I Dont ⭐ve Just Because I Hate Myself.

tell me why tiktok decides to show me food videos when I'm relapsing? like bitch, let me ⭐ve in peace 😮‍💨

being bigger than my sister is honestly so embarrassing for me. she's 15 years older than me and I'm still fatter than her. I want to carve the fat off my body until there's nothing left but skin and bones

Bpd culture is feeling like the only one who took people saying "treat others how youd want to be treated" seriously

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I find that one of the worst things about fasting is that I constantly feel sick. yet when I do eat, I can't keep it down. I get so nauseous even when I drink water, but watching the numbers on the scale drop makes it all worth it 😊

I started going on walks with my friend (I'm running up and down a hill on my own to burn calories when I eat)

wanting someone to notice that I'm not ok but the urge to keep going is so much stonger. I want to be rotting inside before they realise

just in a silly little mood :]

the bpd urge to drop all my friends cut all contact with everyone and ruin my own life until it kills me

Having visible collar bones and a flat stomach would give me the confidence to wear tank tops for once

The urge to fall back into all of my bad habits because i am too tired and they feel familiar.