“BMI 16 Jail” “get Me Out Of BMI 15 Jail” BITCH FYM GET ME INNNNNN

Praying that I somehow lose like a kilo and a half overnight so I can get back down to the lower end of 51kg 🙏🙏

I hate myself so much I don’t feel like I’m good enough I need to be working harder, I feel like I’m so far behind and I can’t do anything right and I feel so alone.

I’m so anxious I’m going to wake up having gained or maintained the anticipation is making it impossible to sleep PLEASE LORD I KNOW IM ON MY PERIOD SO IM GOING TO GAIN AND RETAIN WATER WEIGHT SUPER EASILY BUT I NEED TO WAKE UP 53kg PLEASEEE

Currently have consumed roughly 400 cals today and my god are the binge urges killing me, I’ve also only took 10,000 steps so I am not in a negative net sadly.

Gonna take like 10+ lax then try and just go to sleep early, hopefully tomorrow will be a much more productive day !!

I just finished having the worst binge episode of my life. I’ve gone from 51.9kg to 56kg in the span of 2 days, consumed more than 10,000 calories, 3k at least in the past hour.

It was so disgusting, I sat on the floor shoving food down my throat, throwing up then continuing eating. It spilled everywhere, ice cream all though my carpet, all through my clothes. I tried to purge it out but nothig came up but drool. I sat in that, the drool, leftover throw up and food for what felt like 30 minutes. My stomach hurts, it looks disgusting and I’ve lost my thigh gap.

I was 2 weeks binge free, and now I’ve gone and messed it all up. I don’t even know what to do. My only plan is to take all my laxatives, walk until my legs give out, and cut myself.

I’m never eating again.

I hate food and I hate myself, lord have mercy on me and let my binge run through me by morning so that I don’t gain

I’ve consumed 250 calories of essentially liquid, burned 330 and have taken 15+ laxatives if I don’t shit absolutely everything out of my system and wake up a kilogram lighter istg I will jump into oncoming traffic.

Not feeling as exhausted today yippeee !! I am absolutely determined to get 20k steps AND get in a proper workout 😼

My local shop not only restocked all my favourite binge food but also put it all on sale #godgiveshistoughestbattlestohisstrongestsoldiers

Man I took 15+ laxatives last night and it has barely effected me, I fear I have developed a tolerance smh 😔