Can you explain more about delusions and npd? I don't remember if you've talked about it before
Of course! NPD is actually primarily definable by the delusions commonly associated with the disorder. These are commonly described in general as 'delusions of grandeur'' but there’s a lot more to them than that.
In general, there are several different variants of delusions, including but not necessarily limited to: Erotomanic, grandiose, bizarre grandiose, jealous/infidelity, persecutory, referential, negation/nihilistic, and somatic.
Within NPD, as far as I know, the most common types are erotomanic, (bizarre) grandiose, persecutory, and negation/nihilistic can also show up mixing with grandiose. I suspect somatic could also show up based on what I know about the disorder, but I don't see it commonly spoken about.
Specifics about what each type of delusion means under the cut!
Erotomanic - Delusions regarding someone being in love with them. According to most sources, erotomanic delusions are commonly targeted toward a person of great importance or fame. This type of delusion can often involve reading into the world as giving one 'signs', things like thinking certain gestures are a beckoning or things such as that. May have overlap with grandiose ("Everyone in the world is in love with me").
Grandiose - Delusions regarding being special or having extraordinary talents ("I know how to do everything", "If I were to try to do that I would do it perfectly", "If I were in a position of power the world would be fixed"). These are most the delusions most commonly associated with NPD or ASPD.
Bizarre Grandiose - These are a subtype of grandiose. These often focus around spiritual or religious beliefs ("I am God", "God chose me") but can also focus upon supernatural ability ("I have powers nobody else has"). Again, these are most commonly associated with NPD and ASPD.
Jealous/Infidelity - Delusions regarding the loyalty of those around you/that you may just be being lead along by those in your life, also commonly associated with fear of incoming abandonment, and they must be for little to no reason ("My partner is cheating on me", "My best friend doesn’t actually like me", "I saw my partner with someone, they’re going to leave me"). Commonly seen in disorders like BPD or PPD.
Persecutory - Delusions regarding people in the world intending on harming you ("I'm being watched", "People are tracking me"). Most commonly associated with psychotic disorders or PPD. Can show up in NPD by mixing with grandiose ("People want to hurt me because I’m special").
Referential/Delusions of Reference - Delusions regarding ordinary, everyday experiences having hidden meanings ("I believe this song has a message specifically for me", "the clouds are telling me something"). Most commonly associated with schizo-spec disorders.
Negation/Nihilistic - Delusions rendering life/the world meaningless ("No matter what I try, I cannot affect the world", "nothing is real"). Delusions suffered in this type typically fall under the realm of Cotard’s delusion (delusions regarding being nonexistent or dead). Can have commonalities with bizarre grandiose ("I'm the only person in the world", "Nobody is real except me").
Somatic - Delusions that someone suffers from a disorder or medical issue. Associated with hypochondria.
Unspecific - Delusions not fitting into any particular category.
Mixed - Showing delusions of two or more different types.
Hope this helps!
final message: i love you people who were "scary" children. i love you people who attacked other people, who hurt animals, who destroyed people's things, on purpose or on accident. i love you people who got labeled "creepy" or "problem child" or "attention-seeking" or "manipulative". i love you people who got kicked out of class or suspended often, who got kicked out of schools, who transferred before you could get kicked, who didn't understand why they got in trouble. i love you students who failed classes, who'd cry in class, who'd sleep through class, who got sent to unhelpful counselors. you weren't at fault for being a struggling child, and i love you if you struggle feeling overwhelmingly guilty for how you acted as a child, and i love you if you dont. i especially love you if you struggle to see yourself as a good person because of whatever you did as a child. i love you people who cant remember what you did, but are told it makes you bad. you are not defined by the actions of your child self, and you are able to choose who to be as you are now. if you have the capacity and interest to make amends, you can, and its also okay to not do that and just leave it all behind. i love you all the same.
questioning bpd culture is going from feeling borderline suicidal due to the amount of anxiety and self-loathing you're experiencing to being completely fine the next day
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bpd culture is thinking you're a monster when you first start splitting (or noticing that you're splitting) on other people, because no normal person would suddenly start hating their friends
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bpd culture is when your fps tone changes alittle from how they usually talk and now you NEED to isolate yourself until they act “normal” to you again
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They should make a "are you mad at me" that is taken neutrally and informationally every time and doesn't make everything worse when you ask it
bpd culture is feeling so mad and upset and angry you wanna throw punches and hit stuff when your fp doesn't respond but feeling insanely guilty when they do and say they were doing something normal
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the 'wow you're so emotionally mature for your age!' to having the I can't regulate my emotions disorder pipeline is real
thinking about how funny it is that you pay therapists and they can diagnose you with a cluster b personality disorder...literally giving you money and in exchange you're calling me manipulative orsomething...this is making me feel so pathetic wtf I paid you to degrade me *kills mys