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Wow so who else gets extremely worked up thinking they have to confess to their partner a “big secret” or “bad thought” or “deal breaking worry” and then immediately after confessing it (and sometimes having a full on conversation or even argument about it) gets into a state of cuddly bliss and feels super in love despite having just been extremely stressed and feeling like everything was about to come crashing down????
and followup what the hell is this??? Is it rocd?? Is it just relationship anxiety??? Is it just general like anxious attachment?? What is this pattern bc it definitely happens to me like I feel intense distress and think the relationship is about to end with this conversation and then immediately afterward I feel over the moon in love relieved wanting to make out whatever the whole 9 yards
how do i deal with crush related intrusive thoughts i know i dont like anyone else except my boyfriend but damn bruh why my brain be goin this much tf
giving into your compulsions does not make you a bad person or irredeemable. it does not mean that it was right about you. this is an illness. you can start again
my ocd has absolutely gone off the deep end where now i am also obsessing about the ocd itself.. like if i am having rocd doubts, like do i really love my bf, am i too young for this, do i even want to be in a relationship? my ocd just snowballs wondering if these doubts are even ocd, or if they are real and i should listen to them. like maybe i really just don’t love him anymore and i’m just afraid to admit it to myself? i hate it i hate it so much i wish i could trust my own feelings .
my therapist tells me it doesn’t matter if the doubts are real, it doesn’t matter if i don’t actually love him. because i will never know the truth, i’ll never know for certain if we “should” be together. life just doesn’t have certain answers for these things and i need to accept that uncertainty. recovery is so painful
the worst part about ocd is no matter how much work you do, some days you just can’t get your brain off of a sticky loop of rumination
anyone else have ocd that is so up and down like one moment i’ll feel so confident and happy in my relationship, positive that i love him so much and that i want to be with him forever. and then 4 min later i’m questioning everything and wondering if i’d be happier single. fuck this!
yoshitoshi ABe’s an omnipresence in the wired || 安倍吉俊の『an omnipresence in the wired』
yoshitoshi ABe’s an omnipresence in the wired || 安倍吉俊の『an omnipresence in the wired』
yoshitoshi ABe’s an omnipresence in the wired || 安倍吉俊の『an omnipresence in the wired』
yoshitoshi ABe’s an omnipresence in the wired || 安倍吉俊の『an omnipresence in the wired』
chiho saitou’s revolutionary girl utena: after the revolution || さいとうちほの『少女革命ウテナ after the revolution』
Being undiagnosed with Autism for so long (like into your 20s) is incredibly debilitating. Because when you start making AdultTM decisions, & try to assert your independence, everyone considers you illogical. Then you start throwing a fit - or in my case angry crying - and seem to prove everyone’s point of how irresponsible you are. It’s really not that. I’m just hate being misunderstood & told that my ideas are stupid, when they make perfect sense. Even if the WAY I’m doing something is wrong, I’ll do what I want as long as the end result is legal & positive.
I feel like life was very black and white as a kid. There were straightforward rules everywhere; posted signs and adults telling us to do this, don't do that, say this, respond this way in this situation. But the older i get the grayer life gets. Situations are complex and have good and bad mixed. Right and wrong is subjective. No one taught me how to live in between points on a spectrum.
Neurotypical: You should help me put more it's the nice thing to do.
Autistic: Okay, I'll do whatever you need me to do. Just tell me what to do.
Neurotypical: I shouldn't have to tell you what to do, just help.
Autistic: How can I help????
Neurotypical: You're so inconsiderate for not helping even when I don't ask directly for help.
This is a personal experience of mine and I can't describe how frustrating it feels!
I will literally do what you tell me to if you just say it!
I can't understand when you might want my help, so all you have to do is ASK DIRECTLY!
Don't do shit like "oh I wish someone could help me." Because I won't know if that'd a joke or not!
Just say, "Hey can you help me clean this?" Or "Hey do you kind getting the mail for me?"
It's not that hard.
I'm not inconsiderate for not helping you when you didn't ask.
