Just In A Silly Little Mood :]

Having visible collar bones and a flat stomach would give me the confidence to wear tank tops for once

The urge to fall back into all of my bad habits because i am too tired and they feel familiar.

Real

+ ⭐️ve

I find that one of the worst things about fasting is that I constantly feel sick. yet when I do eat, I can't keep it down. I get so nauseous even when I drink water, but watching the numbers on the scale drop makes it all worth it 😊

wanting someone to notice that I'm not ok but the urge to keep going is so much stonger. I want to be rotting inside before they realise

being bigger than my sister is honestly so embarrassing for me. she's 15 years older than me and I'm still fatter than her. I want to carve the fat off my body until there's nothing left but skin and bones

self destructing to feel in control only to realise you might not actually be in control, and "your actions" might just be someone or something making decisions for you.

a rope and an eating disorder, what more can a girl want 💕💕

"you got snap or insta?" i have a rope i can hang myself with

I dont ⭐ve just because I hate myself.

I ⭐ve because my grief does the eating for me.