Tw Sh Mentions

Interactions you've had if you're cluster b:

"I'm so worried they're doing that so sabotage me or manipulate me!"

"Why would they do that, people don't even really do that plus their your friend!"

"........" (I would do that)

BPD culture is feeling like all you are is a mirror

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“no one’s ever mad at me unless they tell me so” is the best assumption i’ve ever made

the DSM-5 defines narcissism as being characterized in part by a "need for admiration." while this is true for most of us, i think it's a bit of an oversimplification to identify every narcissist's supply needs as just "admiration."

many narcissists just want acknowledgement. supply may not just mean praise and reverence, but also simple care. not a need to be worshiped and treated as godlike, but to be spoken to and treated as an important human being.

others may not just get supply from positive attention, but also negative attention. i've heard others talk about reveling in the thought of being the subject of someone else's resentment or hatred, just because it makes them an important figure in their life.

some narcissists seek out any attention, regardless of whether it contributes to an idolizing reputation; narcissists who become self-destructive because they know it'll get people's attention.

i think most narcissists appreciate admiration, but narcissistic supply isn't just that. what all narcissists have in common is that we need more attention than most people, be it because we were deprived of it when we needed it most or because we never learned how to live without it.

regardless, none of us really have the innate ability to feel important and appreciated unless we're given as much attention we can get.

tw sui ideations + jealousy + a lotta self hate

Why does it hurt why does it hurt why does it hurt Why does it hurt so much when i find out my fp has a partner fuck fuck fuck this is so stupid i literally am dating someone romantically and my relationship with my fp is strictly platonic so why does it hurtso much when i found out xe's dating someone Am i that scared of abandonment fuck this is so stupid fuck i hate this i hate myself im so scared i might lose xyr fuck i made a mistake getting too comfortable fuck xyrd be suspicious if i just started distancing myself from xyr and our friend group but god it hurts so much god i hate relationships so much i wish i could just bury myself alive god god i dont know what to do i really wished i just killed myself i wished one of my two attempts succeeded it hurts So much to be alive knowing this i wish i didnt have bpd i wish i didnt have to deal with this i wished i was alone but i have to stay strong i guess i have to Stay alive just for everyone i love and i fucking hate it i hate being loved please stop loving me it isnt worth it please please let me die alone crying myself to sleep

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can everyone be nice to me forever

full offense but i think a lot of you want to seem like a safe space for ppl w/ demonized disorders without actually being a safe space for ppl w/ demonized disorders. and i think its straight up just because you guys view us as though we need to be "one of the good ones" or else we're morally reprehensible and need to be excommunicated just on the off chance that we MIGHT hurt someone

cute bpd things!!

paranoia

*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP

yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D

paranoia

mood depending on them

every text hurts or feels way too good

intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH

the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive

paranoia

fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3

"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"

becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention

never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back

cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME

oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself

"just leave. everyone does anyways"

5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever

*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?

dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had

paranoia

BPD culture is never being able to tell who is the toxic one in any of your relationships because it is always assumed you are the bad one.