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Can you explain more about delusions and npd? I don't remember if you've talked about it before

Of course! NPD is actually primarily definable by the delusions commonly associated with the disorder. These are commonly described in general as 'delusions of grandeur'' but there’s a lot more to them than that. 

In general, there are several different variants of delusions, including but not necessarily limited to: Erotomanic, grandiose, bizarre grandiose, jealous/infidelity, persecutory, referential, negation/nihilistic, and somatic. 

Within NPD, as far as I know, the most common types are erotomanic, (bizarre) grandiose, persecutory, and negation/nihilistic can also show up mixing with grandiose. I suspect somatic could also show up based on what I know about the disorder, but I don't see it commonly spoken about.

Specifics about what each type of delusion means under the cut!

Erotomanic - Delusions regarding someone being in love with them. According to most sources, erotomanic delusions are commonly targeted toward a person of great importance or fame. This type of delusion can often involve reading into the world as giving one 'signs', things like thinking certain gestures are a beckoning or things such as that. May have overlap with grandiose ("Everyone in the world is in love with me").

Grandiose - Delusions regarding being special or having extraordinary talents ("I know how to do everything", "If I were to try to do that I would do it perfectly", "If I were in a position of power the world would be fixed"). These are most the delusions most commonly associated with NPD or ASPD.

   Bizarre Grandiose - These are a subtype of grandiose. These often focus around spiritual or religious beliefs ("I am God", "God chose me") but can also focus upon supernatural ability ("I have powers nobody else has"). Again, these are most commonly associated with NPD and ASPD.

Jealous/Infidelity - Delusions regarding the loyalty of those around you/that you may just be being lead along by those in your life, also commonly associated with fear of incoming abandonment, and they must be for little to no reason ("My partner is cheating on me", "My best friend doesn’t actually like me", "I saw my partner with someone, they’re going to leave me"). Commonly seen in disorders like BPD or PPD. 

Persecutory - Delusions regarding people in the world intending on harming you ("I'm being watched", "People are tracking me"). Most commonly associated with psychotic disorders or PPD. Can show up in NPD by mixing with grandiose ("People want to hurt me because I’m special").

Referential/Delusions of Reference - Delusions regarding ordinary, everyday experiences having hidden meanings ("I believe this song has a message specifically for me", "the clouds are telling me something"). Most commonly associated with schizo-spec disorders.

Negation/Nihilistic - Delusions rendering life/the world meaningless ("No matter what I try, I cannot affect the world", "nothing is real"). Delusions suffered in this type typically fall under the realm of Cotard’s delusion (delusions regarding being nonexistent or dead). Can have commonalities with bizarre grandiose ("I'm the only person in the world", "Nobody is real except me"). 

Somatic - Delusions that someone suffers from a disorder or medical issue. Associated with hypochondria. 

Unspecific - Delusions not fitting into any particular category. 

Mixed - Showing delusions of two or more different types. 

Hope this helps!

Autistic BPD culture is seeing a character in a tv show/movie that you are obsessed with, and getting so overwhelmed by the emotions you feel when you see them that it triggers a meltdown (just happened)

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nd culture is feeling like everyone hates you and not understanding why

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BPD culture is snapping over little things and trying to apologize for the way you acted and freaking out again when the person you snapped at doesnt get over it as fast as you do because then you think “they hate me why are they still upset over this theyve never liked me they're still mad they hate me”

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bpd + maladaptive daydreaming culture is while not indulging in anything like alcohol or drugs, instead you indulge in the other world inside your head so you dont need to be in the current, painful reality – and with a low price!

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i wish this anger would go somewhere else that isnt just myself or God forbid my fps im so angry im so constantly frustrated i hate i hate i hate and its so so so stupid i just want to Maul somnething and rip and tear it until its just cotton but i cant and i dont want that hate to be directed towards people i love even if my thoughts make me want to Yell Yell Yell so its just me im my own therapist i scream at myself i hate myself i want to bang m y head until it beleeds until i calm down and it just happens AgaiN AND AGAINand im so.

tired.

and none of the people i love will ever know, because it doesnt matter in the end, does it.

-🐊 (is it ok if you also tagged the previous post about finding out your fp has a partner with 🐊 ? i forgot to tag it in the moment)

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Bpd culture is shutting yourself down again because you relearned that whenever you speak up for yourself and defend yourself and explain your bpd symptoms everyone always finds a way turn it into you being the asshole so you regress back to being a palatable opinionless doormat because at least your friends didn't wanna leave you then

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bpd culture is misreading a text in a way that makes you think your fp hates you and almost giving yourself an anxiety attack at 4 am, but it turns out you just misread it and it's actually nothing serious

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Interactions you've had if you're cluster b:

"I'm so worried they're doing that so sabotage me or manipulate me!"

"Why would they do that, people don't even really do that plus their your friend!"

"........" (I would do that)

BPD culture is becoming so torn about how you feel about your FP after a serious argument.

One minute you’re apologizing non-stop and blame yourself for their faults and the other you’re burning with rage and split so hard you write a whole essay about how they’re hurting you and how they’re a terrible person, just to never send it to them.

May I sign off as 🐇🎩 if it isn’t taken?

Sure thing :)