Latest Posts by crayonboy - Page 8

don't romanticize

Bulimia isn't a long haired pretty girl bending over a toilet with a tragically beautiful face on. It's a puffed miserable face with vomit dripping from its chin and a fucking nose bleed. Anorexia isn't a slim figure shyly refusing a cupcake. It's hair growing all over your freezing malnourished body. Depression isn't a model with running muscara staring into the sunset. It's staring at the ceiling at 4 in the morning with burning eyes because you can't even find the motivation to close them. Self harm isn't lovely boys kissing your arms and telling you that you're still beautiful. It's nasty scars that will be there forever and showers that sting. Panics attacks are not burying your face into your lover's chest and having them to tell you that everything will be okay.It's feeling out of control and like oxygen has suddenly been taken from you. *Mental illnesses aren't beautiful* They don't make you special and don't make people suddenly care about you.

They are monsters that destroys life.

So stop taking them lightly and promoting them to impressionable teenagers on the goddamn Internet.

🌼Goals to reach -for me- to be perfect: (To reach before school starts)

Of course reach my goal weight :(which is 43 kg/95 lbs or less)

Have a consistent skincare and nice skin for once (I've always had acne and skin problems)

Have nice nails (better if a bit longer)

Learn at least a new language, two would be awesome but one is okay too

Cut my hair and dye it (It's important that I take care of it and buy masks and treatments)

Have a new piercing!

Buy new clothes

Get better at dancing ughh

Tidy my room and KEEP it that way

Exercise with math since I almost failed class this year (next year I want to have really high grades)

Be nicer and meet new people, that would be awesome since right now I've had a lot of issues with my friends and lost them I guess

Work on projects!!!

Be happy, please

Might add something new~ And if you relate you can add yours too! I really like to see people goals🌼

some of the favs pt. 2💕

comment your safe low calorie foods

Violence moodboard

Cute Things the Signs Do

Aries: They get excited about something and then start talking faster and faster until they can hardly keep up with themself

Taurus: They use a ‘baby voice’ whenever they talk to their pets (some would do this in front of the president, and others would take the secret to their grave)

Gemini: Anticipates cliché pickup lines before they’re said but still flattered by them

Cancer: Laughs at their own jokes

Leo: Scared of the tiniest bugs

Virgo: Is sad when the sushi isn’t round

Libra: Ticklish asf

Scorpio: Still likes foods like chicken nuggets, goldfish crackers, and fruit roll-ups made for children

Sagittarius: They absolutely melt if/when you play with their hair

Capricorn: Won’t look you in the eye after they’ve rejected you for anything because they can’t stand to see you sad

Aquarius: They claim to hate being fawned over but actually enjoy it

Pisces: Would sacrifice themself to save the polar bears

these are some reasons why your weight might have spiked up overnight:

✔ you upped your sodium intake so now your body is holding onto water ✔ you ate more carbs than usual so now they are acting like sponges and holding onto water ✔ you exercised (especially strength training with weights) and now your muscles are repairing themselves to grow by holding onto more nutrients  ✔ you ate later than usual the night before so the stomach is still digesting the food ✔ you weighted yourself earlier than usual so the stomach had less time to digest food ✔ you haven’t pooped yet ✔ your body is stressed (for example by eating too few calories) and so it’s holding onto water as a defense mechanism

these are not:

✖ you went over your limit by a few hundreds kcal ✖ you ate carbs/fats/fear foods ✖ you are a failure ✖ your ed/obsession/coping mechanism is not real or valid give it another day or two and everything will be back to normal. 

take a deep breath. 

everything is fine. 

i promise. and if you are still not convinced there are so many people out here myself included that can reassure you again and again about it.

