3d Diary - Blog Posts
I constantly have to remind my FCK!NG BRAIN that NO 1500 IS NOT OVER3@T!NG !!! It’s LITERALLY the bare minimum for a 9 yrs old to consume like WHAAAAT
I’m entering a weird mode when I need someone to 3@t with either way I would just skip it until dinner time
I basically forcing føød in my bødy right now just to keep it functional and I’m exhausted because it’s the finals and I’m really active + I don’t wanna g@!n all the w3!ght back so I have to be extra careful to 3@t “enough” from now on
I have mixed feelings about the stage that I’m in right now lmao
DAY 17
ahahahahahah ———— SO
A Pearl - Mitsky
TV - Billie Eilish
All-American B!tch - Olivia Rodrigo
I wanna be your girlfriend - Girl in Red
Sailor song - Gigi Perez
For the most popular but I could add so much more that’s crazy. I relate to A LOT of the songs in my playlists haha Probably a bit to much but G forbid a girl found the cheapest th3r@pist on earth (I don’t have Spotify premium)
I LITERALLY need to 3@t MORE than those FKING 800 if I don’t want to gain EVERYTHING back AAAAAAAAAAH
I don’t find the time tho.. aaaaand I’m not really hůngry either like- what am I supposed to do?
It’s easier to hide it when you do weightlifting lmao People will just assume that you got l3@ner by working out to see your muscles and it’s more conventionally acceptable than having an 3d.. I got the perfect excuse now hehe
My friend told me tonight that she could see my back and arms muscles!! I’m so happy like- That means that I’m not l00s!ng muscles mass (I might be in denial for this one haha) and it really helps me f!tt!ng my bødy dysmørph!@ right now Love her<3
ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🦖
Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 coffee Snack~ + 1 apple + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1/2 burrata pizza + 1 green tea
Total:~ 800
It was girls night✨ so happy because I was the one proposing sharing this pizza that we previously talked about and it was soooo good, I love burrata and it was so worth it and so filling in a good way Also if anyone is wondering, no, I didn’t f@st on purpose, I just didn’t had the time to 3@t a real meal today. I personally wouldn’t recommend the f@st!ng method because it just make you wanna 3@t more when you break it and it personally make me think about føød a little to much for my own good haha
DAY 16
Idk but probably not one
Yeah not gonna talk about something I don’t fully understand:)
ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎥
Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ mix fruit plate Snack~ protein bar Dinner~ high protein bowl with rice + 1 apple + 1 green tea
Total :~ 800
Forced to 3@t only fruits for lunch?? Not gonna complain haha
Løøs!ng f@t around my toes was not on bingo list but okay (??)
Bonus points cause it made me laugh
Løøs!ng w3!ght without løøs!ng muscle mass feels different
Okay so I gained a little bit but it’s mostly water w3!ght because my m3@sur3ments didn’t move
I’m so glad I took them this morning, helped me not freaking out lmao
Making draft TikTok knowing d@mn well I’ll never post them is my th3r@py
DAY 15
I was never able to before but I need to look “healthy enough” for other not to ask me questions Pls leave me alone🧚
Idk what to expect from the sc@le and it’s k!ll!ng me right now
I’m so scared
OMG I was ⭐ing so I made a huge meal (bigger than the one of today episode) and I couldn’t even start it! I stopped myself, listening to what my body was telling me instead of the craving! I’m really proud because if I haven’t listened I think I would have felt so sick
ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌺
Total of the day :~ 1000
As always don’t count like I do lmao, I made a huge meal full of protein because I was lacking of it
I didn’t wanted to jinx it if I talked about it buuuut
24H F@ST DONE HAHA
I’m ⭐️ving right now so I’m gonna go eat something hehe I’m proud, I resisted to the school trip temptation :))
DAY 14
Working on my thesis
Working out
Working on my mindset
Working on my projects
Working
Haha
Tomorrow I’m gonna try a 24h f@st ! (I don’t count coffee in the equation)
And it start right now!
Basically not 3@t!ng anything until I come back home:)
ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💋
Breakfast~ tofu, steamed vegetables, rice, salad, and fruit and coffee Lunch~ vegetable fritters, tempeh, beef, steamed vegetables, sambal and coffee. Dinner~ rice, mashed potatoes, broccoli, steamed vegetables with tofu, an omelet, fruits and coffee Snack~ 2 coffee and 1 stomach medicine
Total:~ 1700
Proud of meeee for not stuffing my plates and prioritising vegetables and proteins hehehe
I’m not really active because I’m in a school trip. It feels like it’s also to test to see if I can r3str!ct myself while hanging out with my friends for three all day.. so far it’s working I said no to the morning snacks, just drank a coffee to stay in the vibe and didn’t even finish my plates (I hate throwing out food but I was feeling so full omg) proud of myself hehe Wish me luck for dinner, I’m setting the limit at 1800 since it’s also c@lør!3 deficit limit :)
DAY 13
Really don’t know, maybe video and blogs.. ?
ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨
I didn’t take pictures but ate around 2000 I think
M3@b@b dayyyyy!! Finally!
I feel sooo heavy tho😭
DAY 12
Same as what I’m wearing now, I like my style and I don’t particularly hate my body, I just want to feel in control
ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨
Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 cheese bread + 2 roasted sausages Snack~ smoothies bowl + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ high protein bowl with rice + 1 slice of cheese + 2 slice of bread + chicken broth + løwc@l lychee candy
Total:~ 1900
I ate a bit more today so I don’t really feel comfortable but I have to be honest with myself, I felt so weak today, couldn’t concentrate on anything and it’s probably because I don’t count my c@lør!3s in an accurate way so I end up more exhausted than I should be for the amount I’m over calculating everyday.. I shouldn’t complain about it because that means that it’s working and anyway, I did it myself to myself but I can’t talk to anyone about that, I don’t have anyone to talk to cause it’s not their f¥ck!ng business yk and I can handle it on my own. I just feel a teeny tiny bit down and it feels like here people understand at least because we are all in, comforting each other, which feel sad at the same time, thank you <33
You are all enough and beautiful!!
DAY 11
CHEESE AND BREAD A 1000000000% couldn’t live my life without them I swear hahaha
ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 👑
Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ steamed vegetables with roasted chicken and creamy mushroom sauce + 1 ice Americano Snack~ smoothie bowl +passion fruit drink
Total:~ 1400
