Absolutely Exhausted From Dealing With People. I Will Hide For A Bit.

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Happy Caturday

Lost 18 lbs in a month! Restrictions more.

I will be size 2 again I!

I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.

Shrink added more meds, let's see if it helps. I'm doing great dieting so far, dreading Thursday though.

Not sure which is most abhorrent!

Having bad ticks and problems talking

Or

Going to see a doctor that has a rotten bedside manner,to put it mildly.

Hopefully I don't meltdown..

The past week has been a busy nightmare full of doctors appointments and drama. Still have to get a X-ray tomorrow so another day of bus trips. Seriously want to move to a cottage in the woods and grow things . Unfortunately I'm either going to meltdown or shutdown . What a time to be alive.🙄

Twice this week my neurologist has canceled appointments. Almost had a meltdown right there in the waiting room..they could at least tell me before I got there! I take the bus, so I lost 4$ in bus fare. Needless to say it upsets me and my schedule. I didn't meltdown, way to go me!

My melancholy has turned into Dispair. And my lovely PTSD is keeping me on high alert. As for my anxiety, worse. Especially when they run test after test and still observe me, no clue what's wrong with me. Good news is my anxiety is barely in control. Seems wherever I go people are yelling and items being thrown about, um, guys, this is supposed be my sanctuary, peace, safety. Well not now, it's yelling and stomping, fighting and of course, alcohol. My overnight at dad's, my getaway, decompress. Nope, they were fighting. I desperately need my space.

Neurodivergent culture is getting really irritated when people add on to your posts with their own thoughts if those thoughts aren't exactly in line with what yours are.

It's also getting annoyed when people add onto your vent posts with positivity. like. no. just let me be depressed in peace lol.