I Feel Numb, I Can Only Feel The Way My Rib Cage Moves When I Breath. I Don't Know, I Dont Feel Like

me: *tell my mum i am full*

My ed:

My mum: *leaves the room*

Me: ooo emPANADAS *eats 3*

My brain: thank you

My ed:

Based on a true story

(4:36pm)

At least is my last try.

Hey, I'm here again¿ I'ven been sososo dead here I was in exams I had at leas 28373937 anxiety attacks:/ Y'all know what that means, right? BINGING:0000 I gained that three pounds I thought I lost last month I feel sooooo fucking bad, and it's not a joke, I thought about purging agAIN AND I DON'T PURGE SINCE JANUARY, I'M GOING FUCKING CRAZY ABOUT MY FUCKING WEIGHT. I tried, I swear I tried. I didn't notice when food became numbers, and I remember how time ago I read some tumblr post about whY DON'T TO RESTRICT FOODS AND ALL THAT SHIT THAT ALL ANA POST TELLS YOU and I said "nah, I'm not gonna be thaaat bad, right?" I feel bad, but I can't stop I'm empty. That's all, but next week or maybe tomorrow, depends on my mood. I'm gonna try to ristrict again, just to be calm. I'm sorry

¿Me quieres qué?

oh babe.. u really thought u ate huh? that lil comment of yours reads like someone who's one skipped dose away from a public meltdown. "girl u can't even stand without feeling dizzy" coming from the human embodiment of a pill dispenser? ur brain's not wired, it's waterlogged.

'super lesbian' is such a serve in ur head i’m sure.. meanwhile the community's watching u like ur a walking cautionary tale. u don't look empowered. u look like a walking twitter thread on why queer ppl get side-eyed.

'in recovery'.. how inspiring. look at u.. doing the absolute bare minimum not to implode. slow clap. maybe if u stopped broadcasting ur fragility like it's a brand u'd get a sliver of respect. but nah, u cling to the wreckage like it’s all u have.

go ahead, post another paragraph pretending ur some domme deity while shaking in ur boots every time someone looks at u wrong. ur not intimidating. ur a wet paper bag of trauma and attention issues, held together by expired coping mechanisms.

be honest. u want someone to call u brave for surviving ur own mess. it's boring. ur boring. try again. 🥱

At least i do eat baby, unlike you, the ED didn't mess up with my brain chemistry to be so chronically online and think you can hurt somebody just by a hate anon.

Ahora decilo a la cara, perra llena de envidia, no te vayas a atraganta conmigo en tu boca, se ve que no te cabe la porción;)

i need to follow more ppl so pls reblog this if ur any of these:

- 160-168 cm tall

- sw was 60+ kg

- ur ugw is 50 kg or under

- you’re under 18

- you’re living with parents/roommates

it honestly doesn’t rly matter lol pls just reblog this if ur active

save me cold brew chamomile tea. cold brew chamomile tea save me

hi it’s vik and here’s ur love letter ❤️ hey u, yeah u. i'm here to shower u with fake affection since u clearly need it more than i do. ur obsession with me is kinda cute but mostly pathetic. ur entire existence is a walking cringe compilation

Nena andate a dormir mejor, affection is the best !! Hope you get it soon, cause i surely do.

Reasons not to hurt kids:

their happiness

their safety

their well being

their health

their childhood

their future

their emotional health

their mental health

because the world will hurt them too and they’re supposed to have someone in life they can trust

so they’re safe loving you

so they feel protected

because they don’t deserve pain

because it’s already so damn hard to exist on this decaying planet and they don’t need any extra stress in life

because they’re facing difficulties and need support not pain

because it makes you a horrible person to hurt a kid

because nobody benefits from it

because it teaches them that being hurt is normal, acceptable way to live

because it can push them to hurt themselves

because it will make them feel abandoned and worthless

because they feel your hatred so strongly it can break them

because they’re in a small body and it’s already frightening for them to know someone wants to hurt them

because it’s not your job to be a villain in a child’s life

because they might not recover

because there’s only so much a child can endure

because they might never stop hurting

because they will grow up and you don’t have the right to expect their forgiveness

because you’re taking away their ability to feel save and loved by you

because you might be taking away their ability to feel safe or loved by anyone

because you’re breaking their heart and they thought they could trust you

because no child deserved to be brought in this world only to be betrayed

because making a child go thru pain is a despicable and monstrous thing to do

because it doesn’t have any, ANY benefits to the child at all

because there’s a huge amount of children already traumatized and suicidal and struggling to keep themselves alive by the end of the day

because you do not have to hurt a child, ever

Reasons to hurt a child

There are no reasons. There are only excuses. Only incomprehensible garbage and lies that exist for the sole purpose of excusing your horrifying actions of hurting a kid. Because you felt like keeping a small human being in pain to satisfy your sick urges. No kid needs to be hurt to grow up right. No kids requires pain inflicted on them by people they trust and rely on in order to be raised safely. If you think there are actual reasons to hurt children it’s because you want to hurt them and will make up any kind of bullshit to excuse your abuse. No child has deserved this. Stay away from children if you can’t love them.

G-d blessed me after so much time feeling unworthy of love. And how did he make everything perfect, as if it was meant to be.

I miss my girlfriend so much