Lost 18 Lbs In A Month! Restrictions More.

Waiting for my daughter's recital to start. Seriously people, people stop getting inside of my bubble and touching me! Glad I wore my Munchable necklace, the only thing that kept me from having a meltdown. My daughter is rocking these 90's songs. Seeing my baby girl is always worth the risk.

The past week has been a busy nightmare full of doctors appointments and drama. Still have to get a X-ray tomorrow so another day of bus trips. Seriously want to move to a cottage in the woods and grow things . Unfortunately I'm either going to meltdown or shutdown . What a time to be alive.🙄

Breath in, fly high! The worst of it is over.😶‍🌫️

Well, I spent most of yesterday out and about, getting a ultrasound ( not for that), and running errands. It was more like bus all over town,so even more social contact. Basically, I super masked all day then came home and crashed for a bit. Guess what...more today!🤗

Watch "Autistic masking: a dangerous survival mechanism | Leah Reinardy | TEDxHopeCollege" on YouTube

The anxiety is insane, my hands shake from it. It's been a month now. My anxiety and PTSD are really getting on my autistic nerves!

I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.

Packing to move is really set my anxiety off. Watch the nervous autistic be necrotic about packing for a limited time