23 calorie chocolate shake✨ (large)

ingredients:

• 1.5 cups water (0)

• 1/4 cup unsweetened almond milk (7.5)

• 1 tbs cocoa powder (10)

• 2 tbs stevia (0)

• 1/4 tsp liquid stevia (0)

• 1/2 tsp cornstarch (5)

• 5-7 ice cubes (0)

how to make:

• put everything in a blender and blend until everything is smooth and combined

this shake is so good if you want something sweet for low cals🥺 the actual calorie count is 22.5 for the whole serving but I just round it up to 23. It’s very sweet so if that isn’t your thing I’d suggest just adding 1 tbs of stevia instead of 2 (any 0 cal sweeter will work) you can also take out the cornstarch if you want, it’s supposed to help thicken the recipe up a bit since it’s so water based but honestly there’s not much difference w/ out it plus you save 5 cals so 🤷🏽‍♀️it’s also very filling so if you need something to hold you over until you eat again this should do the trick

PUMPKIN CHEESECAKE DESSERT RECIPE 102.5 CALS

1/2 box sugar free cheesecake pudding mix (50)

1 cup unsweetened almond milk (30)

61g pumpkin (22.5)

Make the pudding according to instructions on box 10 minutes ahead of time.

Put pumpkin in a mug, add 2 packets of stevia or sugar free sweetener, cinnamon or pumpkin pie spice to taste, and 0 calorie spray butter to taste. Microwave for 45 seconds. Take out and mix.

Let cool, add pudding on top of pumpkin. I’m a fatass so I had 2 servings of this but at 200 cals, I’m not feeling too awful about it lmaoooo. Berries or fat free cool whip on top is also nice, and you can eat it layered like that or mix it together! It’s all delicious and SUGAR FREE

100 calorie egg drop soup!

You will need:

1 egg (75 cal)

1 cup of chicken broth (10 cal)*

1 tsp of cornstarch (15 cal)

1/4 tsp powdered ginger (0 cal)

salt to taste

pepper to taste

optional (but HIGHLY recommended): 1/2 tsp sesame oil (25 cal) (total recipe 125)

Instructions:

Whisk the egg and set aside. In a small pot, stir together broth, cornstarch, and ginger BEFORE TURNING ON THE HEAT! Make sure they are thoroughly combined. It will look cloudy, but that’s okay.

Bring the mixture to a light boil. While boiling, stir the mixture clockwise to form a whirlpool. Slowly poor the whisked egg into the swirling broth while continuing to stir. This is what makes the cool egg ribbons! Stir and let cook for around 30 seconds to a minute. Remove from heat and add sesame oil (if using), along with salt and pepper.

*i’m a vegetarian so I used vegetable broth, which worked perfectly fine!

Figured I would share my favorite quick and easy safe food:

Microwave egg white omelettes!

All you gotta do is crack two egg whites in a mug

Add whatever veggies you want

And microwave for around 90 seconds or until done!

I love this. It’s so good and is only around 35 calories! Such a great staple for breakfast

Please brain, just let me sleep...

Please brain, just let me sleep...

ROMEO + JULIET (1996) dir. Baz Luhrmann

Orange and pink stim board!

Stim credit - 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9

i completely changed the way i present myself in regards to my name and my pronouns and i guess it’s bc i don’t like who i am

sometimes i feel like a different person like different people all at once even or just one after the other my personality is always the same but i feel different sometimes i feel feminine and cheery other times i feel more masculine and low key sometimes i feel like nothing like an entity like i’m not really here i don’t know what i am

i’m not sure who i should be which one of me is actually me? who am i?

I’m depressed, and I feel the need to apologise for that. I get it, I lay in bed all day and do nothing with my life. So sorry, I know you expect more from me. I’m sorry I’m disappointing you by doing nothing with my life. I’m sorry I haven’t gotten a better job, that I’m refusing to go school, or to have a life of my own. It’s just every god damn breath I take to do anything is just drowning me alive. I wish you would understand me when I speak, but it’s like gibberish to you.

I felt that

Definitely not the first person to do this but I loved the original so much I just had to take a crack at it. This is William's 30 year purgatory.

