Histologia Went Bad. Like, Bad. I've Never Ever In My Life Had Such A Bad Grade. Am I Surprised? No.

While kids still do those weird trends, and I'm still around, you'll never miss them

I love you a lot

I've realized that i am indeed, falling for her. With everything: pain, fear and terror, I'm falling in love again.

I keep repeating the same memory «here's your sweater and... Look what i got». Her holding yellow flowers. She looked so pretty, the way she smiles at me. It's so amazing i can't even describe it.

I just can't get myself together, how is this happening to me again? How did i not notice? I did see the signs. Me staring and smiling like an idiot, i always want to see her and kiss her and... Oh god, i am falling.

She's so special, it feels like she's the voice of calm and reason every time i lose my senses. I love how she's always around, i adore and crave her touch.

I need to write a letter.

do you ever just wonder how far ahead you’d be in life if you didnt have a mental illness or if your family wasn’t dysfunctional or if that one tragic thing never happened and it just fucks you up??

I'll see the psychiatrist on Saturday

I'll see the psychiatrist on Saturday

I'll see the psychiatrist on Saturday

He's not gonna believe me when I tell him how I feel like, he's just gonna ask about med school and how I possibly have ADD. Idk doci feel lost in class but I also feel lost in life, like, I didn't feel like myself, but who am I at the end of the they but my thoughts and worries, my past and future, the way I can't trust people, not even those who are supposed to be there for me. I'm broken and I know there's something wrong with me

FUUUUCK....... i sure could go for a Nice, Cold, and Refreshing glass of

Ice Water

right about now.......

i'm alive *sadly*

I start school again, today. It's 2am AND I'M NOT SLEEPING.

The president had a conference yesterday and he removed our mid-term break, every teen in my country is like:

we're sad, i'm sad.

Minecraft and cartoon network kept me alive.

I'm avoiding social contact since I fucked up my self-steem AGAIN.

And I started wondering what will happen if my girlfriend notices me acting weird, she did last time and:(. I don't want to have a mental breakdown and tell her I have an eating disorder. I don't want tu destroy everything again. I want to be okay but I can't even keep myself okay.

(Day 31??? of quarantine: april 14)

What are y'all doing??

Pls check out Cavetown's new album:'(

*sign* i want someone to translate hebrew love songs to

Día das nais

Pls pls don't think im still in love. That love destroyed me and made me wanna tear my skin off because of how painful it was. I dont hate her, but that doesn't mean i still want her. I want you

I miss the hospital, i genuinely felt happy to be there. People were treating me right, my mental illness was recognised, my parents weren't fighting (at least not in front of me).