I Am Stronger Than

I miss the person I was when I wrote poetry. I looked at the world like a love letter addressed to me from something greater, and lately I need that kind of hope in my life.

I will write one poem a day for two weeks in hopes to build a habit and rediscover my spark!

There was so much more

That i should have said

So i look at the sky

And scream to the stars

The words that would've

Made you stay

You are the poem

That I dream to write

But fail to grasp

Each time

Do you ever think

That if they could see us now

They would be ashamed

Of what we’ve become?

The screen on the back porch tore last night

When the weather was so bad

My apathetic cat curled up beside me to ride out the storm.

You hated that cat but I called it mine

Long before I was yours.

We built the screen together "like a real couple"

The only project I ever talked you into.

I dreamed that we would sip our coffee in the morning air

Watching sunrise together, the two of us

With the cat purring in my lap.

We never used it once and you called it useless

And I didn't see the point in going out

If we didn't do it together.

But now the screen is ripped, the metal prongs pointed angrily at your chair.

It ripped

And you aren't here to fix it.

Staring here at the hole, sipping my coffee alone with that damn cat pawing at the mosquito that's breached containment

and I can't help but wish it all meant something

In the end.

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Day 4/14

Someday I'll stop waiting

For a love thats come and gone

I know that it wont get here

But I hope to God I'm wrong

In the darkest light

Of morning

I see the outline of your face

An illusion

That I trace

With cold fingers

Which long to be warmed

By you

God in his wisdom made the fly And then forgot to tell us why.

Ogden Nash’s Zoo

Im a bit too prideful to admit

That im afraid to say im wrong

But you already knew that, babe

And you have for far too long

Stars are what I reached for

The ground is what I hit

Life continues to beat me down

Like I don't deserve to live

One day I will die, I know

Till then it's misery

So let's cut out the middleman

And all just cease to be