COME HERE GIRL~

GO TO THE BACK~

VIP

DRINKS ON ME

LET ME SEE WHATCHA TWERKING WITH

LOOK AT THOSE HIPS

YOU MAKE ME SMILE

COME HERE CHILD~

Sunset eyeshadow look 🌅💜🧡💛

I used so many different eyeshadows for this look! I tend to do that often when creating colorful/bright looks..lol.

I really  had lots of fun drawing the fnaf again .

🌙 Questions to ask yourself before you eat it 💫

☄️ Am I going to be happy with myself if I eat this?

☄️ Am I really hungry? Or am I bored?

☄️ Did I plan on eating this food today?

☄️ Will this food nourish my body in a healthy way?

☄️ Will eating this food break my rules?

☄️ Will I have another opportunity to eat the same food another day?

🌟I make sure I ask myself these questions everytime before I eat and if I get one wrong answer I decide not to eat it. This has helped me stop binge eating because it makes me aware of what I’m actually doing. 🌟

Stay safe lovely’s 🤍

Low Budget Agere Haul~💗💕🎀😋

I know some of you age regressors are young, and maybe don’t have a job, or maybe your short on cash (like me), but don’t fear! All of what you see here cost me $11.37 USD!! The stickers, coloring book, and hairties all came from dollar tree. The little plates and silverwear came target! The trays cost $0.99!! And the bowls 0.59!! The spoons and such (all of them) cost me $3.00.

So, if you’re short on cash, or maybe need to save up, you still have great options for little items! Have fun guys!

Fighting Consumerism in Magic

aka, little things to distance your craft from capitalism

Let’s all just admit that buying stuff is fun. That said, there’s a big issue of consumerism within the witchy/pagan scene. As magic work and the pagan “aesthetic” becomes more of a commodity in the mainstream, there’s a mounting attitude of needing All The Items in the highest quality (even if we’re not certain we’ll use them,) and big corporations mass-producing cheap stuff to make a buck off of a growing trend. Here’s some things you can do to help detach your practice from that and support other people in the craft:

Go outside. Check your backyard or local park for local plant life, waters, roots, etc. If your work involves things from nature at all, you can probably find a lot of your supplies… in nature. It takes a little more time, but it’s free and then you’ve gathered stuff yourself! 

Make stuff. This one is pretty straightforward. There may be key items to your practice that you can make yourself instead of buying it! That said, I know sometimes spending money is inevitable so I won’t dwell too much on this… let’s talk more about shopping:

Shop mindfully. The price of a lot of items will skyrocket once it has a pentacle or other symbol engraved on it. For example, little mortars and pestles can be very pricey in witchy shops, but you could probably get a bigger one that’s actually food safe for less at a nice grocery store. Antique stores and international markets are now your new best friends.

Support small businesses! Things are cheaper on Amazon, but the extra money goes to support real people, likely other practitioners. If you can, supporting small, local, independent shopkeepers and crafters does a ton of good. It also helps build and sustain a local community. 

Shop based on need. Don’t get something “just in case” (unless it’s banishing or hex breaking stuff; those are decent to have on hand.) It’s tempting to impulse-buy a ton of niche items and ingredients, but unless you have a reasonable idea what you’re going to use them for in the near future, it’ll probably just create clutter for you to deal with later.

Prioritize effectiveness over aesthetic. Ultimately your practice has to work for you, not just look good. I think making your work aesthetically pleasing to yourself can be an important part of really connecting with what you’re doing, but don’t make that desire burn a hole in your wallet and distract you from what brought you to this path in the first place. Altar envy is a real thing. 

Recycle/Upcycle. Use old clothing fabric for an altar cloth. That old trinket dish makes a great offering dish. Enchant jewelry you already own. That jar of strawberry jelly you just finished off will work just fine for that spell. Things can be re-purposed and made into new things.

Analyze your offerings. Special occasion wine isn’t a special occasion if you do it every time. Not every offering needs to be a grand gesture, regular maintenance is more important generally.

