I Knew I Had To Leave You

The words rattle

In my mind

Like chains

But somehow

They are

Freeing.

They sing a

Silent song

To me

Like whispers in

The autumn

And they are

More beautiful

Than the words

Could ever say

Living in the Empty

How can i feel like empty space?

A dark abyss

Infinite in its shallows

And also in its depths

I am swimming forever

Drowning in an eternal loop

Only to awake once more

In the neverending shadows

I am being swallowed

Trapped, consumed, then freed

Alone in this infinity

With only darkness to breathe.

Thoughts on Love #17

Love.

The word is full of expectations. You think there will be joy and comfort in love, you think there will be safety and confidence. However, the truth is that love defies expectations.

It shatters what we think we know and enhances truth in our lives. The truth about love is that love is truth, and that is something that is untaintable.

Mauve toned lipgloss is all I need

To feel pretty.

But I can't recall when I began to wish for such things

For the stranger's heads to turn

For the too-long glances in the grocery store aisle

For them to dream of me in a new way.

I never cared before but now-

Now their attention is the only way

I feel beautiful anymore.

When I apply it to my lips and blend them with a POP!

I still don't know if I look beautiful for them

Or for me.

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Day 2/14

You can only know

The phoenix

From the ash

It leaves behind

I lost my phone

I lost my keys

I ponder if it would be easier

To hide where nobody

Could find me

Too?

Tonight lets dance

Like daffodils

In a hurricane

Beautiful, flying

Braving the gusts

Of wind

That threaten to tear us

Apart

I'm a melancholic alcoholic

With a tendency for feeling nauseous

Too much love, too much drink

Provides a space for me to think

But my thoughts flee my mind

As quick as they had come

And I am left alone

With my heart feeling numb

All you need is the plan, the road map, and the courage to press on to your destination.

Earl Nightingale

Thoughts on Love #4

Your love gives me wings, but I am your rock. I know that if I fly too high, you will be alone on the ground. I deny the blissful sky, to stay with you on the earth in passionate contentment.