Im So Glad I Smoke As Much 🍃 As I Do Bc I Lose My Appetite And The Weight Starts Falling Off. And

Why do I keep eating. Send me meanspo

my inner child did enough healing i’m giving her a glock

🎀 smoothie ideas 🎀

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i hate that im relapsing. i wont tell anyone, not even my girlfriend. i hate that i fought so hard to defeat this disorder before, gaining 30 pounds in less than a year, all to go right back to my destructive habits. but i cant stop. i cant fit in my clothes, im taking up more space, and i wish i liked myself enough now to stay like this. but i hate myself.

i dont see ugly in anyone unless i know theyre a bad person. maybe i think im a bad person. i do, sometimes. i wish i wasnt so angry and temperamental. i wish i didnt struggle to do everyday things. i wish i was BETTER.

i guess i thought gaining weight would help but apparently that wasnt it. and now im beating myself up all over again. now i feel like ive gone too far, and now im in too deep.

i wish i was stronger…

Distractions

* Go on a walk

* Search for health/nutrition info on the net

* Turn up the music and dance

* Clean your house until everything looks untouched

* Read a book or magazine

* Find out about finances and investing

* Find out enough about a national issue to form a strong opinion

* Do that that you were meaning to do for so long

* Rent and follow a yoga or pilates video

* Express yourself creatively

* Wander and browse trough the library

* Read about the toxins and food that build up in the digestive system

* Start writing in a journal about things besides calories

* Make your own, original, unique website

* Have a movie fest

* Volunteer somewhere

* Get a job

* Master your self description

* Play with your pet, they’ll love you!

* Call your grandparents

* Go to howstuffworks.com and find out!

* Exfoliate your entire body

* Think about your life goals and how you’ll reach them

* Make someone a bracelet or neckless

* Read the newspaper, every word of it!

* Stop procrastinating

* look at Th1nsp0 or me4nsp0

𝓜𝔂 4𝓷4 𝓻𝓾𝓵𝓮𝓼 ⊹ ࣪ ˖

☁️5-10k steps everyday 🎀

☁️Only take cold showers 🎀

☁️Weigh in every morning 🎀

☁️Drink 2L water everyday 🎀

☁️NO binging 🎀

☁️NO eating above 800 calories 🎀

☁️1 hr exercise every weekday 🎀

☁️ONLY drink water, coffee, or diet coke 🎀

☁️Keep a diary 🎀

☁️Fast 2 days if binged 🎀

☁️Take body checks every month 🎀

☁️NO eating after 6pm (fast til 7am) 🎀

☁️Fast every Sunday 🎀

☁️Keep meals under 1 cup 🎀

☁️Take 2 sips water between bites 🎀

i WILL be thinner than this. this was 2020