Am I Gonna Feel Lonely For The Rest Of My Life... It's The One Feeling I Think I Am Familiar With Since

i don't see a happy life ahead of me. I wish for a peaceful one but I don't see that either. it probably should be concerning how suicidal I'm being everyday. why should I try when ik my path is only going to be full of despair? why can't I end it earlier, I wanna put a stop to this. too late to apologise, too late to ask for help, don't think too late to be saved but no one will. maybe that's my tragedy that everyone could use to feel bad after I'm long gone

i indeed have grossly estimated my place in everyone's life

I feel frustrated by Megumi's scars... I love this concept, but... ugh...

I also think Megumi is having a really hard time with everything that happened to him, and I really wanted to draw that.

learning the art of shutting up.

idk how I'm gonna do any of this. im really not fit for this world. i hate how i have to go through life, try to find happiness or dream or peace or whatever that fucking keeps me alive.

how am I supposed to do any of that? why can't they just hand it down, why must even peace be given to someone only after going through hell? so we'd know what peace is?

to be unhappy to know what happiness is like?

and fuck me for still being here, fucking coward

fleabag and Claire... fuck them god

i don't think i can ever explain the type of feeling the astronaut invokes in me

im gonna kms fr

man i hate myself

want like at least 15 mins to hide and cry, i dont it like today