Signed My Fate To The Devil Today

badumtuss

post-graduation trip airport looks

I hate that man, he could do so many things to make it all right but I'll always hate that man. I wanna free you from him, but I don't know how to. I wanna free myself from you both I don't know how to. I don't wanna hurt you, but I don't know how to. I know you don't wanna hurt me, and I know you can't help it either. Amma we might have been doomed since we were born in this body, in this flesh, among these men. We are always gonna want to save each other and maybe, maybe we never will. I'm sorry I'm the reason you are crying right now, I'm sorry I'm another bad thing to you. I'm sorry I'm not your saviour and I'm sorry you are just as bad as others.

i am only now realising how i am actually NOT a neurotypical, and it's so fucking hard being here. this is the worst place to be at if you are not a perfect human being lol. there's not an ounce of empathy, no understanding. it's so hard being a human here. i want to go home. never thought i could miss that place, but here im literally in tears while i write this. even when i get invalidated it wasnt THIS bad lol

want like at least 15 mins to hide and cry, i dont it like today

Why am I like this

being here i tend to forget home is just another place filled with infuriating people

Am I gonna feel lonely for the rest of my life... It's the one feeling I think I am familiar with since the beginning of my life

Feeling so sick of myself and everyone around me these days, I can't wait for this stupid fucking exam to end so I can get lost in the void. And thank God almost everyone's going home after the exam. I hope they don't give much work so I can just have Sunday for myself. I really want it. I want to just exist. I want to cry, I want to sleep, I want to just be.

im not okay