Ways To Counter Negative Thoughts During Studying? For Ex - (mein Gareeb Mar Jaungi) And Other Stupid

back pain.

It's so draining xo

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i thought i’d study more but my brain is gonna turn to mush

i have 12 hour lectures from tomorrow onwards to revise my entire syllabus, i hope i make it through them.

i was supposed to revise what will be done tomorrow but my brain genuienly cannot comprehend any more information and i’m so scared this isn’t enough, looking at my friends preparing.

i’m thinking of getting some good amount of sleep tonight so i can make it through the next 10 days of grinding.

i’m so cooked.

11 may 2025

(a post without todo lists)

hello, it’s been long~ it’s been a week since neet.

i have another exam tmr but i’m not studying for it cus well- i packed all my stuff anyway and idk, i can’t get myself to study anymore. the burn out is intense- like 2 years of burn out waiting to crash so wellll

i’ve been getting back to my hobbies for now !! more indoor hobbies cuz i still don’t have the energy to step out a lot but we’ve been drawing and reading again - i drew the mandala piece for my mom for mother’s day and the demon slayer piece- well just like that. also started reading bell jar by sylvia plath 🌸

my exam centre tmr is pretty far away and i have to be there by 8 sooo i’ll leave around 6.45-7 ;( (gotta sleep early but we know i wont)

anyway, i think im slowly gonna get back to going out too- for some reason crowds have been overwhelming and i get this random pang of guilt and sadness which makes going out really overstimulating :(( but we’ll get better.

also been reducing the amount of coffee i drink - i only drink one every two days which is a huge huge improvement and does make me sleep quality better but not by a lot. also gives me a lot of headaches :(

changed my desk set up and brought out my laptop so i can edit easier and do a few courses online cus too much free time :( i was thinking of doing this one neuroscience course but let’s see :) i also had to make a new yt account cuz my old one had nothing but neet on it and i was too overwhelmed to unsubscribe so safe choice- used my new mail id 😭 (ive had this mail id for a long time, the yt was on the mail id i had when i was in 7th) so yes okay, enough yapping for now

i hope yall have a great day and stay hydrated

💌

15 march 2025

ENGLISH OVER YAYYYYYY

alr so im done with english and not sleep deprived at all so no naps for today, next is bio so i’m super excited eeeeeeeeeek so i’m gonna start studying today cus i’ve missed biology smmmmm ☹️

have a nice day my loves

💌

update - i ended up sleeping lol

okay anyways - sort of a vent rant so skip if yall don’t wanna get into it

it’s just been so weirdly lonely lately, like i have people but they aren’t exactly there and it’s so overwhelming to literally even exist. neet coming and boards going on and not being able to sleep until 5 am is genuinely making me feel so hopeless :(

i’ve kinda also started ghosting a lot of my friends and am only in contact with like 1-2 and maybe that’s why i’ve been feeling lonely but it’s just that, they all feel so distant. talking to people makes me feel pathetic.

this is pathetic, bye

i love my mutuals sm :( i hope you have the sweetest days ever

watching guessing strategy videos for viteee (brain gave up after revising phy and chem) 😰 how cooked are we?

14 february 2025

i’m getting back on track now, i think. ive been recovering from whatever that was from the past few days.

today i studied :

biotechnology 1 : ncert read + 150 questions + pyq

biotechnology 2 : ncert read + 200 questions + pyq

electromagnetic induction : revise + 150 questions + pyq

doesn’t look like a lot but questions do take time for physics and ncert reading for biotechnology was very time consuming and took a lot of brain power 🥲 but regardless, i feel pretty productive. i’m done for the day with finishing EMI pyq. i plan to do some chapters for my bio boards tomorrow along with physics question solving. i did finish physics for my board exams too. i only have one day of break for my bio boards so i need to pay more attention to that now. i have four days of break for my chemistry boards so im not too worried about it, i need to revise all of it once before my boards start though but ive still got quite some time.

the questions i’m doing for neet now, are final and once i’m done with the chapters i most likely won’t be doing questions for them until after boards. i’m hoping to finish all my 12th portions by the time my boards end too or by march end so i can focus on 11th revision and final full syllabus tests in april.

anyway, it’s 2 am and i’m gonna head to bed.

See this graph eh ? It's my dopamine levels crashing ahehe over the years. Crashing harder than the stock market during the great depression. *Puts gun in mouth*