Organize trades. Have any pals that also practice? See if you can help each other! You could trade different goods (that old mini cauldron you bought and never used for that abandoned tarot deck, maybe?) but also services. A protection spell for a luck charm. A reading for a reading. You help them with the laundry and they cook you a meal one day. 

As always, the goal is to foster a local community of individuals doing honest work, and shedding the consumerist mindset society taught us to make us spend more money. Take up the idea that you can do magic completely on your own with what you already around you, and if you do want to spend money, see if you can do it in a way that helps the world a tiny bit.  :) 

The Faerie Aesthetic

soft dresses in earthy tones, perhaps slightly worn at the edges

little scratches and cuts below your knees from thistles and brambles

hair loose and uninhibited, tousled slightly by the wind

hopping across stones over babbling brooks

running barefoot through grass and woodland

collecting wildflowers in a little straw basket

quietly humming and singing nonsensical rhymes

making daisy chains

rosy cheeks, pink lips and big eyes

flowers in hair and ribbons around wrists and ankles

laughing childishly, unprovoked and unrestrained

making small jam sandwiches cut into triangles, and eating them in picnics in the woods

dancing freely, twirling and laughing and stumbling without thought

secrets and mischief 

Skin Care Don’ts 🙅

Please don’t put lemon (or any citrus fruit) juice on your face! 🍋Lemon juice increases photosensitivity and can lead to chemical burns. There are safer alternatives, such as regulated AHAs for exfoliation or vitamin c serums for brightening.

BAKING SODA IS BAD FOR THE SKIN. I’m sorry, but it’s a fact. Your skin is acidic at a pH level of about 4.5. Baking soda, or sodium bicarbonate, is very alkaline at a pH of 9. Throwing off your skin pH like that is not good for you. Toothpaste has the same problem; plus toothpaste has a bunch of skin irritants in it’s formula.

Don’t use nose pore strips. They’re a huge gimmick. Those black dots on your nose are sebaceous filaments, not blackheads. Look it up. They’re natural and can be minimized through proper cleansing and BHAs. Pore strips can make your pores LARGER and also cause broken capillaries. I’d personally like to tell Biore to fuck off with their shame-based marketing.

Avoid hot showers/baths. 🛀  I know, it feels great! Unfortunately, the hot water strips your skin of its natural oils, leaving your skin dry and unhealthy. Also, if you feel lightheaded after a hot shower/bath, that means you’re dropping your blood pressure with the heat. Again, not good for you.

If a product burns your skin, DON’T USE IT. The burning does not mean it’s “working”. You can have a tingling effect from exfoliating products, but they should never burn.

Don’t over-exfoliate. I want to cry when people say they use scrubs every day! You should exfoliate physically 1-3x a week, depending on your skin. You can chemically exfoliate more frequently, but you still need to be careful. Raw, red, and flaky skin is not cute. 😡

Don’t use a bunch of new products at once. Patch test; it’s always worth it. It sucks when you wake up in the morning with a bunch of zits and irritation and you don’t know which one of the 5 new products you tried was the culprit.

STOP TANNING! ☀️️ Sun exposure is THE worst thing for your skin. Sun exposure accelerates aging and puts you at risk for skin cancer. Avoid excessive sunlight and wear sunscreen every day. 

Be wary of essential oils. Sensitive skin can be easily irritated by these seemingly natural ingredients. Natural is not always full-proof.

Don’t be aggressive towards your acne! BHAs and tea tree oil are great PREVENTATIVE ingredients. Once you have active acne, time (and AHAs) are the only thing that will make it go away. You can’t scrub it off, sorry.

Don’t pay a premium on anti-aging skin care.💰 Anti-aging is all in prevention. Stay hydrated, limit stress, don’t drink (to excess) or smoke, and use sunscreen. No cream will undo years of damage, even if it costs hundreds of dollars.