Juan Corrida - Blog Posts

ouuughh… Highschool au where matt has shitty parents and Juan has the average suburban white life… ough…. OUGGGHH….

Mind boggling to me that most people don't actually recognize the true weight of what Inpax did to Matt and Juan.....

With Matt specifically you've got the age thing and the fact that he was certainly a child when he and Inpax, a whole adult woman, got together but it's not like Juan being 19 was much better. Technically he's legal when they're together. but he's a child star. and she must have known him before he was 18.

And then you get into the power dynamics of it all. Dating your manager??? "Dating"???? Being groomed to think you love the person that has a major hand in your public reputation, your appearances, your career trajectory...... Inpax didn't want boyfriends, she wanted boys—BOYS. NOT MEN.—that she could sculpt into something that benefited her. The manager of a star, that's what she wanted.

I just. I really don't think people talk about her enough. This woman was not the victim in her situation!!!!!! "Oh Matt was a bad boyfriend" . the child. the child who has spent his youth on screen. was immature and not the best romantic partner for a woman that's bound to be mid-twenties at least ? that is so shocking . i can not believe the kid is acting like how a kid would act . -_-

Anyway . Matt and Juan deserved better.

(quote is a pete wentz livejournal post)

"i am that gasp of breath on your deathbead (stale and panicked) but you're still dying for me. i got a list of things in my head that i miss about you. id love to write them but i dont want to give myself away to you this easily."

-- AA 2-4 SPECIFIC SPOILERS --

No because this is so Enrida. It is so Matt coded. Gasp of breath on your deathbed ???? So on the nose here but like Yeah It's Suffocation. But you're still dying for me ???? And the use of 'for' as a preposition is so interesting because you can take it in the way of "you're dying because of me" but also "you are dying and you're doing it for me. a last act of devotion, even though I don't fucking deserve it." and I think that is so cool.

Things in my head that I miss about you. Present tense. He misses Juan in the here and now. He knows he fucked up. He made the worst mistake of his life and Juan is dead and he can't change that, he can only continue missing him. But keeping it all inside his head is all he's allowed to do. Because he's got an image. He's got their carefully curated rivalry to uphold. He can't reveal it. I don't want to give myself away to you this easily.

saw Wicked on Broadway for the first time this weekend and can I just say No Good Deed is so so so matt coded.

"no good deed goes unpunished" oh you mean like how he told juan the truth about inpax and her creepy abusive ways to try and save him from that relationship and then years later they're both blamed for her death?? yeah??? yeah.

Juan drank tomato juice from a wine glass like how Matt drinks (seemingly) chocolate milk from a wine glass the both of them wanted to be seen as mature soooo bad there's so many parallels between them ahhhh

electric touch is so enrida and I will be making an entire google doc analysis thank you very much

enrida fans go read my au fic it's fluff <3

Pairing: Matt Engarde/Juan Corrida

Rating: Teen And Up

Word Count: 5.3k

" Any time the passion for his career was brought into a conversation, Juan’s entire face would light up. Matt had known this expression of his for a while, damn near studied it during school rehearsals. “I wanna know everything about my favorite customer’s new piece.”

If there was any heat in Matt’s body, it would have rushed to his face upon hearing ‘favorite’ come out of Juan’s mouth. Sure, they were friends, and Matt was as much of a regular here as his paycheck allowed him to be, but ‘favorite’ felt just a bit too special for someone like himself. "

aka, it's raining it's pouring, and matt has no way home til juan (who he's kinda maybe definitely crushing on) offers him shelter for the night.

hello 4 fans of enrida.

you'll be getting some fics of them in the coming days. reskins of my other stuff on ao3 with one of them having a special twist second chapter !

i have original content for them in the works but like . summer job eats away most of my time

i think enrida/juangarde should be more popular but i also fear that their dynamic and characters will get bastardized and woobified so maybe I Am Content with only having like 5 people on this earth care about the boyfriends

Juan asks Matt to be his boyfriend as they're playing a couple rounds of Mario Kart and Matt of course says yes and is ecstatic but is also convinced that Juan chose Then to ask him because he wanted to sabotage Matt's game but in reality. No. Juan was just looking at Matt and how much he was enjoying himself and their little date night. Completely enamored. Couldn't hold the question back any longer.

sentences from my wip matt/juan hurt/comfort fic that i had a little giggle while writing because matt engarde third person limited pov is one of my favorite writing styles:

- ...he doesn’t know where to put his hands and they rest awkwardly on Matt’s shoulders, and there’s enough space in between them to appease Jesus at a fucking middle school dance. [just to clarify the 'he' here is not Juan]

- ...the guy’s only sticking his tongue in Matt’s mouth and not doing anything with it. He’s like a frog. [this is the same guy as above, still not Juan]

- He slurs out a response that amounts to something something whiskey dick, and he’s in the clear for now.

