and everyone else!!!

sigh. i cant believe im doing this.

if this gets 8k notes by the first week of october ill promise to stay alive one more year.

TW⚠️: suicide, blood, angst, bsd beast spoilers :,)

this is how i’ll be coping from beast au

edit: awt the beast tags aren’t working so I’m sorry if this caused any damage other than intended angst for intended audience 🤡

this is basically the todobros subplot right

tw suicide mention (class of 09 audio)

US Helplines:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868

FREE 24/7 suicide hotlines:

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/64238365

Dazai finally gets what he wants, it hurts Chuuya more than either expected it to

major trigger warning for suicide and death, please be warned!!

with that said please enjoy i had a lot of fun writing it :3

Also I plan on adding some parallels to Melody, I made Edward before I saw Frozen Empire (I made him in April) but after watching Frozen Empire I thought about adding parallels in there-

First art post kinda nervous

Art style jumpscare aaaa Never really posted art before, these are some no color sketches I made yesterday of my ocs.