Gahyeon ♡ Bonvoyage

xseaofrosesx​:

“Yes, that’s what I’m wondering why you’re here after what happened.” He also remained eye contact with him tilting his head slightly wondering if he was plotting anything. “I think maybe you felt something during our little choreography run through. That’s what it is isn’t it??” He questioned just wanting to make sure he’s on the same page as him. He could tell the other was questioning something but he wasn’t sure what. He wondered if he felt something for him.

now that he was face to face with the other male now that there was no one else that could distract them from focusing on the matter at hand. he doesn’t even know what to say to them because he clearly was just as lost if not even much more lost than they were at this very moment because if he were to truly to say to them what was on their mind right now he was unsure of what they’d say to him let alone how they’d even react since as far as their current relationship was with each other it was very much strained they had practically hated each other and saw each other more as competition than as friends if you could even call them that at this point really. and yeah   !   sure they had been friends or at least they were on friendly terms still when they were in school together especially at the start of knowing each other back then but the more   &   more pressure and dread they both felt or at least that was what he was thinking at that time to succeed and make a name for himself outside of his already well known and well connected family with both of his parents equally pushing him to do more   ,   be something much more bigger than they ever were in this world he freely to distance himself from them and over time saw them as an equal but more of a rival if that even made any sense in anyone else’s mind other than his but with them now graduated and working through their way in this world something inside of him that he had for the longest time had been suppressing for reasons that he himself not say out loud even to himself but then again with that moment that had happened between them had somehow someway sparked something inside of him and just like he was on autopilot he’d rushed over after he had gotten himself changed into their trailer unannounced ready maybe   ?   to confess what he had been feeling for the other male all this time gulping down the thick saliva that was already forming within his throat clearing it before he actually began to speak  “   alright   !   but please don’t say this to anyone else.  ”  he said with pleading eyes already battling with himself that he was about to let loose his darkest secret to them he was just hoping that whatever the outcome that it would all turn out all good at the end taking in a deep breath closing both of his eyes very briefly in order to calm himself down mainly before he spoke up again  “   if i were to be honest YES i did.   ”  he added silently praying that their next words or actions for that matter would not be so harsh on him for feeling this way towards them at this time.  

he remained mainly unfaced by their words fully being made aware now that if he was truly unhappy with his end of the bargain he could have easily killed them on the spot even if choose to. but with the lifetime his faced of nothing but blood and violence from even when he was still a kid with his father running his own kind of crime empire that he had now taken over some quite sometime after his father's passing he didn't want to spill anymore innocent blood when he didn't need to which he didn't need have to at this time thinking that there would some other way that he could use the other male any other way really ? other than having to led them like a lamb to slaughter as if it wasn't obviously now at this point that he didn't want to keep the other around with him as they'd be too much a burden to feed and keep alive and with the fact still fresh in his mind that he'd been cheated out of something that was supposed to rightfully his in the first place by their previous owner he could find some sort of use for them somehow even if it meant having to use them for own pleasure which was clearly not yet off of the table at this point of time he just have to wait and see really. all he could was let out a soft sigh in response to their words but still not breaking eye contact with them before he choose to speak again “ i didn't expect this much talk back from my latest pet but that can be easily worked on. ” he said with a slight smirk gracing his features already thinking up of the ways he could easily make his money back with them and then some but it were not to work in the end for him he could always USE him to his heart's desires motioning to the guard within the room with them at this time to pick up the other male and bring him to their new quarters and get them ready for tonight. “ get him out of my sight. ”

"Do you think I want to be here anymore than you want me here?" He doesn't care when the shirt collar is grabbed, his hands at his side. Skipper sighs heavily. "Should have just killed me if you didn't want me, no one's going to look for a dead man anyway." He straightens his shirt once the other lets go. "Though, understood."

