Promoting My Fucked Up Matt Engarde Character Study Nsfw Fic— Tw For Drug Abuse And Mentions Of/references
Promoting my fucked up Matt Engarde character study nsfw fic— tw for drug abuse and mentions of/references to csa ; summary and link under the cut
!! 2-4 ace attorney spoilers !!
Pairing: Matt Engarde/Juan Corrida (kind of, there's some hallucinations happening)
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 12.5k
It’s something wicked, it makes Matt’s blood burn with sharp pangs of guilt. He doesn’t deserve to think about those memories full of vitality when he’d set off the chain reaction that ended with Juan’s life being stripped away. But… Matt doesn’t like these thoughts, this guilt. Fuck, he’s living the rest of his days—hours, maybe?—as a ticking time bomb, he shouldn’t have to feel such contempt at himself. Matt takes some time with the pipe again, only stopping when his gut twists painfully. The feelings of guilt, his own personal gavel smashing down against his skull, barely subside.
Alternatively, the fic in which Matt receives a not guilty verdict and his guilt and addiction lead him down a drug trip where he hallucinates Juan, and he tries to keep his lover's memory alive by any means necessary. In other words, by doing the one thing he's been trained to do well.
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no one knows matt engarde more than i do. he is me. i am him. we are the same. i am aware that is not a good thing.
Anything Kaito related <3 good luck with your sketchbook!
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I'm trying to sketch pretty organically so it fits with the rest of the book, and I'm pretty happy with how this page turned out. Thanks for the request anon! (And thanks for the luck too haha.)
this fucking guy
anyone else think about the fact that celeste inpax was older than matt engarde and also his manager, and maybe juan called off the wedding bc he found out his fiance had been like. grooming the last guy she worked for? cuz im fairly sure juan was an adult by the time they started dating (tho theres always the chance he was still a minor), and i just. i know how they meant it, but it always came across to me as “matt casually mentions how he and celeste got together when he was 16, and juan decides maybe he shouldnt marry her actually”
i think about this constantly
never heard a single mf object to t4t audrey and seymour . they’re actually just that powerful. and trans
im never finishing this comic so woe. blue lock rpf be upon ye
it follows by waterparks but through the lens of matt engarde:
"kiss me like nobody would when i was 15" taken not in the way that nobody kissed him, but nobody did so with care, with tenderness, with respect. love him, all he wants is love. something real and true and messy, sure, but in the way love is. Not lust. Kiss him in all the cheesy teen romance ways he was never allowed to experience.
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two sides of a coin / what could have been
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