bpd culture is feeling like your fp hates you because they’re not talking to you bc they said they are busy with stuff irl (but what if they are lying? making up excuses to not talk to me??)
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i basically assume that people don’t like me unless they explicitly tell me they like me and then periodically remind me
Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson) / @wholeheartedsuggestions / Jenny Slate / Euripides again
i got a b in personality disorders??? did i not study enough?
ive found that partially treated mental illness can sometimes look to uninvolved onlookers like faked mental illness.
Bpd culture is living in constant guilt and misery over the fact that some personality disorder you had no control over and didn't ask for will permanently ruin your life and relationships forever. Nothing is more discouraging than knowing that the way I am is literally exactly what people are told to avoid in friends/partners/etc. making me virtually untouchable and most likely forever alone. The isolation really gets to me sometimes and honestly at this point I'd rather be dead than alone and hated by society for a disorder that I never even asked for in the first place.
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bpd question, what exactly is splitting? i hear abt it a lot and i think i might have bpd but i can’t figure out what it is lmao
Splitting is an extreme change in thinking, and this can go both positive and negative (or black and white)
Splitting white is when you idealize and idolize someone, thinking they're the best person ever and nobody can ever compare to them, that they have no flaws, and that they'd never hurt you in any way, intentionally or unintentionally. That they always love you. They make you feel the happiest you've ever been.
Splitting black is the opposite of that. Devaluing someone, thinking that they're the worst person ever or that they've always hurt you. That they're so flawed beyond repair. That they never really loved you. Wanting to insult them and being so angry at them. Or being so distraught and depressed at the thought of them, feeling betrayed almost. Just a complete contrast to the highs you'd get from them.
You may notice it's similar to black and white thinking, but b&w thinking is in a general context, while splitting is specific to a person or group of people.
Hope that helps some!
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they should invent a laying in your bed all day that is healthy and good for you.
can everyone be nice to me forever