I Actually Hate How My Aunts Talk About Autism Not Because I Think They Are Wrong In Any Way But Just

Me and bestie did so many new things over the weekend. We even HUGGED

@grey-loves-dragons

I HAVE GROWING PAINS BUT IM NOT FUCKING GROWING

This is a scam

Testosterone really said: you are expecting acne and pimples on your face, well, how about no! You get a pimple on your thigh and nothing else!!!

Mom and dad aren’t home, you know what that means???

Outside kitten in the house!!

I want someone to write a fanfiction about any two characters in any price of media but I want them to make it as a gay nsfw fix but then you read it and the gay is aroace and the nsfw is swearing

WHY CANT I GET MORE FISH!?!?!?!

I’m not as far on the ace spectrum as I thought I was…

I need someone to kiss me but I swear to god the thought of someone kissing me makes me feel sick.

Like, what?

How do I need to be kissed but also the thought repulses me

I need to kiss someone but also magically make it so I can’t be kissed back but not in a rejection way

I need someone to kiss me but without the kiss

Like wtf does my brain want right now?

Am I going insane?

Is this a neurodivergent thing? An aromantic thing? An ace spectrum thing?

WTF IS THIS?!?!?!?

What’s a qpr, you ask?

Idk

Aren’t you in a qpr, you ask?

Yes, I still don’t know…

(@grey-loves-dragons)

I am so tired of being jealous of my friends. I shouldn’t be. I’m happy they are getting the help that they need but what can’t it be me? Why won’t my mom believe me! Why won’t she book me an appointment to figure out my joints instead of just saying it my diet? Why won’t she book an appointment to figure out what’s going on with how tired I feel all the time but can’t ever sleep instead of just saying it depression? Why can’t she accommodate my needs? Why won’t she buy me the supports I need? Why won’t she buy me my comfort food? Why won’t she support my accommodations? Why won’t she care about me?

All my friends have loving parents. One of my friends mom takes them to all the appointments that they need to get the help they need. But my mom won’t even make an effort to call an online therapist so I don’t have to struggle with no support and my old therapist was not working for me. My friends mom will support how they need to live to have a good life and my mom won’t even let me eat the food I like and know I like without getting on my ass. My friends mom takes care of them and mine doesn’t and it feels horrible.

And that’s just the stuff with my physical health and neurodivergency. She also ignores my anxiety unless she uses it to justify something else. It hurts so bad to see your best friend have a wonderful mother who supports them and helps them get the supports they need and the best my mom will do is get me on testosterone then saying that if I have an attitude she’ll take me off it.

She does that with so many things. If I have an attitude or get mad or have normal human emotions she threatens to take away my restorative or take away my ability to see my friend.

She once booked an appointment with my doctor just for the doctor to say “yeah, that’s normal human emotions”. But when I tell her that I am struggling to be a human in a productive way because I think I have autism after hours and hours of reaserch she says that the waiting list is too long. It stead of making that call when I’m still a minor she is making me do it once I am an adult. I have to do it for myself with no support from my mom.

And I live my dad but he also doesn’t stand up for me. How am I supposed to get through this shit with parents who blame my constant pain on diet and won’t book appointments I need.

I’m so tired of being put in a bad mood when my best friend talks about their mental health and neurodivergency. It’s not FUCKING fair!

I would like to introduce everyone to…

PCPVFBI

This is my playlist that is organized PERFECTLY

It is designed for me to be able to add songs to it at any time with ease and still have the flow of a great playlist as well as be organized by genre.

How did I do it?

I started by making a list of ALL the song I enjoy listening to. Then I went ahead and labeled each of these songs with their genre. I then made a list of all the genres I had and put them in a way that makes the most sense.

Then I just entered all my songs. On Spotify you can press the three dots then edit and changed the order of your songs. Once all my songs are organized by genre, I organize them by artist, then in order to not have a block of one artist, I split up the artists music with music of the next artist (psa: when you are putting artists in I put them so that the more like the previous category they are, the closer to the top, same with the next category so that the most of the genre I’m in is in the middle).

Then you just need to listen to the playlist and make sure it sounds amazing.

My list for genres is

Rap

Indie

Indie rock

Folk rock

Country/folk

Pop

Show tunes

Fun

Other