no matter how many times they'd fight and argue with one another over the same stupid little things. he would be lying even to himself that no matter volatile their relationship had become over the years they've been together there was something almost inhuman that had been pulling him towards ian , that no matter how many times he'd go over and over in his head that he had to get over the other male and move on with his life no matter how many times he'd tried to focus on himself and his son maybe ? even put all of his remaining energies into running his cafe leaving him in the past finally nothing would work almost as if they were destined to be each other even if when they were still together in the past all they pretty much did was yell at each other at the top of their lungs after one if not both of them triggered an argument between them over the smallest of things and after they'd get tired of that they'd only end up having the angriest hate sex afterwards in order to make up for having their little fight earlier and then they'd just as easily repeat the same VICIOUS cycle over & over day in and day out though they did have their good days together yes ! which for obvious reasons was something that mingyu had missed very dearly showing each other maybe even themselves just why they ended up with each other in the first place even if it was still quite hazy in his mind probably due in part to the alcohol he'd already consumed at the party they were both currently attending he could still remember how they both first meet each other and how they both slowly but surely fell in love with each other , how they gotten to know each other through late night talks while out late at night when their kids had gotten to bed of course walking by han river or even the fact that both of their kids had become so very close with each other through the years they've gotten to know each other and eventually dated one another which was obviously something he really appreciated about ian that despite all of their bad times together they both at the end of the day truly loved each other no doubt about that the only question is that does that fact still hold up even today ? with how palpable their reactions to seeing each other for the first time again after many years apart from one other it was almost as if they had finally found their missing half their missing piece and even if there were still very evident warning signs for them not to get back together there was still no denying that deep down within his heart that he still want ian back in his life again and to pretty much pick up from where they had left off from one another in the past the question is though is that would the other still reciprocate his feelings like this and be willing to continue along with their relationship just like it was in the past or would they reject their advances outright for whatever other reason they may have as no matter how much he loved the other male there was still no inkling on if they still felt the same way as he did with them.

though the very though still linger at the back of his mind though was if they did for whatever miracle he could pray for would they end up the same way they were in the past. as from looking at them during the present day they hadn't really changed that much maybe ? this was probably the alcohol talking here but in his eyes he did get more handsome as time passed but as if snapping back into reality shaking his head he responded “ oh ! i'm sorry but i'm doing good as well i've just been busy with my cafe and haven't really gotten time to go out like this unlike today of course. ” he said let out a soft chuckle in response as he leaned in for their kiss onto his cheek wishing that it wasn't so bittersweet as he'd already longed for their arms to be wrapped around him like it had been in the past though he was just as happy to be around them again like this he just wished that they were to meet again not under such awkward circumstances though he can only dream of that at this point really. “ well i'm really glad to see you again ian. ” he added words lingering as he tried to mask behind them what his heart really wanted to say to the other male how he truly felt about them , how he'd longed to be with them again and be in their embrace like they had in the past he just hoped though there was something between them before it was too late of course.

