BPD Culture Is Becoming So Torn About How You Feel About Your FP After A Serious Argument.

i basically assume that people don’t like me unless they explicitly tell me they like me and then periodically remind me

bpd culture is asking your fp ‘do you still like me’ or ‘are you okay’ for the fifth time

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dunno who needs to hear this but sometimes people don't want you to improve they want to constantly make you do self flagellation. find many more reasons why you can't and hold shit, especially shit from years ago, over your head as a block. it's fine to not forgive someone but if you see a person not making the same mistakes again, and infact are trying to make amends for their actions and do every possible thing they can to get better, then let them be. nobody is fucking perfect, especially to those who are barely starting adulthood.

BPD culture is easily starting to hate someone i thought i liked only because they raised their voice at me or made a joke that was a little too mean and now i want them dead

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BPD culture is feeling too sad to eat :(

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bpd culture is feeling so mad and upset and angry you wanna throw punches and hit stuff when your fp doesn't respond but feeling insanely guilty when they do and say they were doing something normal

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the 'wow you're so emotionally mature for your age!' to having the I can't regulate my emotions disorder pipeline is real

BPD CULTURE IS wishing that non-bpd people would understand how 90% of what people consider to be "manipulative behavior" from us is literally just.. us expressing emotions. Me expressing how I feel guilty for being so draining and apologizing for how I behave on bad days (ex: ghosting, or meltdowns) is not so I can win your affection or pity, it's literally just so I can explain how I feel in a way that you can understand me better..

It gets so tiring when everytime I try to express my own guilt and shame about my disorder I get accused of "guilt tripping" "manipulating" or "being attention seeking" instead of actually being recognized for how I feel.

Like, c'mon guys.. I'm a person too.. I'm allowed to be sad and feel lonely and feel guilty and I should deserve the same comfort/to be heard as much as someone without BPD 🥲

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