Kinda Want To Post My Art Here, But I Got Shadowbanned, So I Don't Really See The Point In It.

I'm f#cked up.

I'm tired, I'm tired of everything. All my hobbies became a daily routine, and I don't feel anything towards them. My friends started to avoid me after my vents, and I completely understand this. I'm tired of school, and I haven't got any straight to just get up or change clothes after school. All I think about is s3lf-h@rm and how much I want to commit su!c!de. I feel like my life is trying to force me to do it. I feel like it'll happen. And I know that I will commit su!c!de.

If you're interested in c.ai, and have some cool plot/character ideas, but can't release them for a some reason, then you can send your request on my second acc, and I'll try to do it!:)

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[REQUESTS ARE OPEN!] I make bots on c.ai On c.ai : Misoushiro I'll be glad if you leave your plots/characters ideas there!:)

I'm alive. But a part of me, doesn't want to be

How much did my art improve?

(The one in the green was drawn in February, the scientist was drawn a week ago)

(btw, me and @feburra are the same person! It's just for my art, while this one is for my thoughts)

I don't wanna get help anymore.

I have no idea why, but everyone became so supportive out of blue... Literally, my parents started talking about that I need a psychologist, and that they'll bring me to them. My classmates let me vent out, and gave me support, but the problem is... I don't want help anymore. I already made my decision. But the worst thing is.... I relapsed. But, sometimes I think, what's happening with me? Why I feel like this and etc. But I just started to think that's just a phase, hormones or something... Even though I have it for 3 years, Lol

the man in stripes and glasses, marketland, one weird tip, angry people are kinda underrated. Like... I always see people talking about touch-tone telephone, cabinet man, amnesia was her name etc. not like it isn't deserved, like these songs are amazing (cmon, I listen to spirit phone everyday on repeat) but daaaaamn... I've never seen people talking about the man in stripes and glasses, marketland etc...

The doctors had been neglecting me for more than a year, and the day after yesterday I casually had tremors, though I needed to stand up. It wasn't too hard, though I walked like a soldier, cuz my legs were too stiff. And yesterday and today, I noticed a glue-like feeling in my joints, as if some liquid was there, plus it's SO FUCKING PAINFUL to bend it... It starts to hurt, burn and the glue feeling gets worse.... I don't know what to do... Looks like I ended up damaged due to the malpractice of doctors!

I've never thought that I'd listen to the lemon demon, I used to think that it was some boring and lame music with aggressive fans, but right now.... I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO TOUCH-TONE TELEPHONE AND KNIFE FIGHT, HELL, I LEARNT THE WHOLE TTT LYRICS IN 2 DAYS, AND I'M LITERALLY WAKING UP TO IT EVERY DAY (Ig my neighbours already hate hearing "I TRY TO CALL YOU EVERYDAY, I'M REHEARSING WHAT TO SAY" every morning) BUT DAAAMN, I DIDN'T EXPECT FOR LEMON DEMON TO BE THIS GOOD

Honestly, I'm impressed at how much research people who believe that Mizuki is trans did. And these proofs are really strong, like... you can't just easily refute them. While people who believe that Mizuki is crossdresser, only rely on mizu5... As if that didn't prove that Mizuki is transfem... Like... If she was a boy, she wouldn't run away like that and wouldn't have a panic attack. People really should stop debating over her gender, and finally accept that she's trans.

Trying to dump my sufferings to feel healthy again. I can't bear it anymore.