𖹭 𝅄 . ׁ ˳ he    would    be    a    hypocrite    if    he    claimed    ignorance    about    the    reasons    behind    the    inevitable    end    of    their    relationship    .    he    couldn't    escape    the    awareness    that    everything    had    grown    suffocating    and    overwhelming    between    them    .    the    constant    bickering    and    heated    arguments    had    painted    their    love    in    shades    of    conflict    .    yet    ,    as    much    as    it    no    longer    felt    right    ,    he    found    it    excruciatingly    challenging    to    walk    away    .    everything    connected    to    mingyu    held    an    addictive    allure    that    defied    reason    .    breaking    up    had    become    a    difficult    task    because    he    had    grown    accustomed    to    mingyu's    presence    .    despite    the    fights    ,    mingyu    had    always    been    his    refuge    ,    until    that    one    fateful    day    when    everything    changed    ,    and    as    if    by    some    mystical    force    ,    they    became    strangers    ,    fading    from    each    other's    lives    .     he    had    tried    to    move    on    ,    but    mia    made    it    nearly    impossible    with    her    persistent    inquiries    about    mingyu    .    the    little    girl    seemed    oblivious    to    the    complexity    of    their    split    .    deep    down    ,    he    recognized    that    he    could    never    truly    erase    mingyu    from    his    heart    ,    and    seeing    him    at    the    party    only    confirmed    this    painful    truth    . ian    ,    although    slightly    taken    aback    by    the    unexpected    reunion    ,    finds    himself    drawn    to    his    ex lover    and    steps    closer    .    perhaps    it    was    the    effect    of    the    alcohol    coursing    through    his    veins    that    emboldened    him    ,    or    maybe    it    was    a    surge    of    long buried    emotions    .    he    couldn't    say    for    sure    ,    but    there    he    was    ,    making    his    way    toward    mingyu    ,    the    echo    of    his    heartbeat    filling    his    ears    .    “ hey    , ”    he    utters    ,    his    hand    landing    on    mingyu's    shoulder    as    he    leans    in    to    plant    an    almost    involuntary    kiss    on    his    cheek    .    ian    doesn’t    care    if    he’s    being    imprudent    ,    he’s    never    done    .    the    scent    of    mingyu's    perfume    lingers    in    the    air    as    he    pulls    back    ,    finally    meeting    mingyu's    gaze    . he    hasn’t    changed    much    ,    or    at    least    not    significantly    ,    he    thinks    .    perhaps    his    hair    is    a    bit    longer ?    ian    isn’t    sure    ,    but    mingyu    still    possesses    that    timeless    beauty    that    captivated    him    .    “ i'm    good    . ”    he    replies    ,    his    eyes    never    leaving    mingyu's    face    .    there’s    a    subtle    clenching    of    his    jaw    ,    a    sign    that    beneath    the    veneer    of    civility    ,    emotions    still    simmer    .    “ i    never    thought    i'd    see    you    again    either    .    i    haven't    seen    you    at    any    of    the    other    parties    so . . .    i    thought    you'd    moved    to    another    city    or    something    . ”    he    admits    .    “ how    about    you ? ”    he    asks    ,    his    head    tilted    slightly    to    the    side    .    “ how    . . . how have    you    been ? ”

how can you not say prince?

╰    @fairyridden

from the outside looking in he had perfect life from being loved and adored by his wealthy parents that constantly gave him whatever he wanted in life. to practically ruling over the school being allowed to do whatever he wanted without any sort of adult supervision pretty much he'd always gotten bored after his played enough with it only to disregard it into the trash after he was done , wanting to move on to newer and brighter things that would eventually over time become a pattern he began to develop with the people he ' dated ' quickly moving on the next person and getting what he wants out of them and then just as quickly dumping then for someone else ultimately dumping them without a word and breaking their heart in the process and once he'd set his eyes on the new girl in town he had already began to become intrigue with them looking so innocent and most importantly in his eyes to please anyone and everyone around them which had only made him want her more so with the latter words in mind he had decided to make her fall madly in love with him and then without a single word let alone on a reason why ? dump her breaking her heart into a million pieces before that though he could have his fun with this one as he had already fully expected for her to fall his wicked charms and wanting to become his that's when he enact his plans for her , to lead her down the dark path and corrupt her chancing upon her in the hallway after class he already had his eyes on her corning her by their locker leaning up against the nearby wall pretty much trapping them in “ hey ! you must be the new girl around here i'm woody it's a pleasure finally meeting you. ” he said words already clearly dripping with VENOM and utter malice.