- Matt’s in a high enough tax bracket that buying everyone in this seedy shithole three rounds of his favorite top shelf brandy wouldn’t make a dent in his monthly earnings, but he’s not the type to turn down free booze.

(Hi Juangarde anon here)

You want headcanons? I’ll give you headcanons (at least for my own AU where 2-4 never happens)

- I hc that they’re t4t (Juan is ftm while Matt is transfem), so they would always support and comfort each other on their transitions and stuff like that

- They tried to learn each other’s languages and gave each other cheesy nicknames

- Just like your hc, Matt does name pets after objects. But for my hc it’s specifically footwear lol, like Boots, Shoe, Socks, etc

- The older actors (Will, Jack, etc) and a few other people in the showbiz kinda knew about their rivalry being forged, and played along with it for the views. They also sent both of them and Adrian to therapy after the Inpax incident in this AU so

- They definitely swapped jackets more than once, but it’s not like they really care about that

- Juan actually has a dog and Matt adores the canine very much (although Shoe is still superior), basically they love their fur babies

Sorry if it’s too long, but yeah, i’m glad i finally have someone to talk about Juangarde with lol. So thanks again and hope you have a nice day :))

I'm absolutely obsessed omg I will talk about the boys with anyone for as long as they'll let me ansbfnvjd

More content for them has me like 💞💓💞💕💓💓💓💕💞💕💓💞💕💕💞💓💕 I'm gonna eat conk creat. Have an awesome day!!!!!!

Just wanna say thank you for your Juangarde content (as a starving Juangarde fan and as a Juan fan in general haha) and for the fact that you realized how bad Inpax and her relationship with Juan and Matt is. I’m just tired of people viewing her as entirely angelic and all

These two are also kinda my comfort ship too so, even a mention of them is cool to me and your posts did exactly that, thank you again lol

Oh my god stop I'm literally gonna cry (/pos) over this— Believe me anon I am also starving over content for these two so I decided to Be A Chef and make my own food lmao!!

And yes yes yes oh yes I will be the first person to shout from the rooftops how absolutely horrid of a person Inpax was. Between the age gap and the power dynamic???? No wonder these two boys were kinda crappy lovers at times, they were TEENAGERS. KIDS. what are you as their adult supervisor doing dating and getting engaged to them!!!!!!!!!!! i hate her so much . and omg if juangarde is your comfort ship pls pls let me give you some headcanons of them i think are really cute, I'd love for someone else to hear the machinations of my mind—

Matt has a few pet names for him. Yes he’s the type to use ‘dude’ and ‘bro’ romantically, but he’s also disgustingly romantic once he’s done some healing, and he’ll use the corny shit like ‘mon ange’ and ‘mon musique’.

When they were younger, pre-Inpax, so like 11-12, they were never able to dance together at award show afterparties because that wouldn't align with their (fabricated!!!) rivalry, so they have to wait until they’re back in one of their hotel rooms (Matt comes to his more often, since it’s not like he’s got parents looking after him) to get time to themselves. They get their time to dance together in the late hours of the night, candles and the city skyline surrounding them, music playing from one of their phones.

Juan sings to Matt when he’s having bad nights (be it his road to recovery/sobriety or Inpax related trauma) because nothing can calm him down like his nightingale.

Matt names all his animals by picking them up and holding them like an inch away from his face and just saying the first thing that pops into his mind. His first cat was Armchair, of course we have Shoe, and then when he names a cat Vacuum and Juan sees this ritual for the first time, he goes "You are not gonna get to name our kids if this is your method, I don't want a kid named Jukebox or some shit—" (shoutout to my bestie for that Juan dialogue) and then Matt almost drops the animal out of shock, looks at Juan with the biggest widest puppy dog eyes, and just "Did...you say 'our kids'...?"

