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I knew i had to leave you

When sitting by your side

Began to feel painful

Instead of like home

The rising storm

And the tumultuous sea

Of gray and green

Cannot be mightier

Than our love

And the sun

I am stronger than

My demons

And bigger than

My faults

So why do i let them control me

As if i am nothing at all

Freedom.

I have dreamed of the word

But have always been uncertain

Of its meaning

Is it choice,

Or ability?

Or is it something in between?

I ask for freedom

But wonder

Which side of the bars

I see

You fell in love

With my black cherry lips

Without the knowledge 

Of the pit within

It's 2:31 AM, my dear

And i am still awake

Thinking of our reckless words

On another restless night

Seeing you in every place

In the shadows of my room;

Your face

Smiling at me

Chasing away sleep

Like a childish game,

Of wolves and sheep.

I know it hurts right now, love

But believe me when i say

That the cold that you are feeling

Will one day go away

And maybe it will come again

But this time you will feel

Like welcoming it instead

And that is when you'll heal

Dont you think I've hurt enough?

My chest is pieces

My heart is numb

Razor sharp words

Shred my skin

Daggers of emotions

Carve my soul

You did this!

Yet you scream at me

For being broken

And mangled

As if it were my fault

For loving

In the first place

I tremble in the cold

Of December

Yet the warmth

In my heart

Lights up my soul

Like the strands of beauty

On the tree

Armed only with paper

And pensive looks

Ink in my veins

Blood in my books

Tears staining a blank page

I do not live to write

Instead I find the opposite

When inspiration strikes

Let me stain your face

With kisses

And your heart with my love

So that my color

Will blend with yours

To become a painted sky

And in that moment

I finally understood

What it meant to feel

Breathless

When will my heart

Be as full of love

As my mind is full

Of worries?

You defy all meaning

All logic

All truth

You are like a blizzard

In the desert

Or an earthquake

In the sky

Impossible,

Yet happening

Right before my eyes

October Rain

I slam the screen door

And listen to the sound

Of the raindrops falling

On the tin roof.

The crisp air

Sends me chills

But the cider

Warms my heart

Oh how i miss

With all my soul

The sweet sound

Of October rain

Being with you

I felt human agin

But in that moment

There was foreign blood

Pumping in my veins

So I scream out

Feeling raw inside

“I deserve to be loved!”

And listen for the echo

To return from the empty 

So it can remind me

That I am

Alone

You are the poem

That I dream to write

But fail to grasp

Each time

I stole your name

From the gusts of wind

And wondered

If it was destiny?

I heard the whispers of gold

That rode on the breath of dawn

They were quiet

With their tickling breath

As i was sobered by the sun

I inhale lemon.

A sweet breath

That ushers in my sleep,

So then i waver

Into a state

Filled with nothing

Except the scent

Of tangerine dreams.

Denouement

The untying of knots

Resolving the loose ends

Or cutting them off

I Swallowed a Star

I watched the stars

Then i consumed their light

One by one

A darkened sky

Then little by little

Their light consumed me

In return.

I lost my phone

I lost my keys

I ponder if it would be easier

To hide where nobody

Could find me

Too?

these words are my burden

my suffering

my tears

these words are my heartbreak

and the pain of all my years

these poems are my hardships

my brokeness

my pain

these poems are what I write

to make it go away

I didn't want to be in love

You caught me by surprise

But I'm a coward, so in fear

I smothered you with lies

If you were hurt

By the words that i said

You never stood a chance

To the ones in my head

Im on top of the world

But i am all alone.

So i wonder

If a life with you

Would have been worth

Losing it all?

There was so much more

That i should have said

So i look at the sky

And scream to the stars

The words that would've

Made you stay

Am i a glass half emtpy

Or am i nearly full?

Or am i somehow

A shattered glass

Never to be filled at all

Does the silence

Want to scream

So it knows that it

Still can?