“ well if you hadn't been ignoring me this past week i wouldn't have to resort to such extremes now would i ? ”

start running kiha coming thru @lovedevcured

❛ you fell straight into my arms. you know, if you wanted my attention you didn't have to go to such extremes. ❜

hozier lyrics, hozier (expanded edition)

❛  i should've worshipped them sooner. ❜

❛  we were born sick. ❜

❛  the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you. ❜

❛  i'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies. ❜

❛  good god, let me give you my life. ❜

❛  there is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin. ❜

❛  it's toying somewhere between love and abuse. ❜

❛  no more alone or myself i could be. ❜

❛  [i/you] lurched like a stray to the arms that were open. ❜

❛  i lay my heart down with the rest at [your/their] feet. ❜

❛  i wonder if it's better now having survived. ❜

❛  i'm so tired trying to see from behind the red in my eyes. ❜

❛  no better version of me i could pretend to be tonight. ❜

❛  [they/you] found me just in time. ❜

❛  cause with my mid-youth crisis all said and done, i need to be youthfully felt cause i never felt young. ❜

❛  it'd be great to find a place we could escape sometimes. ❜

❛  we tried the world and it wasn't for us. ❜

❛  you knew who i was with every step that i ran to you. ❜

❛  would things be easier if there was a right way? ❜

❛  honey, there is no right way. ❜

❛  i fall in love just a little bit every day with someone new. ❜

❛  there's an art to life's distractions. ❜

❛  love with every stranger, the stranger the better. ❜

❛  all i've ever done is hide. ❜

❛  when you kill the lights and kiss my eyes, i feel ike a person for a moment of my life. ❜

❛  but you don't know what the hell you put me through. ❜

❛  it feels good to be alone with you. ❜

❛  there are questions i can't ask. ❜

❛  now, at last, the worst is over. ❜

❛  i know that you hate this place. ❜

❛  there's something tragic about you, something so magic about you, don't you agree? ❜

❛  there's something lonesome about you, something so wholesome about you. ❜

❛  innocence died screaming. ask me, i should know. ❜

❛  there's something broken about this but i might be hoping about this. ❜

❛  we'll lay here for years or for hours, your hand in my hand. so still and discreet. ❜

❛  i'd be home with you. ❜

❛  any way to distract and sedate. ❜

❛  i'm somewhere outside my life. i keep scratching but somehow i can't get in. ❜

❛  don't you stand there watching me, won't you? ❜

❛  don't you join in, you're supposed to drag me away from it. ❜

❛  i'm so full of love, i could barely eat. ❜

❛  [they/you] are sweet as can be. [they/you] give me toothaches just from kissing me. ❜

❛  no grave can hold my body down, i'll crawl home to [them/you]. ❜

❛  you never asked me once about the wrong i did. ❜

❛  [you/they] would never fret none about what my hands and my body done. ❜

❛  if the lord don't forgive me, i'd still have you and you would have me. ❜

❛  why were you digging? what did you bury? ❜

❛  i will not ask you where you came from. i will not ask and neither should you. ❜

❛  just put your sweet lips on my lips. we should just kiss like real people do. ❜

❛  i know that look, eyes always seeking. ❜

❛  i will not ask you why you were creeping. in some sad way, i already know. ❜

❛  you know better than to smile at me like that. ❜

❛  i know who i am when i'm alone. ❜

❛  you don't understand. you should never know how easy you are to need. ❜

❛  don't let me in with no intention to keep me. ❜

❛  it can't be unlearned. i've known the warmth of your doorways. ❜

❛  i'll find my way back to you. ❜

❛  my heart is heavy with the hate of some other man's beliefs. ❜

❛  screaming the name of a foreigner's good is the purest expression of grief. ❜

❛  i feel no control of my body. i feel no safety in [your/their] arms. ❜

❛  all that i've been taught and every word i've got is foreign to me. ❜

❛  it looks ugly but it's clean. ❜

❛  your fight and fury is fiery. ❜

❛  it's worth it, it's divine. i have this some of the time. ❜

❛  you called my name til the fever broke. ❜

❛  i heard a scream in the woods somewhere. ❜

❛  i turned and ran to save a life i didn't have. ❜

❛  i need you to run to me. run to me! ❜

❛  when i was a child, i heard voices. some would sing and some would scream. ❜

❛  don't you ever tame your demons but always keep them on a leash. ❜

❛  you've done me wrong for a long, long time. ❜

❛  after all you've done, i never changed my mind. ❜

❛  please, try to love me. ❜

❛  my love will never die. ❜

more threads for my female & nb muses pls ? *pleading*

xseaofrosesx​:

Minjun nodded as he understood. “Don’t cry.. I promise to go as slow as you need me to go.” He reached out carefully wiping away his tears. He held Youngnam close to his chest letting him cry into his arms. He rubbed his back tracing small circles on his back trying his best to soothe him. He hummed softly and looked down at him. “Can I do anything for you to make you feel better??” He asked him not wanting him to feel guilty or scared. 

he just felt so very helpless in this situation often priding in himself that he would always have plan to get out of any sticky situation. but with what was happening now between the both of them was entirely unplanned as he obviously no intention in telling the older male just how truly felt about them and that he really wanted to take their relationship if you could even call it that at this point really to the next level thinking that now was not the right time for him to tell them as he was much too scared to face what they’d say about his sudden confession or how they would react to it as the last thing he wanted was for them to outright reject them or even worse comes to worse leave them because of this but yes   !   he still did have the plan to tell them about this when they were both ready enough in their relationship to go through it but now that after just one intense drunken night out together here he was crying his eyes out having already confessed how he truly felt about his bestfriend and though they had confessed in return that they had felt the same way about him and wanted to given being boyfriends of one another a try opting in to take things as slow as he needed it to be  ───  he just felt so much shame for forcing the other male into this situation without their prior consent as he had just practically dragged them into this mess on this lazy sunday afternoon where they should be just laying around nursing away their hangovers from the night prior here they both were coming to terms with the reality of what their relationship would and should be though he was still grateful towards minjun for being so warm   &   patient with him and despite everything they’ve both already gone through just today he had promised to be with youngnam through thick and thin no matter what at this point clinging on more tightly to the older male wanting to savor in their warmth as he slowly began to wipe away his remaining tears from his face before turning back towards them with a small smile already creeping onto his lips  “   thank you so very much minjun for understanding.   ”  he said planting a gentle little kiss onto their cheek  “   i’m just so sorry for being a crybaby today but maybe i can make it to you for all of the mess i’ve created today how about we have a movie night in and i can whip up some sort of feast for you how does that sound   ?   ”  he added letting out a cute little giggle in response brushing one of his free hands onto their cheek.      

╰    @levantcrs

just by looking at the both of them you'd never think that they would end up in the same circles let alone falling madly in love with one another. but despite all of the differences in terms of they lived their lives here they were desperately wanting to shout their love from the rooftops for all of seoul to see and have that oh ! so simple luxury of stepping out in public holding hands without being harassed by both the media and fans alike there was no way that would ever happened especially given how her powerful family would NEVER accept someone as lowly as an idol into their own family and nor would his overtly loyal fanbase would allow him to date anyone that wouldn't be them they both still made their ways in order to make time for each other throughout their very busy schedules having to sneak out at very late into the night and meet by the convenience store just down the road from each other from all the way to keeping secret phones away from the prying eyes of parents and managers where they'd label each other under not so obvious names in order to prevent anyone from finding out their relationship and blasting out to the media for a little bit of clout here & there. regardless of all of the secrecy they had endure for their relationship they were both still very happy with each other and were very much in love with each other and though they didn't have it ideal they wouldn't change a single time within their relationship for the world as long as they still had each other to lean on and it was on one cold slightly rainy night after a long day of going through with their schedules that they really wanted to see each other again as they'd clearly missed the warmth of their embrace on such a cold night sending over a quick text to her as all of the other members in his group had fallen asleep along with their manager most importantly his face already began to light up as his phone screen began to light up with their reply agreeing to meet up for a quick late night dinner outside getting changed and outside quietly he made his way to their usual spot , having already bought the food prior setting up on the a vacant park bench waiting for them to arrive breaking out into a huge smile as soon as he saw them standing up and stretching his arms out wide for them. “ oh ! there you finally are come here babe i missed you so very much. ” he said planting a gentle kiss onto their forehead.