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i WILL be thinner than this. this was 2020

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Weight loss spell to lose 20+ lbs by July

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Pierce The Veil - Wonderless

“are you a top or bottom?” i’m a burden bro

reminder that even if you have an ED, it’s not okay to fat/food shame others.

i hate that im relapsing. i wont tell anyone, not even my girlfriend. i hate that i fought so hard to defeat this disorder before, gaining 30 pounds in less than a year, all to go right back to my destructive habits. but i cant stop. i cant fit in my clothes, im taking up more space, and i wish i liked myself enough now to stay like this. but i hate myself.

i dont see ugly in anyone unless i know theyre a bad person. maybe i think im a bad person. i do, sometimes. i wish i wasnt so angry and temperamental. i wish i didnt struggle to do everyday things. i wish i was BETTER.

i guess i thought gaining weight would help but apparently that wasnt it. and now im beating myself up all over again. now i feel like ive gone too far, and now im in too deep.

i wish i was stronger…

Distractions

* Go on a walk

* Search for health/nutrition info on the net

* Turn up the music and dance

* Clean your house until everything looks untouched

* Read a book or magazine

* Find out about finances and investing

* Find out enough about a national issue to form a strong opinion

* Do that that you were meaning to do for so long

* Rent and follow a yoga or pilates video

* Express yourself creatively

* Wander and browse trough the library

* Read about the toxins and food that build up in the digestive system

* Start writing in a journal about things besides calories

* Make your own, original, unique website

* Have a movie fest

* Volunteer somewhere

* Get a job

* Master your self description

* Play with your pet, they’ll love you!

* Call your grandparents

* Go to howstuffworks.com and find out!

* Exfoliate your entire body

* Think about your life goals and how you’ll reach them

* Make someone a bracelet or neckless

* Read the newspaper, every word of it!

* Stop procrastinating

* look at Th1nsp0 or me4nsp0

i binged on taco bell. i didnt eat it all but i had at least 900c@ls. my body isnt used to heavy restricting anymore, so i need to be easier on myself. and stick to the healthy foods, especially if i feel like binging. not gonna beat myself up even though i feel horrible. i feel like a failure. i’ll try again tomorrow.