Anyway I literally love these two so so so much and I want to keep pumping out content for them I've got a hurt/comfort type thing on the way that's pre-2–4 and I'm working on a long-form multichaptered fix-it fic that will be canon divergent!!!! And of course more posting here whenever the boys invade my brain and I have a Thought

Promoting my fucked up Matt Engarde character study nsfw fic— tw for drug abuse and mentions of/references to csa ; summary and link under the cut

!! 2-4 ace attorney spoilers !!

Pairing: Matt Engarde/Juan Corrida (kind of, there's some hallucinations happening)

Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 12.5k

It’s something wicked, it makes Matt’s blood burn with sharp pangs of guilt. He doesn’t deserve to think about those memories full of vitality when he’d set off the chain reaction that ended with Juan’s life being stripped away. But… Matt doesn’t like these thoughts, this guilt. Fuck, he’s living the rest of his days—hours, maybe?—as a ticking time bomb, he shouldn’t have to feel such contempt at himself. Matt takes some time with the pipe again, only stopping when his gut twists painfully. The feelings of guilt, his own personal gavel smashing down against his skull, barely subside.

Alternatively, the fic in which Matt receives a not guilty verdict and his guilt and addiction lead him down a drug trip where he hallucinates Juan, and he tries to keep his lover's memory alive by any means necessary. In other words, by doing the one thing he's been trained to do well.

juan corrida is the okokok to matt engarde's lalala

talking with bestie about whether matt or juan would propose and i have reasoning for both. Here It Is.

Juan: He's been engaged once before. Clearly that did not work out. Unrest in pieces, bitch, I hate you Inpax. He's determined to get it right this time, because he's with the right person this time. Matt has always been the man he was meant to be with. They will always find their way back to each other, and Juan wants to ensure that there's no way he could ever lose him again. He's also a hopeless romantic as we know and I'd be lying if I said I didn't think he has a scrapbook laying around of different proposal ideas. He knows the shit that Matt has gone through, and probably not even the worst parts of it. That's a terrifying thought, and he wants to put as much of that pain in the past as he can. He wants to move forward with their lives, he wants to promise himself to Matt forever. He wants to promise Matt a soft forever, a delicate one, free of hurt and anguish. He's going to do it right.

Matt: Honestly, he needs a sense of control in his love life. So much of his relationships haven't had any of his input, and while of course Juan is nothing like that, the fear remains. Trauma does that to a guy. Again, fuck you Inpax. He likes the comfort and security of being agentic, making decisions. And he knows that Juan is the type to provide the grand romantic gestures instead of receiving them. Matt wants to change that. When his life went to shit, he lost control, he wasn't there for Juan, he couldn't provide comfort and love and care. He's back on the right track now. He can make up for lost time. He can get down on one knee and in spite of all his flaws, all his mistakes, the sins of his past that nearly cost his beloved his life, he can pledge to love this man forever. He already does. But Juan likes this cheesy shit (and Matt is learning to, though the process is slow). He wants to make Juan feel loved, he wants this proposal to be everything he's ever dreamed of. Everything he couldn't get the first time. It would be grandiose. Sentimental. Multifaceted. Intimate. A perfect whirlwind combination of what's in Juan's scrapbook and that charismatic clumsiness, maybe the heat of something A Little Too Personal, that is undeniably Matt Engarde.

okay yeah and these are my ramblings. enrida/juangarde i love you. The them. The sillies.

matt uses obnoxiously cheesy french pet names for juan and starts off doing so sarcastically but then he realizes that juan corrida, hopeless romantic he is, actually likes them.

anyway 2-4 never happened and they are in love.

// drug use mention

matt x juan is something so dear to me and my canon divergent mind i just think they love each other and it got fucked over when matt started getting into drugs and The Inpax Bullshit started but yeah in a better world where matt has rehab and therapy i just think him and juan would be so good. enrida/juangarde my beloved.

just. matt using dude/bro romantically but also having the cheesiest french pet names he uses for juan. the two of them back in a hotel room after an award show just slow dancing with the city skyline as their backdrop. matt being juan's muse for all the love songs he writes but juan will Never admit to this.

and i would like to imagine the rivalry they had is something they made up for shits and giggles (and publicity) and they are actually really good friends and just were taught that any press is good press so matt went "hey y'know what'd get 'em all talking???" and at age 12-13 brought this idea up to juan.

i will never shut up about enrida sorry.