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Histologia went bad. Like, bad. I've never ever in my life had such a bad grade. Am i surprised? No. But it does feel awful to be so bad at something and not being able to change it before things like these happen.

Semiología is worrying me, i don't feel prepared, I'm not ready for that exam. I am terrified of failing again.

«Lo mejor nunca se sube»

And it's a picture of me at the hospital eating, while i had a psychotic episode

A lot in the ana community: o yEAh cofFee YuM yUm iS my fAvorItE meAl

Me, who doesn't like coffee:

(Please tell me I'm not the only one who don't like coffee):

Me: I've done this before, of course I can exist without eating chametz !!

Me the second day of pesach, craving a cookie:

I miss my girlfriend so much

whoops, i've been told that "it is not abuse 'cause is for your own good", the harm my parents did to me for my own good turned me in a traumatized child, with fear. Nobody who was physically abused as a child turned out okay.

being spanked is abuse

being slapped is abuse

being physically harmed or hit in any way by a person in power over you is abuse

being intimidated and terrified into thinking that they’ll hit you is abuse

being forced into state where you flinch when their tone of voice changes is abuse

being sure that you’re dead when they lift their hand is heavy psychological abuse

being hit with your own hand is abuse (abuser forcing your hand to strike your body)

feeling like you have to keep a happy face and pretend that everything is okay is abuse

feeling like you haven’t been hit enough and like you deserve more is abuse

having a person with power want to cause physical harm to when you have no way to defend yourself is abuse

controlling your reactions is abuse

demanding a different reaction after physical harm is abuse

demanding no fear, no anger, no bitterness, no symptoms after being hit is abuse

forbidding expression of pain and fear and anger is abuse

subtly letting you know that you can’t tell anyone about what they did is abuse and silencing technique

shaming you for hitting you is abuse

demanding that it’s your fault if you get traumatized by physical harm is abuse

claiming that it’s you who is violent if you resist or try to escape or fight back is abuse

if any of this was done to you: you have been abused

if this was done to you and you don’t think it was harmful: you are wrong

if you dare to comment “i was hit and i turned out okay”: nobody who thinks any of this is alright to do to a child has turned out okay

I feel numb, i can only feel the way my rib cage moves when i breath. I don't know, i dont feel like doing anything at all

That was... Intense. Thank god, thank god, thank god. I might be falling. But i know it's sincère.

Days off antipsychotics and feeling the void