Why Am I Like This

i am so. i wish someone would just take pity on me. and put me out of this misery. someone please just take me cradle me hold me close to you please kiss on my forehead while you dive that fucking knife through my heart. please hold me until I die and put me down gently. tell me you could have loved me if I wasn't so fucked

NO other show in existence understands sister dynamics better than fleabag. especially from the perspective of older sisters i believe. having the same character yell "...you're fine! you'll always be fine. you'll always be interesting, with your quirky cafe and your dead best friend. you just make me feel like i've failed," AND "the only person i'd run through an airport for is you" !!!!!!!!! it's insane and it's exactly how i feel

being here i tend to forget home is just another place filled with infuriating people

I've truly lost the plot, like girl idk what's going on in my life either

badumtuss

there’s a special kind of grief you feel towards yourself when you’ve been mentally ill for as long as you remember. you see ppl saying they long to return to their old self but you don’t have an old self, or if there was, you can’t remember it. ur “old self” was a child. this self is all you’ve ever known. then there’s the fear that comes with trying to find out who you are without your mental illnesses, it’s all new to you and you don’t know if you’ll like who you’ll be

want like at least 15 mins to hide and cry, i dont it like today

signed my fate to the devil today

i don't see a happy life ahead of me. I wish for a peaceful one but I don't see that either. it probably should be concerning how suicidal I'm being everyday. why should I try when ik my path is only going to be full of despair? why can't I end it earlier, I wanna put a stop to this. too late to apologise, too late to ask for help, don't think too late to be saved but no one will. maybe that's my tragedy that everyone could use to feel bad after I'm long gone

post-graduation trip airport looks