(quote Is A Pete Wentz Livejournal Post)

(quote is a pete wentz livejournal post)

"i am that gasp of breath on your deathbead (stale and panicked) but you're still dying for me. i got a list of things in my head that i miss about you. id love to write them but i dont want to give myself away to you this easily."

-- AA 2-4 SPECIFIC SPOILERS --

No because this is so Enrida. It is so Matt coded. Gasp of breath on your deathbed ???? So on the nose here but like Yeah It's Suffocation. But you're still dying for me ???? And the use of 'for' as a preposition is so interesting because you can take it in the way of "you're dying because of me" but also "you are dying and you're doing it for me. a last act of devotion, even though I don't fucking deserve it." and I think that is so cool.

Things in my head that I miss about you. Present tense. He misses Juan in the here and now. He knows he fucked up. He made the worst mistake of his life and Juan is dead and he can't change that, he can only continue missing him. But keeping it all inside his head is all he's allowed to do. Because he's got an image. He's got their carefully curated rivalry to uphold. He can't reveal it. I don't want to give myself away to you this easily.