BPD CULTURE IS wishing that non-bpd people would understand how 90% of what people consider to be "manipulative behavior" from us is literally just.. us expressing emotions. Me expressing how I feel guilty for being so draining and apologizing for how I behave on bad days (ex: ghosting, or meltdowns) is not so I can win your affection or pity, it's literally just so I can explain how I feel in a way that you can understand me better..
It gets so tiring when everytime I try to express my own guilt and shame about my disorder I get accused of "guilt tripping" "manipulating" or "being attention seeking" instead of actually being recognized for how I feel.
Like, c'mon guys.. I'm a person too.. I'm allowed to be sad and feel lonely and feel guilty and I should deserve the same comfort/to be heard as much as someone without BPD 🥲
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Bpd culture is shutting yourself down again because you relearned that whenever you speak up for yourself and defend yourself and explain your bpd symptoms everyone always finds a way turn it into you being the asshole so you regress back to being a palatable opinionless doormat because at least your friends didn't wanna leave you then
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BPD culture is snapping over little things and trying to apologize for the way you acted and freaking out again when the person you snapped at doesnt get over it as fast as you do because then you think “they hate me why are they still upset over this theyve never liked me they're still mad they hate me”
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bpd culture is blaming yourself for them leaving, then blaming them, then hating yourself for blaming them because they still mean so much to you, then repeating that cycle all while knowing you'll never having a clear enough head or good enough memory to tell if you were the one being wronged or not
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BPD culture is feeling like all you are is a mirror
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can everyone be nice to me forever
bpd culture is when your fps tone changes alittle from how they usually talk and now you NEED to isolate yourself until they act “normal” to you again
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BPD culture is wanting to know who your fp is talking to and if they're talking about you, and if, god forbid, they are, what they're saying, at all times, because you're so scared they're secretly telling their friends how much they hate you.
And you also want to know when they go out and with who, so you don't have to find out from other people that they went out with mutual friends and didn't invite you, so you can stop feeling like they don't want you around.
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