Dunno Who Needs To Hear This But Sometimes People Don't Want You To Improve They Want To Constantly Make

Bpd culture is having two playlists for whether you love them or hate them

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Bpd culture is living in constant guilt and misery over the fact that some personality disorder you had no control over and didn't ask for will permanently ruin your life and relationships forever. Nothing is more discouraging than knowing that the way I am is literally exactly what people are told to avoid in friends/partners/etc. making me virtually untouchable and most likely forever alone. The isolation really gets to me sometimes and honestly at this point I'd rather be dead than alone and hated by society for a disorder that I never even asked for in the first place.

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BPD culture is feeling too sad to eat :(

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BPD culture is being so worried that someone (esp your fp) doesn’t like you that you get physically sick just thinking of them

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bpd culture is just go ahead and tell me right in the face that i'm annoying. dont act like youre alright talking to me. you probably talk shit about me behind my back, saying that i'm so fucking annoying and humiliating and disgusting.

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final message: i love you people who were "scary" children. i love you people who attacked other people, who hurt animals, who destroyed people's things, on purpose or on accident. i love you people who got labeled "creepy" or "problem child" or "attention-seeking" or "manipulative". i love you people who got kicked out of class or suspended often, who got kicked out of schools, who transferred before you could get kicked, who didn't understand why they got in trouble. i love you students who failed classes, who'd cry in class, who'd sleep through class, who got sent to unhelpful counselors. you weren't at fault for being a struggling child, and i love you if you struggle feeling overwhelmingly guilty for how you acted as a child, and i love you if you dont. i especially love you if you struggle to see yourself as a good person because of whatever you did as a child. i love you people who cant remember what you did, but are told it makes you bad. you are not defined by the actions of your child self, and you are able to choose who to be as you are now. if you have the capacity and interest to make amends, you can, and its also okay to not do that and just leave it all behind. i love you all the same.

this is a very specific thing, but bpd culture is getting upset because of something ur fp did but still craving their attention/their comfort that you just crumble once u finally see that notification

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bpd culture is feeling like your fp hates you because they’re not talking to you bc they said they are busy with stuff irl (but what if they are lying? making up excuses to not talk to me??)

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bpd culture is misreading a text in a way that makes you think your fp hates you and almost giving yourself an anxiety attack at 4 am, but it turns out you just misread it and it's actually nothing serious

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