Kind Of Debating Raising My Intake To 800 Every Couple Days Just So I Can Start Getting Some More Protein

I binged again, to no ones surprise. I’m such a failure, not just at this but at everything in my life, this is just making me realise that more than I usually would I guess. I don’t think fasting is gonna work out for me, I have too much of a mental block from it right now so I think I’ll just go back to 400 cals a day and progressively increase the intermittent fasting hours if that makes sense. I don’t even know, I’m just itching for some sort of control, a way to prove to myself that I can do something right.

Fasted, got nearly 25k steps and completed a workout for the first time in a year and I feel fantastic.

May is going to be my month !! 🫶🫶

I hate food and I hate myself, lord have mercy on me and let my binge run through me by morning so that I don’t gain

I hate myself so much I don’t feel like I’m good enough I need to be working harder, I feel like I’m so far behind and I can’t do anything right and I feel so alone.

I’m actually losing my mind somebody sedate me

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I bought some sushi impulsively and I want to eat it but I’m not sure how many calories are in it anf honestly I’m not that hungry and I’ve already fasted so far today so why break it now but I also really want the sushi RAHHHHHH

I think my scales broken or something cause I weighed myself this morning and it said I’m 51.8kg but istg I look fatter than I did a couple days ago when I weighed the same amount before I binged.

Considering the amount of medication I’ve taken today to rid myself of this water weight and bloating I better wake up underweight and with a squeaky clean bowel can I hear an amen 🙏