Just Woke Up And Weighed In At 47.7kg, .2kg Under My Goal Weight. I Know I Should Be Excited But I’m

hate my mental health class in school because it immediately turns into a who’s the sickest competition someone fucking end me

I’m so anxious I’m going to wake up having gained or maintained the anticipation is making it impossible to sleep PLEASE LORD I KNOW IM ON MY PERIOD SO IM GOING TO GAIN AND RETAIN WATER WEIGHT SUPER EASILY BUT I NEED TO WAKE UP 53kg PLEASEEE

God I want to binge so bad I’m not even hungry but the urges are killing me I forgot how hard the first day restricting after a binge was

I see nothing but fat when I look at the mirror

Does anyone have any tips on what to do after a huge painful binge besides purging/taking laxatives and walking/exercising? I’m specifically looking for ways to debloat / minimise the discomfort and ways to feel better emotionally.

Also if anyone has any ideas on how to prevent future binges triggered by hanging out with friends, that would be greatly appreciated !!

Rewarding myself with getting my nails done when I reach 48kg !! I want them done so bad I need to lose 5kg asap

Yall update on the hot cross bun situation, it was so disappointing I should’ve gotten a different one because this one tasted like ass it literally just tasted like a regular brioche bun and I regret OMAD’ing it 😔💔

Feeling very fat and fake today, it’s 1pm and I’ve only taken 3,500 steps today when I would usually be at least at 6000 by now. I’ve had an energy drink and I look so bloated. I’m not good enough, not sick enough, and all I want to do is cry and fast but I have fucking work.

The guilt is eating me alive, knowing that it was my decision to binge, to keep eating despite knowing I shouldn’t, I didn’t have too, no one would have even truly batted an eye if I hadn’t of.

Now it feels like I can’t stop eating, I’m not even hungry my brain just won’t stop thinking about it.

I hate myself so much.

All I wanted was to OMAD a hot cross bun but ofc they are all sold out smh😔